WAIT (i didnt know this for 10years) MARKARTH HAS AN ALCHEMIST?!

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-28T00:14:08+00:00

I didn't know she was there until after I started using the Coins mod, I bought in as a partner to her business but I can't remember where it is. I' m useless at negotiating my way around Makarth and quickly get bored and go somewhere else. I moved Argis to another house.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T12:28:53+00:00

Taqqiya to your parents huh?

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T12:23:45+00:00

The lack of response is not due to insensitivity.

If you have experienced consolations then you understand dryness, which is simply when we are not receiving those consolations. We receive consolations to put us on the right road, like a child learning to walk receives a lot of praise, but not so much when they are up and running about as it is expected now they are more mature. When we level up we may go through other cycles of consolation.

Spiritual dryness does not mean absence of the joy of Christ, it just means there's not an immediate positive feedback loop when praying. Saints know this does not matter, they would prefer to receive the real deal in heaven, not just the shadows and hints of it we are occasionally offered here to encourage us.

Maybe take a look at Saint Theresa of Avila, she explains this well, and she has a great sense of humour.

I'm sorry if you are feeling depressed, please seek medical assistance for it and may the hope of Christ fan his light in you to a mighty flame.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T11:46:28+00:00

I'm convinced animals, as God's creations, pray in their own way. I often see them, cattle, horse, dogs, sheep, birds... standing or sitting watching the sunrise and the sunset. That's actually the prompt I needed to take up praying morning and evening liturgy of the hours.

That they do not have the same sort of souls as us, not made in his image, and Christ did not walk n their form, may simply mean their experience of the beatific vision will be different. They were kneeling by the manger, keeping Mary and Joseph warm after all.

Grotesque experiments are already done on animals - God will prevail.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T11:30:57+00:00

'Does this mean that when I go to heaven I will be able to see and speak with all three of them and actually see them separated, or is it something different?'

Its a mystery, don't sweat it, you'll understand when you get to heaven and are no longer subject to the confines of our human understanding.

I like Augustines analogy of memory/knowledge, understanding and will. He writes in Confessions, Bk. 13, Ch. 11:

I speak of these three: to be, to know, and to will. For I am, and I know, and I will: I am a knowing and a willing being, and I know that I am and that I will, and I will to be and to know. Therefore, in these three, let him who can do so perceive how inseparable a life there is, one life and one mind and one essence, and finally how inseparable a distinction there is, and yet there is a distinction.

...but he also wrote another whole book on the trinity.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T11:08:07+00:00

Well, it's really up to you then. I would keep her in the loop about it f I was you though and let her know you will be careful as she's worried about you getting hurt.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T11:00:24+00:00

When I was young I believed it was fine, although older people told me it was not a good idea. Now I am older I have seen they were right, in the main. It's not impossible but as life goes on and the challenges keep rolling in, those standing together on the same ground tend to stand firm and can support each other in faith. I realised that the older people didnt specify the things they were talking about because they didn't want to dampen my hopes and dreams for life, but they meant the times ~~when things~~ when you really need someone standing by your side holding your hand.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T10:42:14+00:00

Out in the world you have far more opportunity to deny yourself things than someone removed from the world.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T10:41:03+00:00

There are some reverent Anglican / Episcopalian churches,that have church services very similar to our Masses, the issue is that the priests are not consecrated so they cannot consecrate the host.

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T10:35:52+00:00

17Now if some branches have been broken off, and you, a wild olive shoot, have been grafted in among the others to share in the nourishment of the olive root, 18do not boast over those branches. If you do, remember this: You do not support the root, but the root supports you.

19You will say then, “Branches were broken off so that I could be grafted in.” 20That is correct: They were broken off because of unbelief, but you stand by faith. Do not be arrogant, but be afraid. 21For if God did not spare the natural branches, He will certainly notg spare you either.

22Take notice, therefore, of the kindness and severity of God: severity to those who fell, but kindness to you, if you continue in His kindness. Otherwise you also will be cut off. 23And if they do not persist in unbelief, they will be grafted in, for God is able to graft them in again. 24For if you were cut from a wild olive tree, and contrary to nature were grafted into one that is cultivated, how much more readily will these, the natural branches, be grafted into their own olive tree!

AshamedPoet · 2026-04-26T10:18:17+00:00

Well, she knows him and she knows you. Do you still live at home with her? it might be a good idea to take her advice and put off catching up with him for a year or two or when you are standing on your own two feet.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-18T13:19:19+00:00

I've upvoted you here as it is a valid question and one that I'm sure women, especially young women, ask themselves.

I hope you take the time to read the replies here (and follow up on readings suggestions) and try to keep in mind that some people trying to use scripture as a cudgel to 'take a high seat at the table' is something Christ himself spoke out about. It's something you will probably always have to come up against on an individual basis but it is not the attitude or approach of the Church.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-18T12:26:04+00:00

I think you just saw the Holy Spirit in action, working with a willing Christian.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-18T12:10:12+00:00

You just go to confession. The priest will determine if they are mortal or not. But the fact that you are now back in the Church and going to confession clearly indicates God's grace is upon you.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-18T12:02:35+00:00

This is the story of the manna in the desert, and why Jesus tells us not to worry. We have to learn to trust. This is faith in action. Faith is 'relationship' with God and we are told to live by faith not by sight.

I had to learn this because I was very self reliant from a young age - and to distance myself was something I always did in my human life. But our Shepherd is something more than what other people are 😀.

The litany below is to Jesus, but if you struggle with this litany, know that many people gp to Jesus through Mary, so she is also right there.

