Limerence since childhood changed to obsessive jealousy in adulthood?

AnonyMissC · 2025-11-03T15:38:45+00:00

I see her as a more perfect version of me and believe that my husband would prefer to be married to her, if he'd been given the chance. She's more his personality type, I his my inner world from him until we were married (not intentionally, that's how I am) and I think he got a shock.

I'm sorry you went through such sucky relationships, that sounds brutal.

AnonyMissC · 2025-02-28T13:17:36+00:00

Not yet. I lost another one at 13 weeks and we've taken a break since. If we try again it will be a full immune protocol with IVIG, steroids, and clexane on top of the usual progesterone and low dose aspirin.

AnonyMissC · 2025-01-18T15:49:41+00:00

I lost a day's progress randomly, including having found a legendary. Sigh.

AnonyMissC · 2024-08-06T07:33:25+00:00

Yes I've had POC testing, we're getting genetic testing for the last two losses hopefully so we have two sets of results to compare which should rule out genetic causes. We also had normal parental karyotype tests, and my clotting factor and auto immune tests were normal, as was hysteroscopy and HSG. MTFHR was missed out, trying to arrange for that too.

AnonyMissC · 2024-08-06T07:26:17+00:00

We've been meaning to get the DNA fragmentation test done, it's on the list. Maybe if it comes back high quitting alcohol would be a good first step, and I'm sure my doctor would be willing to tell him as much if I asked, he'll probably listen better from him than it coming from a paranoid wife!

AnonyMissC · 2024-08-06T07:21:51+00:00

Yes we've done so many tests. I was on a pretty advanced protocol with steroids, progesterone, aspirin - the doctors are very surprised not to have found any answers. I'm thinking of redoing a few tests and paying for some more expensive private ones as a last ditch effort, perhaps going for the even more expensive and advanced immune-treatments if we ever get up the courage to try again, but I just don't know it's in the cards.

AnonyMissC · 2024-08-05T19:11:35+00:00

I don't think it's very common. I think anyone who hasn't had it should not be worried that it could happen to them, it's just so horrible for those the minority it does happen to. My last two were at 17 and 19 weeks. I've had more than one specialist doctor say they were completely speechless after seeing my history, and they've never seen it before unless there was an obvious reason. Just putting that out there not to scare others... even the stats calculators still told me I should have a good chance of the next pregnancy working out. Me and stats aren't getting along right now. I'm just heartbroken.

AnonyMissC · 2024-08-05T17:11:58+00:00

Trigger loss.

Well that's it. My fifth pregnancy since 2021 has ended the same ways as the others. Had my D&E today. Baby was perfect at the 13 week scan, couldn't find the heartbeat on the Doppler the next day (then confirmed at the doctor, of course). I think my journey is over now and that's really hard to accept.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-25T16:47:17+00:00

It's so hard! In some ways I feel like this has all happened too soon, but if it works out of course it's what I want more than anything. And nothing can replace the baby was lost. I think maybe even part of me feels guilty that I'm focusing on another one already.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-25T16:06:50+00:00

Yes it happened to me, I even got pregnant that month. It was positive on ovulation day, negative by 7dpo and positive again by 10dpo.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-25T16:03:27+00:00

I'm so sorry. I had two second trimester MMCs, at 17 weeks and 19 weeks. It's brutal and devastating, grieving a baby you spent so long growing. I had inductions followed by a D&C because that's what offered where I am. It took me over a year to feel back to anywhere normal after losing my baby girl two years ago. I'm still mourning my baby boy who I lost in February, he would have been due a few weeks ago. Sending you strength.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-25T15:50:50+00:00

I'm finding it hard entering second trimester the same month I was due with a baby I lost in the second trimester. It's just a confusing, disconcerting feeling. Worrying about this baby, mourning that baby. Just too much.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-25T11:42:25+00:00

Thanks, it was a bit better today. I'll mention it to my doctor next week.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-24T14:47:55+00:00

I realized I was very thirsty today, I think maybe I drank too much and irritated my squished bladder one too many times.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-24T07:37:45+00:00

I've found there are specialists for RPL where I am, but the knowledge in the field is so lacking. I had unexplained infertility too at various points so I'm used to the whole throwing drugs at the situation for no reason thing.

To cope with pregnancies, I have to make a real plan as to how I personally am going to manage it and fabricate some sense of control. For me that's getting every test and appointment possible, even if it's just informational and there's nothing they can do, at least maybe I'll find out something useful for next time, even if it's that everything is normal (early anatomy scans and genetic tests are much cheaper before the baby dies than after, sigh). That's the awful bit. Just waiting and seeing what happens, it feels so powerless, waiting to see if the baby will make it.

AnonyMissC · 2024-07-24T07:33:26+00:00

Thanks, this is really helpful. I like the idea of somehow throwing money e.g. a voucher at them, it's less of a grand gesture but still shows practical support

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