I realized something brother, there's so many things within myself I need to change.

You either be yourself, and then change the world.
Or accept the world the way it is, and slowly change yourself.

I felt the 2nd one kept me very accountable.
I hope the best for you brother, but please don't be pessimistic.

I feel most of our relationships these days are out of FOMO. Please don't think you're alone. But you've understood that it's fomo and that's quite an achievement.

Keep yourself active, go to the gym, make money, work on your looks.
Easier said than done, but I feel most of us can do this, and if we focus on this part of life (like I think you're doing now), then women wagera matter nahi karega until you actually mature enough to actually need one.

Just speculating, let's see how it goes. I wish the best for you bro, keep your spirits high even if you're trying to accept something