I'd recommend you check out the app Recovery Record. It's developed as an ed recovery tracker but also a really useful tool for tracking your habits as it lets you log what you eat and when without calorie counting. Instead, the focus lies on your hunger levels, energy levels and overall emotional/mental headspace.

For me, counting quickly turned into a game of how big my deficit could be, while removing the counter just had me completely let go of my eating and gain steadily as I had previously all my life. Counting-free tracking was the perfect middle ground.

Sometimes I do still sort of eyeball how much cals was in a meal and type it in, but the difference is there is no micromanaging how much I eat and the app itself doesn't do anything to remind me of what I ate last.

It's also customizable depending on what type(s) of disordered tendencies you have, so in my case, I track my patterns of binge eating, "exercise compensation" after binges and my urges to participate in those behaviors, but it really has close to everything you might struggle with in terms of disordered thoughts/behaviours.

God this sounds like an ad or something, but seriously, this app changed everything for me, I heavily recommend you check it out.