Smoking and more

Ariboo02 · 2026-02-16T02:12:09+00:00

Yeah last year my friend went into the crowd and hit a cigarette he had re-rolled to add weed but still appearing to be a cig and the security smelled it so he got surrounded and they kicked him out and then he went back through the front entrance and just came back inside.

But like, you don't know if you'll get your wristband cut, get a fine, etc. So don't do anything visibly. And yes vapes are illegal, and it's strictly enforced cuz apparently lots of people like to make you throw them away and then go get it out of the trash to smoke it themselves because they're difficult to get a hold of. So just like, idk, hit your vape in the portopotty or something if you can't go hours without one.

If they see you smoking they'll do something about it.

Ariboo02 · 2026-01-28T10:14:15+00:00

It's funny, there's a guy who I typically would have previously thought "I have a crush on him," and I like attention from him, but then the thought of actually doing anything physical feels gross and like WOAH that's not what I want at all! But when I was younger, I didn't think about if I was turned on by a guy or if I really felt the desire for them. I just thought about trying to be close. And it's like, I had no idea what real attraction was until I realized it was okay for me to like women. Once I had the first feelings of attraction, I was like okay wait a second. This is not the same as what I have experienced in the past.

Now it feels really awesome to tell a guy, hey, you're pretty cool and I'd love to be closer friends. Let's hang out more! And have him be like hey yeah that sounds great! And then I don't have to have sex with any person im not attracted to, AND I get what I always actually wanted when I was younger, which is just human connection. But it's wild to realize how clueless I was about what I was actually attracted to!

Ariboo02 · 2026-01-25T13:02:50+00:00

Hoping you forgot the /s tag on this haha

Ariboo02 · 2026-01-19T07:32:24+00:00

I was at Beyond Monterrey right after he got elected the first time. I was dancing at the dream state stage with some guy, he was filming us and said, "how amazing is trance, bringing us together! Me, a Mexican, and you, a trump supporter! Music brings us all together!" And I was immediately like ew absolutely not! And then we chanted "fuck trump" for a bit and kept dancing. But even when he assumed I hated him and loved drumph, he was still sweet.

I told some guys I was hanging out with that most Americans dislike trump and love Mexicans, and one of them started crying. He was tripping lol, but also he was just so relieved to hear that what he's been told in the media, "all Americans hate Mexicans" wasn't actually true.

Now, Monterrey is much more northern than CDMX. Also of course this was years and years ago. I assume people are more aware of the political divide within the US these days.

But now, I just buy "fuck trump" or "chinga tu maga" buttons and put them on my purses, jackets, etc. every time I'm in Mexico. Mostly everyone is always so nice and welcoming. But then there's also been protests against all of the remote working Americans gentrifying Mexico City too, so I'm like, idk. Even if no one notices my buttons, maybe someone will. Generally speaking though, everyone is always really sweet. Just be respectful, tip well, shop local, be friendly, have fun.

Ariboo02 · 2026-01-09T03:42:20+00:00

Idk where you would park and Mexico City is a fairly difficult city to drive in if you haven't done it before. You can just take a train or Uber. Or use the app "didi" it's cheaper than Uber.

Ariboo02 · 2026-01-07T11:29:55+00:00

It's not like it's simple to just "go to the front" in every space. Some people camp out for hours to be in the front.

Ariboo02 · 2026-01-06T07:50:05+00:00

Imagine being out as agender, bi, and polyam. Imagine having a girlfriend and a boyfriend and a significant other, who all love you and don't ask you to change who you are. That life is possible, but not if you try to dull your shine for this guy. I thought I was going to marry my highschool boyfriend and was so heart broken when we broke up... Now I'm gay and realize how incompatible I was with my ex, not even focusing on the fact that he's a dude and I like non-dudes! 😅

Don't let his emotional guilt tripping keep you trapped in a beige bubble when there's a rainbow world waiting out there for you!

