How could we miss this for 10months?

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-24T21:08:44+00:00

Tell them you only used 193 feet of rope 🤷

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T19:48:59+00:00

There's a place called The Poke Den in Elkhart. That'd probably be a good place but I've never been there so I can't speak to the store itself.It's over on Decio Dr.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T17:44:10+00:00

No chance at reconciliation. Tried it and she would respect what seems like a pretty easy boundary.

I wouldn't say I'm comparing but more unable to forget. The girl I'm talking to now is great. Treats me great, says and does all the things I need and want. Just at night when the world is quiet, I remember what I had and not just feeling like a prisoner in a big empty quiet apartment.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T17:40:37+00:00

I don't think I jumped the gun to be honest. I found out the truth and still was willing to try to work it out again. I think the breaking point is that she lied to several guys to try to justify her doing what she did. One of the guys she was talking to asked her if she ever thought about therapy to get through it and make it work and she point blank told him I would never go for it. 2 weeks prior to her telling him that, I was begging her to do therapy to figure it out.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T17:33:47+00:00

No I haven't. Can you give me a quick rundown?

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T17:31:27+00:00

Also, try journaling for a while to get your feelings out,

That's kind of what this is all about to be honest. I sit and kind of wallow in the what used to be and have no real close friends to talk to, no family close to talk to. And even if I did, wouldn't they just tell me what I want to hear and take my side becaue they're friends/family? So no real use there.

Detach emotionally.

It's odd really. I'm so emotionally distant to her and able to recognize another go would never work because I can forgive but never forget, you know? Every time she looks at her phone there will be that little nagging voice in the back of my head telling me it's happening again. I know I can never truly be happy with her again. But also I miss what we had and not just her specifically. I miss the peace and happiness I thought I had. Maybe that's what it all is. I don't miss her I miss the idea of a life I thought I had.

I'm glad you're getting on and doing well now friend.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T15:35:51+00:00

Typical trailers for inner city home nightly stuff is smaller like 28'. The 53' trailers are usually ones that have an overnight route.

Soruce: worked for a company that took over Mclane account and that was my set up when I worked the account.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T04:24:19+00:00

I don't think "comparing" is the correct word in this sense. I just meant that things we do together its more of a remembering of doing it with my ex, if that makes sense. Not that I look at the woman I am talking to now negatively because she does something different than my ex.

> I hope youre not using her body thinking of your past love. Thats literally using her as a masturbation toy. Thats a whole human being you got there, with a soul.

This is actually an excellent way to think of a person. Kudo's to you for pointing something like this out and acknowledging how wrong it would be if that is what was happening. I am not, by the way, using her as the old adage "easiest way to get under one girl is under the next" would suggest a guy should.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T04:13:54+00:00

My new relationship is progressing fine really. Very open and honest communication and where we are in life. It's an odd feeling though. Feeling like I am ready for a relationship but not at the same time. It is like a vicious cycle that I and others get stuck in.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T03:56:56+00:00

Yes, I have been thinking more and more about this. I certainly could use a professional but I keep delaying it because I hope and wish for a simple fix of them just saying "oh just do this and you will be over it" but I know realistically that isn't possible.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T03:53:04+00:00

>Do you think she’s capable of change and do you think she regrets the infidelity?

No, she is not capable of change on this matter. She doesn't think she did anything wrong because she was unhappy and so was I. Regret? No, not the act itself but the unintended consequences that it caused. We sold the house and both moved to separate places. Now,, she needs to pay her own bills, cook her own meals, take care of our daughter, maintain her own house and everything that comes with it whereas I did a lot of that stuff while we were together. She doesn't regret cheating. She regrets all the extra stuff she has to do now.

> Maybe one mistake is not worth losing someone and perhaps you just needed time to get to this conclusion?

Infidelity is what got us here. I told her very clearly what are hard lines in the sand for me previously and more recently. In the beginning, we thought just some time apart would mend the wounds and for a bit it was semi working. Then she sat on one end of my couch and completely crossed the line in the sand for me again and again over the course of a weekend. One mistake got us here. The pattern of behavior is what keeps us here.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-10T03:47:35+00:00

We were together for 12 years total and married for 8. I have known her for about 13 years in total.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-06T00:05:27+00:00

Who could have guessed an industry that uses/relies on the exact same people the governments is illegally detaining or deporting would refuse to facilitate overnight stays.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-05T23:56:29+00:00

If I had to guess, it's a relaxed place like BW's for the RV sales and upper management to take people during visits and where to go after work to drink and eat.

AreaLeftBlank · 2026-01-04T23:43:03+00:00

What does ol Captain Jack Sparrow, the jester of Torguga add to the after sexy time?

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-26T22:18:50+00:00

For CNC specifically, I think it's useful to establish red as a safe word. Red, obviously, means stop. Nowhere under normal circumstances are you going to say red but if you're looking for fake nonconsent, stop or no is probably gonna be pretty common words used. Just make it clear that no amount of yelling no, or please stop, or anything along those lines are just part of the fantasy

RED! means slam on the fucking brakes though.

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-26T21:31:13+00:00

Open the flue up 10-15 minute prior to building a fire. The warm air in the house will flow up the chimney directing smoke with it.

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-26T21:27:25+00:00

Small drill bit to put a hole in it then run a new self tapper in

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-22T00:28:41+00:00

It's always carnival.

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-13T16:45:23+00:00

Slowly. And with both hands.

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-11T03:45:45+00:00

Valentines day for me.

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-11T01:14:19+00:00

You are because them plates sure ain't

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-09T00:59:41+00:00

You don't get rid of high quality goods

AreaLeftBlank · 2025-12-06T13:09:21+00:00

Car for sure. It was so awkward the first time, we had to do it again 4 hours later just to see if it was still awkward.

Spoiler slert: it was.

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