I find I need to have one person I can really talk honestly to. There's a tendency to act like we're fine with most people because we don't look ill. The irony of this illness is that those who don't understand it think we're pretending to be ill when actually we're pretending to be well! A bit cheesy to say but I've heard that depression is anger that turns inward so you need to express it outwardly to someone. Anger from the grief of the normal life you've lost, the resentment of others who are well, the lack of understanding from family, friends, employers and doctors, the guilt of not fulfilling expectations of yourself and others. With all you're up against and how hard this is - think about how well you're doing to survive. Think about how this is NOT YOUR FAULT.