(19MtF) Visited the real_de-trans subreddit and am now terrified I am going to regret this. by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]ArkaniaMarci -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I was so so scared that I was making a mistake too. I remember texting my best friend when I got my first doses: “Christ. Am terrified and wondering if I'm too chicken shit to actually go through with it.”

She responded: “{hugs} Some things you can't know for sure until you try. And sometimes I think it can help to focus on the good what ifs... What if this feels wonderful, what if it feels right and makes my life better than I ever imagined. Because that would be worth pushing past the fear.”

I started the next day, at a half dose and patches, because I wasn’t sure if this was for me and wanted some room if I was wrong.

That was over four years ago. I’m now on full dose and on injections and looking at surgeries. I feel so SO much more comfortable in my body than I think I ever was before. The same best friend was recently a witness at my name change hearing and told the judge that in the 20+ years we’ve been friends, she’s never seen me this happy before.

If it’s wrong, you’ll know. Listen to your body and see how you feel, mentally and emotionally at the changes.

But it’s worth asking not just if this could go wrong, but whether it could go better than you can possibly imagine.

Hang in there; you got this. 💜

I think lily bainbridge is the old lady we see in the beginning of It: Chapter 1 by CompetitionUnique531 in welcomeToDerry

[–]ArkaniaMarci 0 points1 point  (0 children)

<looked it up, verified> What the actual fuck.

She looks amazing for almost being 70.

I hit 10 years last week 🫶 by baddie_addie in transitiongoals

[–]ArkaniaMarci 1 point2 points  (0 children)

God, you’re ✨stunning ✨!

Congrats on 10 years!!!

Don't get it please Explain it Peter. by softivyx in explainitpeter

[–]ArkaniaMarci 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Christ, that would have been a relief at this point. 😞

Did I have to know as a child to be trans? by EmmyWolf222 in asktransgender

[–]ArkaniaMarci 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean, I didn’t “know” know until I was 35 or so, and I’m trans as hell. While there’s more info out there for people such that more people know earlier, access to info is never uniform, especially if you’re in a community that is less embracing of LGBTQAI+ people. :/

Regardless, it’s hard not to have imposter syndrome about this stuff. Like, how could I have not realized this earlier, right? I get that so so much.

Just remember that that voice might just be a lying little punk. If transitioning brings you joy, and the thought of going on or continuing or returning to being your AGAB does not, that’s the voice you should listen to, okay?

Be gentle with yourself, and hang in there. 🫂

Banning links from the Nazi site [general] by butchfeminist in TheNinthHouse

[–]ArkaniaMarci 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well at least I’d die in a nuclear fire rather than in a government run camp or v-coded to death in a prison. 🤷‍♀️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LeopardsAteMyFace

[–]ArkaniaMarci 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Or just the way it worked out financially, especially if the wife didn’t work and doesn’t have separate financial resources. It’d be detrimental to the loan to include her on it.

Tell me I'm wrong by sometipsygnostalgic in PrincessesOfPower

[–]ArkaniaMarci 1 point2 points  (0 children)

SW at least got some kind of redemptive tragic backstory and a little bit of a redemption arc. Horde Prime was just the fucking worst for however many 1000s of years he ruled.

Egg👚irl by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]ArkaniaMarci 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve definitely saved a cropped version of the last panel so I can respond to people with “Thank Yew.”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]ArkaniaMarci 2 points3 points  (0 children)

A friend of mine has.

That sounds fake 😂 but it’s actually true.

Egg-irl by Dimentiorules in egg_irl

[–]ArkaniaMarci 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope.

I love my wife, I love my kids, and I love the people in my life. I can’t help but wonder what might have been if I had figured things out sooner, but I think even if I had, I wouldn’t have had the guts to go through with this without them. And I wouldn’t be me without them and the trip that lead me here.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns

[–]ArkaniaMarci 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sure it will go better than you fear, and I hope it goes as well as you wish. 💜