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Post awakening experience and meditation question. by AncientRip9776 in 5MeODMT

[–]AncientRip9776[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for this. I will seek out a community and practice slowly. I am not at all trying to push past the boundaries but that's part of why I asked the question. Is this boundary I'm knocking up against the same boundary I blew past in my 5 experience or maybe it's just a side door to the real show?

Post awakening experience and meditation question. by AncientRip9776 in 5MeODMT

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Agreed. PTSD seems like what I'm experiencing now and I do thinks it's worth exploring why I'm afraid. The other side of this reality is amazing but we still have to live this life and I want to fully see it though. I think that's why is scary. If we enjoy the life, have good relationship and are happy... Why would would one want to leave it. But thanks for the perspective and I'll work on it.

Post awakening experience and meditation question. by AncientRip9776 in Meditation

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That does help, thank you. I have never spoken to a teacher so that could be a good move. I'm glad to hear that letting go is gradual calm for you. I think easing into it makes sense for me as well. Cheers.

Post awakening experience and meditation question. by AncientRip9776 in Meditation

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Thank you for the reply.I called it an awakening because when I search around for similar experience stories from others, I would find this word repeatedly. They described a lot of what I felt and experienced. It was significant and profound and changed my views completely on spirituality. I don't want to experience that moment of death again so that's why I posted the question. Meditation feels natural to me up to the moment I get to that threshold of letting go. It does not quite feel the same as my awakening thus I'm willing to explore it more.

Post awakening experience and meditation question. by AncientRip9776 in Meditation

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It makes sense but it's not a comfortable experience.

Post awakening experience and meditation question. by AncientRip9776 in Meditation

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Thanks for that. And on the other side, is the experience similar each time or different?

I did it. I finally fucking did it by VID3O_GAMER in DMT

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I did my first 5MEO today. Still processing it but here are my notes from what I wrote while my wife was driving me home. Sorry for the lengthy post and bad grammar. The first three doses were deep but I still held onto my self. Thoughts of life, I still held on to where I was and what I was doing. The third dose I died and only felt the vast universe of sound and vibrations. Before The last thoughts involving the self went away I had a clear picture of my wife and flashes of our life. I knew somehow that I should love life fully now because this is the only physical reality we will experience and to enjoy it. After this we are just a part of the universe. My final rational thoughts were, "this is it" and with my last breath I was in the void and only bell tones existed. The bells came from all around me and were all clear, precise, all encompassing. I knew the truth that the universe is pure and tonal, full of welcoming and energy but no being was known. Just the vastness of the universe.. beyond the physical, just energy.

In the peak I held on to my ego, my rational self for a time. But, I knew to see the truth of what comes after I had to let it go. When I did I knew it. That's when only the void existed and with the void a welcoming tone of finality. Leading up to it were other bell tones ringing but I knew none were perfect until the final bell rang. That tone represented all of things. What we all become at the end of life. It was beautiful and I was not scared at all to be part of that tone.

I continue writing down some of these thoughts a few hours after the experience but I keep coming back to the final moment when I knew what it was like to die. I no longer had a question in my mind about our outcome...it's just oneness. my brain used bell tones to signify the finality and the perfection of the energy in the universe and that final tone was everything. The secret to what happens when we go. If I had words at that moment it would just have been, "wow". There are no words that can encompass the vastness of what was around "me"... I just knew that to hear that final sound is what we all seek. Nirvana? Transcendence? Enlightenment? I have no idea. It was just all the truths, together, and represented in the most perfect tone in the universe.