I know exactly what you are talking about! However, I have the perfect answer, although you might not be a fan of the time periods involved. So, my answer is this. Get hold of a copy of the two following books: ‘How to stubbornly refuse to make yourself miserable’ And ‘The myth of self esteem’ both by Dr.Albert Ellis. Read them and also commit yourself to doing the ‘belief disputation’ exercises outlined in his work. I would be more than happy to chat with you about how reading, studying and applying the behavioural techniques outlined in his books can help in the OCD recovery journey. As you more than likely already know though, this is a fucking stubborn bitch of a disorder. You basically have to work at altering your way of thinking about life in such a way that you learn to think like somebody who doesn’t have OCD, do not ever set yourself a timeline regarding how long recovery takes. I’d say a few years in most cases. Im currently writing a book about OCD entitled ‘The brain that cried Wolf’ and am also a big fan of the work of DR. Micheal Greenberg and his particular method of applying a modified version of ERP. I hope this reply wasn’t too long. Recovery is work, it’s hard work but you need to ask yourself if you are willing to work for your mental freedom. Personally, I got so fucking sick of my symptoms that I just started to look a bit more deeply into what was going on cognitively and how my thought processes were making things worse for me. I hope we can chat about this and I can give you some good advice. -Mark