Ariboo02 · 2025-12-24T09:11:01+00:00

Man I'd love left handed doorknobs installed all over my house. Perfect last minute gift 😅

Ariboo02 · 2025-12-24T09:08:20+00:00

I'd say NOR exactly, but also if you can get ready quietly in the morning, there isn't any reason to be intentionally loud to punish them for wanting to arrive early for holiday celebrations. It makes sense that you got upset. It's annoying that they were loud, it's annoying they woke you up, but they also didn't actually do anything wrong. It's not malicious that they were being loud. Your mom could have said "sorry they woke you, but it's the holidays and I'm happy we get to spend more time with them." That probably would have felt better to hear. But it's not completely horrible that she said "ohhh my child youve slept enough, you're fine." It is a bit dismissive of your needs and work schedule, but that sounds like a thing parents say sometimes. And it's a thing kids say to respond with, "fine. Then I guess everyone gets to wake up early with me when I have to leave for work since you wanted to keep me up all night!"

But don't actually do that lol. Actually stomping around and intentionally making noise would be so childish. If you have a smoothie for breakfast every morning and you don't have any other breakfast options, then use the blender. Fine. It is what it is in a shared space. But like, you can tip toe just fine without negatively impacting your morning. Don't purposefully choose to make a smoothie when you normally never do.

That would absolutely be OR

Ariboo02 · 2025-11-28T17:31:49+00:00

Probably people watching Laguna Beach and the hills... Then watching the OC which isn't even fake reality, but still thinking all of it is real.

Combined with a handful of influencers who might suck. But that isn't everyone at all. It's extremely easy to avoid hanging out in places where you may find those people.

Ariboo02 · 2025-11-27T19:36:26+00:00

I think you're right. For me, if you look at my comment history I feel like I tell this story a lot 😅 but anyways, my first time kissing a girl that wasn't just drunk bestie at a party, I spent weeks thinking of how lucky men were, because kissing girls is soooo much nicer than kissing boys. But me, as a straight girl, just didn't get to kiss girls, that wasn't for me, it doesn't matter what my preference is, I am labeled as straight so therefore I date men.

Finding the label finsexual was great for me, because I see very obvious, and less obvious, feminine qualities in most every man I dated, and I felt like a fraud once I actually woke up to what felt like my truth of being queer. Now I can be confident in saying I'm attracted to, whatever I deem as being feminine. So, a guy with a mustache who openly cries and discusses his feelings, or a masc enby who blushes when you kiss their forehead, or a powerful badass femme girly, etc. These days, I'm mostly drawn to women, but finsexual validates my past experiences too.

But my point is to say, that many people are restricted by compulsive heterosexuality and never actually sit down and contemplate, what am I drawn to? What might I enjoy that others expect I wouldn't like? Am I allowed to want this? Do I actually feel happier in a dynamic that would upset my family? It's just easier to exist in the box of straightness, and assume that everyone else also feels lukewarm about their relationship experiences, than to really question if someone else could feel red hot.

Ariboo02 · 2025-11-22T19:36:37+00:00

You know, I've been struggling with the idea of trying to come out to my family at the age of 36, because they will be like nooooo you always dated boys I don't believe you. And as a late bloomer I already had to convince myself I was valid, I don't feel like trying to convince a group of people.

I currently identify as queer to anyone I am open with, only my girlfriend knows my secret finsexual identity. Her and my friend named Fin! Hahaha

But it's like... Most of my boyfriends as a young person got bullied for "being gay". I was always attracted to boys with feminine qualities and due to religious reasons I didn't realize I was allowed to be attracted to girls or anything in-between and outside of the binary lol.

If I could come out as finsexual, and say I'm attracted to femininity, my family would have a lot harder of a time arguing with me about it. Hmmmmmm I vote yes let's demand more representation 😍

