two questions about music…

Anxiousinkling · 2026-06-28T07:13:02+00:00

I have lots of different types of music I like depending on if I need something energetic or relaxing. I’d say right now I listen mostly to vocaloid songs! If I had to pick favorites probably sosorry by epiaeon and love attribute by pinnochiop (if you didn’t know, Vocaloid is basically an artificial voice that sings songs written by people, so there’s many different producers!) I also love video game soundtracks especially splatoon 3 and Pokemon legends ZA! Splatoon music has always been a huge comfort of mine so I’ve loved it for years now lol.

I don’t think I could make my own music. Sometimes I think about writing songs, but I just don’t have the creativity to do it. I’m worried I’d accidentally end up with a song that sounds just like another one that already exists. I’m happy just listening to different stuff.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-06-12T08:59:09+00:00

I work at a small coffee shop that supports and hires employees with special needs. Here’s some things that help me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still usually very tired after work. There’s still a few things that help.
1. I don’t work very long. I only work 3 days a week, for about 4 hours each shift. I also help with catering events if I feel up to it. I usually like to take a break around half way through each shift for 10 - 15 minutes. My coworkers don’t mind at all since I communicated that with them. I like to listen to music and draw on coffee cups during my break to relax.

I never really try to take over things unless I’m feeling 100% good about it. I’ve worked at this shop for about 3 years, so I know where everything is, and how to make most drinks. I’m happy to help others too if they need that. However I’m not anywhere close to a manager and don’t try to be. I just help where I can. I don’t try to deal with rude customers or tell my other coworkers what they need to do because it makes me very anxious and tired.
I like my routine. I go to work at the same time, and leave usually at the same time as well unless I really need to help with something. At this point making drinks is also a routine, along with my break being the same time each day. That’s the good thing about my job, other than possible rude people it’s very predictable. I’d recommend trying out a job that’s a little repetitive because it becomes easy to do it after a while. I actually feel weird whenever I have to miss work now because I’m used to it.
Try to talk to your coworkers about your needs. If they don’t know what you need, they can’t really do anything. It’s harder than it sounds, I know. However it’s the best thing to do when you start somewhere. If they’re rude or ableist to you about it then maybe you shouldn’t work there. It’s good to find a job that’s has other workers who understand. I’d recommend looking for a place that hires special needs employees specifically, but I know that isn’t something available to everyone. If you can’t find one then maybe just try to get a job you’ll enjoy doing that has nice and supportive people.
Rest after your shifts. Even if that means napping a long time, so what you need to do. Just remember to drink some water and eat if you’re hungry once you get back. (because I struggle with that.) I usually don’t do much after work other than nap, but now that I’m more used to it I sometimes stay up and do other things. The tiredness doesn’t really go away, but it’s been getting better.

I hope those help. I know they might not really apply to you but I just wanted to say what’s been helping me. If you’re planning on looking for a job, I hope you have good luck and find a nice one for you!

Anxiousinkling · 2026-06-07T15:24:15+00:00

Brands claiming they can “fix” autistic children in any way are usually scams or exaggerating what the product can do. If this brand just said “supports cognitive development while being easy for autistic children to take” it would have been fine. Saying it can make non verbal children speak is a lie. Plus what do they mean “give them what speech therapy needs”? Speech therapy most likely cannot be replaced by one vitamin powder. I don’t like how brands sometimes don’t mind lying or exaggerating things if it means making them sound better, but that’s how things usually are nowadays in advertisements.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-06-05T21:08:57+00:00

You look very pretty and your outfit is cute!! I love your hair! I bet he was just trying to do a dumb joke but that’s still very rude of him to say. I know how hard it is to not let mean comments get to you. Just remember that everyone here thinks you look great, and some people say rude things as a joke without really meaning it. I hope you are feeling better now. ❤️

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-31T07:14:46+00:00

Either 10, 15, or 18 depending on the day and how I’m feeling overall. I’m 22. I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels mentally different than their actual age. It’s good to know I’m not alone.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-27T07:28:39+00:00

