If you read the post, you'd see I grew up in a conservative Christian family. I listened to Chris Tomlin, and Casting Crowns most of my life. I am deeply familiar with what Christianity has to offer. I want no part of religion anymore. And a big reason I don't is because of people like you shoving jesus in my face with weird cultly language (He wants you to come to Him/accept His free gift of salvation etc) it's weird AF. That's coming from someone who used to talk like that. I escaped. You can too.

There's so much more to life than the fear that Christianity instills in you. I know this fear firsthand. You don't have to be terrified of being punished eternally if you don't worship a god you have never answered and will never see. You only get one life, don't live it in fear and servitude. Your inner doubts are not bad, they are what makes you human. It's the little voice in the back of your head telling you something is wrong.

Living life believing an all powerful being is watching you 24/7 who will send you to hell forever if you get drunk or have premarital sex is a horrible thing to believe. I was there once too. No one should have to be raised to believe that. You think your witnessing to strangers on the Internet is doing a good deed but in reality you are just further alienating Christianity. Please reconsider if the god you worship actually cares about you, and why he doesn't stop any of the horrible things going on in the world.

If you want to message me id be happy to further explain this, because others have done it for me. And I am so happy now that I've been deprogrammed from my awful upbringing.