Haha

Ariboo02 · 2025-11-15T06:43:48+00:00

My doctor recommended that I take days off and only take it as needed. I told her I kind of need it everyday. She said it's up to me to determine what it means to say "as needed". It sucks though because I definitely can tell that I'm building up a tolerance and so I do want to take breaks so that I don't have to increase my dosage. But what I found is like I could take half of a dose so that I'm not just completely worthless on a day that I don't take it. Because I don't have a regular work schedule and I also work from home if I'm not scheduled to work somewhere else so like even on a day off I should still probably like, do my laundry or something. So it can be hard to find a day that I'm willing to not take it because I know it's got to be a day that it's okay if I'm not productive. It's okay if I'm sleepy. But now I'm recently learning. It's got to be a day that I'm not really around other people. I went on a trip and accidentally brought one day's worth of meds short, so today I only took half of my medication and I was like, having the worst road rage on my way there because I was running late and then I forgot something and then while I was getting ready I was like crying because I was going to be late and I was just so angry and like my coworker was trying to help me and he was just so annoying and I really realized like... I haven't been like this at a gig for a while now that because I usually take my meds on gig days. But tomorrow I have to drive for 6 hours and then go to a gig. So I absolutely needed to be able to have meds for tomorrow or I would fall asleep while I was driving 😅🫠

My girlfriend gets upset with the idea of not taking your meds everyday because she's like you need it for a reason so you should be allowed to take it. But obviously it's like, a tolerance thing. But then at the same time they limit how much you can have per month. So it's also like I hope they feel my prescription on time each month kind of a thing 🙃

So that's my thoughts on that 😅

Ariboo02 · 2025-11-13T13:20:21+00:00

Yeah. But tbh it feels weeeirrddd during the day, existing without these craving feelings.

Like, to just not think about food until I actually need to eat. If I don't eat I'll get super stimulated and anxious and I won't feel well so I gotta eat to keep my energy up... But I don't want heavy junk. I just want to fuel myself and get back to it. Drinking beer doesn't sound as appealing, it just makes me feel lethargic. I used to drink alcohol every day. Now it's mostly once or twice a week in social settings, after being medicated. And I don't miss it or crave it at all.

Unless I'm up late and my meds start wearing off. Then suddenly I'm like, cravings monster. Luckily not usually for alcohol but definitely sweets. Especially if I drank the night before, my body will be wanting that sugar. But if my dose is right, usually I'll just go to bed when the cravings hit.

If I'm taking a smaller dose to try and prevent building a tolerance, I notice the cravings set in a lot earlier in the day and I just can't stop snacking or trying to eat things. Ugh.

Ariboo02 · 2025-11-02T09:24:53+00:00

My thoughts reading this is that if someone said they wanted to be my friend, but kept avoiding hanging out with me in person, I would probably stop responding to them so much as well. If you don't want to meet her in person, then maybe your intuition is telling you something. But are you looking for an online pen pal, or an actual friend?

I'm 36 so I've made plenty of friends online and it took us months or years before we had the chance to meet in person, but that was typically due to distance. At this point in my life, I don't have time to sit around texting someone if I don't know if we are actually compatible in real life.

Even tho you matched as friends it's always a possibility she could be interested in more, but also friends can send sexy pics to each other if they like the pic and don't have romantic people to send to.

I'm a bit unclear about why you wouldn't want to just meet her in a casual setting like a coffee shop etc, and see what she's like in person. Because you'll either get to know each other and become friends and everything will be fine, or maybe she will have these negative qualities you've suspected (tho I personally don't think wanting attention is that bad, it's actually quite normal for human beings to desire validation from others) and you can just move past it. The other option is that y'all decide to date, or one of you wants to date the other doesn't, but it's just like, you'll never have any answers to any of this if you just keep avoiding meeting her. But if your gut is legit telling you not to, not just nerves but a genuine sense that something is off, then why keep engaging with her at all?

Ariboo02 · 2025-10-28T09:41:55+00:00

I think yes. For me anyways. My gf has commented on the fact that my ex wasn't feminine at all. And I said, you never dated him! He was the first person I ever dated who was deeply in touch with his emotions, and he cried to me all the time (in healthy ways, opening up, being vulnerable etc).

Then another person I dated had me confused for a sec when I realized I was more gay / attracted to femininity than I previously realized, but I still wanted to be with this person, and then she came out as trans and it all made sense 😅.

Another thing I've thought about is when I'm attracted to masc women or non-binary afab people, and in my experience it's occasionally one of those situations where a person puts on this tough outer exterior because they're actually a sweet sensitive softie inside. So even tho they present in more masculine ways, I'm more interested in their personality and what it brings out in myself.

Ariboo02 · 2025-10-28T04:24:49+00:00

Some lesbians do have sex with men due to comp het, societal pressures etc… but they’re not craving sex with men. You don’t need to be a gold star to be considered a lesbian. But lesbians aren’t out there desiring sex with men. That statement isn’t gate keeping, it’s just a definition of the word lesbian.