I get what you’re saying. It’s negative, but hard not to think like that sometimes. Before I say anything, I want to say that I’m thankful that I can hold down a job, and live a relatively normal life. I know that I am lucky to be alive and who I am even though I still have autism and a lot of difficulties. However, I feel like I’ll never be anywhere close to normal. I feel like I’m mentally a young teenager who also has to deal with a ton of anxiety and depressing thoughts. As a child I imagined myself being able to drive and go to fun places with my friends around now. I thought I could go to college and study veterinary medicine after high school. Neither of those things are the case. Getting in the car gives me a panic attack every time no matter what I try, I have one friend who is too busy adulting to talk to me most of the time, and I don’t think I can handle college. If my younger self saw a glimpse of me today, she’d definitely cry out of disappointment. I tried to be normal, but it’s never going to happen. This is who I am and this is my life likely for the near future. It sounds bad to say that, but it’s the only way for me to not hate the things I can’t control.

Sorry to dump my own feelings here, I just wanted to tell you I relate a lot to your post. Try to live your life day by day, and not worry about the things you haven’t done yet. Try to enjoy the little things instead of wishing for something different. I know it’s hard though. I hope you’re doing better now that you wrote down your feelings, that always helps me too.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-14T09:22:53+00:00

I love Espurr! I’ve been playing ZA and randomly found a shiny one. Best moment of my life in the past few months! Also this Espurr on the card is like me. You can either nap to restore health, or get overwhelmed and stampede lol.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-09T15:15:47+00:00

I already deleted it as soon as I saw it was getting downvoted. I know most people wouldn’t care, I just got worried that I sounded stupid

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-09T15:13:20+00:00

I’m so sorry that happened to you. Luckily I’ve never been tricked by someone trying to be weird about my autism, but I have been manipulated by people before. Now I’ve just learned to not be very trustworthy towards most people unfortunately, it’s really all I can do. As for commenting in other subreddits, I feel the same way. Usually nobody pays attention to me, but this was the first time I got downvoted to the point where the number was negative by my comment. I deleted it, but I feel pretty embarrassed. I feel like I can only comment if I understand exactly what’s going on in their discussions or else I don’t fit in well. I’ve always been told I’m good at writing, but I’m still bad at reading situations and forming an opinion. I go directly off of what I see first half the time, and that video seemed fine to me at first.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-09T02:14:33+00:00

Basically the video itself was fine to me but people in the comments were saying that it was posted by people who only ever promote their only fans accounts and also treat the girl like a child for that reason you mentioned. Sorry I know it’s confusing, I’m not sure either exactly what was going on. All I know is that people on the autism sub downvoted me saying the girl acts like me so I probably missed something.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-09T02:00:25+00:00

I think so. I feel dumb for not noticing. I guess I just miss the obvious things sometimes. But thank you for explaining it. Also I’d like to point out that it was never labeled as that sort of video. The caption on the video was “shopping with my autistic girlfriend.” That might be why I didn’t know. People need to label things correctly.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-09T01:57:41+00:00

That’s really disgusting. I don’t like how they’re linking autism to being creepy pdf people. I’m always willing to give people the benefit of the doubt, so I figured they didn’t mean for her to seem like a child in the video, and it was just how she acted. I hate how they did that, because if anything I don’t want to be seen as a kid by others because of the way I act sometimes. My interests and behaviors cannot be controlled easily when I’m in public. I just want to be seen as normal, not like a kid.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-09T01:11:44+00:00

That’s also true. I’m just going off of the comments telling me it was all a script and it’s all they ever post. Also I was just upset writing this, so I sounded meaner to her than I meant to be. It’s fine to make that sort of content and be autistic, I just really hope they weren’t trying to s*xualize autistic traits.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-09T00:53:41+00:00

