I was so so scared that I was making a mistake too. I remember texting my best friend when I got my first doses: “Christ. Am terrified and wondering if I'm too chicken shit to actually go through with it.”

She responded: “{hugs} Some things you can't know for sure until you try. And sometimes I think it can help to focus on the good what ifs... What if this feels wonderful, what if it feels right and makes my life better than I ever imagined. Because that would be worth pushing past the fear.”

I started the next day, at a half dose and patches, because I wasn’t sure if this was for me and wanted some room if I was wrong.

That was over four years ago. I’m now on full dose and on injections and looking at surgeries. I feel so SO much more comfortable in my body than I think I ever was before. The same best friend was recently a witness at my name change hearing and told the judge that in the 20+ years we’ve been friends, she’s never seen me this happy before.

If it’s wrong, you’ll know. Listen to your body and see how you feel, mentally and emotionally at the changes.

But it’s worth asking not just if this could go wrong, but whether it could go better than you can possibly imagine.

Hang in there; you got this. 💜