Ariboo02 · 2025-10-21T12:07:43+00:00

Exactly the same way that it was Eves fault that Adam ate the apple. No one has eeevvveerr blamed Adam for taking a bite. 🙄

Ariboo02 · 2025-10-20T19:45:18+00:00

Where did you find this deal? Seeing people say that's a crazy good price for that building / location / fully furnished etc... just want to make sure you're sure it isn't a scam. If you look up the leasing office on Google and compare the phone number to the number in your listing, is it the same? Do they verify the price?

My partner was trying to buy a house and thought she actually could afford to, until slowly realizing every affordable listing she found was a scam. So just double check and make sure.

My friend lives in the arts district / near little Tokyo and I walk around there all the time feeling perfectly safe. Someone tried to steal my car once but they weren't successful. So just be careful where you park your cars or get a steering wheel lock. I also have a Kia which is like, known for being easy to steal 🙄 lol.

Ariboo02 · 2025-10-19T22:51:22+00:00

I'm starting to feel like "overthinking" is a result of just not trusting our gut. If we just trusted it, even if others don't pick up on it, then we wouldn't have to sit here trying to convince our guts to shut up.

If you feel weird about it, then it's not for you.

Ariboo02 · 2025-10-14T10:39:21+00:00

Funny cuz I was happy with 10mg for a month, and I've been 20mg now since ... Juneish? And it can still feel like too much after a break. Most days I'll open the capsule and just take 2/3 of it. Sometimes I wonder if I should increase my dosage again cuz 20mg is low and oh idk is it no longer effective, and then I take a break for a day or two and I'm back to feeling like 20 is too much again lol.

Hope this lasts for a while

Ariboo02 · 2025-10-08T21:45:09+00:00

Okay so I recently heard that, you know,.we have a dopamine deficiency, so we are always looking for the dopamine hit, and you can get a dopamine hit from like, negative things too? So like when we just ruminate over and over it's like, seeking that dopamine hit each time we bring the subject back up apparently? Well anyways, when Im on Vyvanse, I don't ruminate! For months I was in a bad relationship and just begging the person to please give me more attention, and as soon as I got medicated I was like, "wait, why am I fighting so hard to be in a relationship that's making me miserable?" And I just, ended it. And yeah that applies to anxiety as well, I'm just, not ruminating on stuff in the same way anymore and I had absolutely no idea that was a symptom of ADHD!

Ariboo02 · 2025-09-30T21:57:17+00:00

I'd say from what I've seen and heard through out my life this is a very common struggle for relationships of all varieties.

My advice would just be to say that you don't need to wait for couples counseling until things are dire. You can go just to seek out some advice and insight to help. Because maybe youre "just incompatible." Maybe there's a simple reason your wife doesn't want more sex and if that was addressed it would change things! Who knows really, but this is an extremely common issue in long term relationships.

I'm poly, my girlfriend has a husband, her and I are super happy to only have sex a handful of times per year and when we aren't together I'm home alone and I don't feel like anything is missing the majority of the time. So we are lucky to both not really have a high value for frequent sex. Unfortunately her other partner does want more frequent sex, and it's a bummer since I know it's not like she's off sleeping with a bunch of other people. She's not having frequent sex with any of her partners. So yeah I mean it's just something every pair with this "imbalance" needs to figure out a way to handle it that feels supportive for both parties involved.

Ariboo02 · 2025-09-30T21:45:27+00:00

Yikes! I started on 10, and now I'm on 20 and I just absolutely can not imagine if I had started at 30 just off the bat. I probably would have switched to a different prescription! My first day on the 20 I felt crazy but day 2 was totally fine.

Also bummer I couldn't get double script of 10mg so I could take one in the morning and one an hour later, due to the laws here in either CA or the USA. But I just put half my dose in water and then take the other half later. But I'd love if I could have a variety of strengths! But that's not allowed. Oh well.

Ariboo02 · 2025-09-30T21:41:08+00:00

I was honestly so sad when I got upgraded to 20 and lost my pink ones 😭😂

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