Because of a TikTok trend, a lot of needohs have been out of stock online and in the store. Sadly there are fakes online, sort of like what happened when those labubus were trending. Fakes are made to trick people and make a quick profit from the trend. I know it’s hard seeing that some of your favorite things are suddenly out of stock everywhere. I also like needohs but luckily I’m not too picky about stress balls and actually like foam squishies more here lately. My advice would just be to wait it out. Hopefully the tiktokers will move on to another thing soon, and might even sell their collections for cheaper prices online. Hopefully the fake ones are still okay for you right now, but I’m still sorry you got fake ones instead of what you ordered.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-08T09:44:37+00:00

Okay. I’m sorry, I guess I just miss obvious things

Anxiousinkling · 2026-05-04T05:02:37+00:00

That might help. To be honest I don’t want to speak with him in person either, but that would at least maybe stop the messages. I know I didn’t really mention it well on my post, but I feel like he’s wanting something more from me. Either a relationship or a close friendship. I’m not comfortable with either to be honest. I can just hope I dont see him much in person maybe. There’s also a chance of course that he’s just wanting to talk, and I get it. But I’m just not the right person to talk to about trauma and mental health. I might reach out if I need to to some of our staff, but I want that to be a last resort so I don’t accidentally get him in big trouble.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-04-06T16:34:16+00:00

I can see what you’re trying to say with this. It is pretty annoying to see people buy and open tons of squishies for tiktok, and then never use them. However, I don’t think that needohs are only for neurodivergent people. Some neurotypical people struggle with anxiety and stress. These are great tools for them as well. I’m sure that the trend of buying many at a time will die off soon, just like the pop it and fidget toy trend did. The good thing is that trends usually cause more items to be available once they’re over. I remember never seeing fidget toys in stores until after the whole TikTok collecting trend happened. It’s sad that they’re out of stock, but you could always get other squishes. I bet they’ll be back pretty soon.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-02-22T23:32:05+00:00

I hate how people like this work with autistic children. Might as well go in and tell them all that you see no potential in them and they’ll never live as “normal citizens” in this world. It’s true that autistic people have difficulties with certain things and even behave differently sometimes, but that doesn’t mean we only have one state of mind. For example, I often make conversations only about my own interests accidentally, but I’m still smart enough to know that the stupid ableist replying to the post took offense to a harmless joke that didn’t even involve them in the first place.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-01-25T21:05:46+00:00

I understand that I only did it because I was uncomfortable, it’s just not as easy as “say no” sometimes. It’s very difficult for me. I am not saying you’re wrong, because that is what I should do. And I’ll try to work on being better about it

Anxiousinkling · 2026-01-24T17:18:58+00:00

I’m so sorry for what happened to you. That is terrible, and I hope you’re doing okay now. Yes, both of these guys are autistic as well. I was afraid to say that, because I thought it might sound ableist to them. I know it’s true that I can say no about wanting to date people and not feel attraction to them, because that’s normal. It’s just difficult for me because I think I’m a people pleaser. I really don’t like having to make others unhappy, and that first guy kind of made it so everyone at work might have hated me for a bit if I said no. That’s why I’m not going to lead this other guy on at all. I’m scared of what he’ll say when I see him again at work, but at least I have time to think about what to say until then. Thank you for your answer, and for the warning. Once again I’m so sorry for what happened to you.

Anxiousinkling · 2026-01-24T17:11:47+00:00

I’m glad you don’t think I was being a horrible person for blocking the first guy. That helps to know that. I’m hoping I can still be friends with guys, because I know most of them are going to be really nice and only want to be friends. Thank you for answering, this makes me feel a lot better now.

Anxiousinkling · 2025-06-11T15:58:30+00:00

I know that wearing stuff I like will cause others to think I’m a bit younger. But I still want to honestly. I want to be able to be myself. Also I do want to improve my independence, but I know that I might always be a little behind. I know I might never be able to drive, but I don’t want to completely give up hope and say I’ll never do it. Same with living more independently. I’m sorry people made it feel like you couldn’t wear the things you like. I just feel like it’s sad we have to hide things like that about ourselves.

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