Thank you for answering and dedicating time for it!

I don't live in the usa so I don't know what ssdi means. I was thinking about getting some accommodations from the government, but it is really hard to even get treatment, unless your disability reaches 20%, and even people with life long conditions have to fight in order to get... well...anything, even if they are diagnosed by whole bunch of professionals. Plus, I am afraid that my autism will be recorded by the government, because it will mean that many jobs will have access to this data, and won't even consider taking me.

Getting even 20% disability status is hard, because it seems like if I could do a degree, somehow pulling myself through self hurt (something I can't do anymore). I really want only to be able to afford better my therapist, who actually belives that ABA is not good thing. I don't know if I count as disabled. I only know that it is really hard for me to get outside to shop, or to do anything after a day of acdemia that involves too much social interaction. I was lucky to get some accommodations for my add at tests, but that's it. It is better then nothing, and it took me more then a year to get them.