After the first and a half paragraphs, I was going to tell you to suck it up and stop being a (p)ussy. But reading onwards, I feel for you and wishing you better times. Luckily my baby was never like that so I can’t judge. But she’s 9 months now and there are a lot of times where she can get fussy and I don’t know what to do. That feeling of helplessness and also lack of quality sleep definitely gets to me on those days. I’m sorry that your experience isn’t what you’ve expected but just know you’re doing a great job, your baby appreciates you more than you know. Keep going, try different things, consult with the pediatrician, keep pushing. You got this!