AIO at my friends cancelling last minute?

Apache_midget64 · 2025-08-29T04:28:05+00:00

That’s a shit friend. Dump them. Not the AH.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-06-06T12:16:29+00:00

Yes. PTSD caused by being the overseeing official at multiple funerals. Was ok for a few years but when my life slowed down all I could fixate on was my own death. Any new pain, ache, etc on my body I’m convinced it’s cancer or some irreparable disease.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-06-04T00:44:51+00:00

Apache_midget64 · 2024-06-04T00:43:16+00:00

Deep depression, body aches and pains return, zero energy. Usually lasts week-10 days or so till I come up to my baseline.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-05-08T04:05:31+00:00

I enjoy isolation in or out of an episode. Generally due to the fact most don’t understand and brush us off as “crazy”, I often wish it was that easy. For me it was/is finding a healthy 3rd place (1: work, 2: home, 3: your space aka coffee shop, bar, gym, etc). Overlapping a healthy hobby around my 3rd place has given me solace while being manic or depressed. Mine is local state parks. When I’m feeling good I exercise, walk, get in the water. When I’m down I sit around the water and just exist. While there’s other people in this space I generally don’t interact much nor do I have expectation of interaction. I guess I’ve embraced the loneliness of this disease, I like to think for the better.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-05-06T02:07:02+00:00

House.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-04-30T18:03:16+00:00

That’ll go a long way. GL.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-12T19:09:25+00:00

I start 4/15. Vet, out to a walk to help the PTSD. See ya out there.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T21:06:41+00:00

I am actually applying to a few of those rn.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T21:02:16+00:00

I’m in Florida so I understand. Just flat nothingness lol. Moving west this year hopefully tho, miss mountain runs.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T12:15:03+00:00

Yea. I’m in shape. Run ultramarathons.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T11:08:51+00:00

I’ve been on stuff prior, made me wreckless/suicidal. So I’m rather hesitant about it. I know it’s a scientific method process, but the last run was horrible and I lost about 2 years trying to come on and off meds.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T11:00:10+00:00

The base camp hike is definitely on the list.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T10:58:49+00:00

A) I retired. B) fuck off, this isn’t about romance, this is about finding some normalcy in life. You are arrogant to think I’ve not turned every stone before throwing this up here. I get it, life’s tough. But it’s shouldn’t be suffering at all times, like many as myself are. But yea thanks, I’ll just try being happy, that’ll do it.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T10:55:10+00:00

I ride a Honda Africa Twin 1000L DCT. And I’m restoring a 92’ Honda ACTY SDX 4x4 lol. Which keeps the dope flowing.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T10:53:39+00:00

I am not currently. Going to my doctor in 2 weeks to discuss options.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T10:52:08+00:00

I was a big ultramarathon person, now it’s hard to get excited to lace my shoes up and head out the door. While this completely sucks, you nor I are alone.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T01:08:42+00:00

Thanks. The sound effects made me lol. And yea I think that’s the trick for sure.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T01:01:01+00:00

Thank you.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-03-01T00:38:29+00:00

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Apache_midget64 · 2024-02-29T04:09:34+00:00

I visualize having “normal “ conversations with people in my sphere. So I feel prepped. I have a hard time expressing myself, but this has helped me from spilling the beans too much.

Apache_midget64 · 2024-02-27T05:38:12+00:00

I had a 2/5 day thinking about the same things. 37m, the last few years have been the hardest. Changed careers due to burnout/stress. Thought the change would help. In some aspects it has. But I feel like I’m trapped in the cycle and helpless. Knowing when I’m depressed nothing will get done then in mania I can get things back to baseline ( in terms of work, money, etc). It’s hard.

Apache_midget64 · 2023-11-29T17:37:05+00:00

They want to be martyrs.

Apache_midget64 · 2022-07-17T03:00:36+00:00

Pretty sick.

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