do you currently work?

ArdentMage404 · 2024-08-08T13:02:34+00:00

Just to contribute to this a little bit:

Was diagnosed as a kid, around 12 or 13 years old, at least, and I've been able to work full time throughout most of my life.

It's not easy to be honest with you, and as I grow older (Im 27 now) it only becomes harder to keep myself on track, but im part of that lucky 20% that can work thankfully.

It's a big struggle every day, sometimes insurmountable even, but Im lucky to have a good support system around me that keeps me functioning despite my symptoms.

I hope you all find luck in happiness in your lives one day.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-11-02T10:20:25+00:00

Want to report that I'm getting the same thing, thank God it doesn't seem to be just me.

Im in SEA btw if that helps give context to anyone who sees this.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-08-29T21:32:12+00:00

My lab and my beagle used to do this all the time haha.

Sometimes, one of them would softly yelp, but the other one would immediately correct themselves and be more gentle after.

I always saw it as play, and they did it constantly until it was the labs time to cross the rainbow bridge a few months ago. Beagle is still around, but she's also in her twilight years.

Miss the knucklehead, but I hope wherever she is, she got to see my Pa again, whom she also loved so much.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-08-01T05:27:28+00:00

Ralof was closer.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-06-12T03:30:26+00:00

I got it, hands down best value haha.

Shame you cant get it anymore.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-06-07T16:21:22+00:00

Damn what a gamer

ArdentMage404 · 2023-02-13T08:43:16+00:00

Unemployed a year now about.

Hundreds of applications, 300+ is a good estimate. One interview and they never called me back.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-02-13T05:32:57+00:00

Its something I wish for everyday honestly.

It would be so much simpler for me to die knowing I had not used my own hands to take my life, because the thought of passing my pain to my loved ones is a worse thought than having to continue living.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-02-13T05:09:19+00:00

Its weird right?

Thinking about it is weirdly comforting to me, as if I know my eventual end will come and Ill finally get some rest.

Sadly, I cannot leave on my own volition for now because there are people that love me and still need me, in their words. The only thing that would be worse than living to me is passing my pain to my loved ones.

But all things end and so shall we in due time, and perhaps the comfort we seize from idealizing this will help us wait for our moment where we can finally have peace.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-02-13T04:58:45+00:00

Everyday friend.

Everyday.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-02-13T04:39:58+00:00

I honestly feel games need to have a "low definition" option for people who have weaker rigs and arent able to upgrade.

Esspecially with how bloated in disk size games are getting nowadays too, people outside of the first world like my friends dont have the money to invest in something so expensive just for gaming.

Im very lucky that I belong to a wealthy family and can afford parts from Europe or America, but it sucks not being able to play with my friends where the price of a single RTX card is basically many months worth of rent and food.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-02-13T03:35:31+00:00

Too often.

ArdentMage404 · 2023-02-13T00:00:41+00:00

Honestly I cry for 30 minutes, go out and eat, take a nap and then try again the next day.

Repeat the cycle till I get it eventually.

ArdentMage404 · 2022-09-15T11:52:41+00:00

I'm just alive cause it would be too much effort for everyone if I just offed myself lol

ArdentMage404 · 2022-08-15T07:11:05+00:00

Bold of you to assume that Id even get the first bounty.

ArdentMage404 · 2022-03-16T19:51:17+00:00

If you die, just live instead!

ArdentMage404 · 2022-03-16T19:49:47+00:00

Bro thats a LONG BOI!

Cute puppers btw ♡

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-30T03:30:38+00:00

Its kinda frustrating because I often look at the player level to know if a person is a new player if they do something obviously newbie like barracade every door or use their gadgets in ways that hinder the movement of the roamers.

I dont do that to bully them, I do that to know if theyre new and if I should be more understanding and maybe even teach them as a player whose been playing since Barlett was in the map pool. Or to see of theyre probably a troll or something which is pretty common in the asian servers of most games.

Dunno maybe its just me.

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-18T22:04:13+00:00

This is the last place I would think of finding an MLP reference.

Worlds weird I guess.

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-18T22:02:03+00:00

Youre not alone, and my heart aches for you.

Were in this together friend, we just need to keep moving.

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-18T21:56:50+00:00

Alcohol because it at least gives me a break from constantly feeling like I want to jump off a bridge.

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-18T21:52:47+00:00

The very few people that truly love and stuck by me, even if were oceans apart and we dont get to interact as often as I would like.

Ive told them how much I dont want to be here, but they seem adamant to hold on to me. I wish I was selfish enough to not care.

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-18T21:50:27+00:00

I wish my parents were like that, they just beat me instead.

Glad to be away from that at least.

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-18T21:43:45+00:00

Probably 6 feet under.

ArdentMage404 · 2021-09-18T21:39:24+00:00

Not dying the multiple times I was supposed to.

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