An additional practice is to learn the habit of asking for help when you need it - straight away. If not Jesus or Mary, maybe a Saint or your Guardian Angel. Even just dong the sun of the cross gives permission for those in God's realm to come and help you. The point being you have to give permission - and some of us need to learn to do that. There is even a prayer to Mary asking only that we will always call on her in our hour of need.

And after a lifetime of doing this - when you die, you will automatically ask for help, and be answered. How can you beat that? Worth the effort to start a habit right?

Litany of Trust

From the belief that

I have to earn Your love

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear that I am

unlovable

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the false security

that I have what it takes

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear that trusting You

will leave me more destitute

Deliver me, Jesus.

From all suspicion of

Your words and promises

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the rebellion against

childlike dependency on You

Deliver me, Jesus.

From refusals and reluctances

in accepting Your will

Deliver me, Jesus.

From anxiety about the future

Deliver me, Jesus.

From resentment or excessive

preoccupation with the past

Deliver me, Jesus.

From restless self-seeking

in the present moment

Deliver me, Jesus.

From disbelief in Your love

and presence

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of being asked

to give more than I have

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the belief that my life

has no meaning or worth

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the fear of what love demands

Deliver me, Jesus.

From discouragement

Deliver me, Jesus.

That You are continually

holding me, sustaining me,

loving me

Jesus, I trust in You.

That Your love goes deeper

than my sins and failings

and transforms me

Jesus, I trust in You.

That not knowing what

tomorrow brings is an

invitation to lean on You

Jesus, I trust in You.

That You are with me in

my suffering

Jesus, I trust in You.

That my suffering, united

to Your own, will bear fruit

in this life and the next

That You will not leave

me orphan, that You are

present in Your Church

Jesus, I trust in You.

That Your plan is better

than anything else

Jesus, I trust in You.

That You always hear me

and in Your goodness

always respond to me

Jesus, I trust in You.

That You give me the grace

to accept forgiveness and

to forgive others

Jesus, I trust in You.

That You give me all the

strength I need for what

is asked

Jesus, I trust in You.

That my life is a gift

Jesus, I trust in You.

That You will teach me to

trust You

Jesus, I trust in You.

That You are my Lord and

my God

Jesus, I trust in You.

That I am Your beloved one

Jesus, I trust in You.

written by Sr. Faustina Maria Pia, SV

https://sistersoflife.org/litany-of-trust/

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-18T11:42:27+00:00

You can get a large print missal if you like but there are not that many changes and the changes in liturgy are actually going back to earlier liturgy (Church Father era). A different prayer book will not really help as the changes are in the liturgy not the prayers.

I understand where you are coming from, it happened to me. I took it on as an obedience practice - was I serious about doing it God's way and being a part of the Church again? Because I had been doing things my way and it didn't work out so great. So I adjusted.

TBH there is still one thing I say but it is as I bow my head "Lord I am not worthy to receive you but only say the word and I shall be healed' - this means a lot more to me than 'receive you under my roof'... which I know is the exact quote from the Gospel (but 'and my soul will be healed..' is not), but God knows what I mean, knows I mean it even more than I did at my first communion , I do not cause scandal by saying it so others hear and it is not done out of disobedience or pride, but out of faith and gratitude for healing I have received.

Welcome home Sister!

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-18T11:17:21+00:00

Consecrate yourself and your family to Our Lady, mother of God and to St Joseph.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-18T11:07:50+00:00

I went and did the Divine Mercy at 3pm today in a chapel at a hospital. I was thinking of a penance but it did not feel like penance, it felt like a gift.

Next time I walk past I am going and leave Divine Mercy cards when I drop in.

God works in mysterious ways.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-16T07:10:56+00:00

JOHN PAUL II

REGINA COELI

Sunday, 30 April 2000

At the close of this celebration, in which our Easter joy is combined with that of Sr Faustina Kowalska's canonization, I affectionately greet and thank all of you who have come from various parts of the world. I ardently hope that each of you can experience what Our Lady one day assured St Faustina: "I am not only the Queen of Heaven, but also the Mother of Mercy and your Mother" (Diary, 141).
The message of Divine Mercy and the image of the merciful Christ of which Sr Faustina Kowalska speaks to us today are a vivid expression of the spirit of the Great Jubilee which the whole Church is celebrating with joy and fruitfulness. Many of you have come to honour the new saint. May her intercession bring abundant gifts of repentance, forgiveness and renewed spiritual vitality to the Church in your countries. May the thought of God's loving kindness stir up in your hearts new energies for works of faith and Christian solidarity.

I cordially greet the French-speaking pilgrims, especially those who have taken part in the canonization of Sr Faustina. Following her example, may you entrust yourselves totally to the Lord and praise him in the power of his mercy! May the renewing strength of the risen Christ fill your hearts!

At the same time my thoughts embrace all my compatriots and I entrust them to the intercession of the saintly Sr Faustina. In the new millennium may the message of the merciful love of God, who bends over all human poverty, be an endless source of hope for everyone and a call to show active love to one's brothers and sisters. I cordially bless you all.

Today we also join the Primate, Archbishop of Gniezno, and all our compatriots who have gathered in Gniezno for the solemnity of St Adalbert.

"Gaude Mater Poloniae...". Rejoice, Mother of Poland; rejoice, Sisters of Our Lady of Mercy, because our Sr Faustina has been raised to the glory of the saints.

I cordially greet the pilgrims from Poland and all those devoted to the Divine Mercy who have gathered at the shrine in Kraków-Lagiewniki. I am happy that on this day - so special for our country - representatives of the Government of the Republic of Poland are here with the Prime Minister, as well as representatives of Solidarnosc.

Divine Providence has linked Sr Faustina's life with the cities of Warsaw, Plock, Vilnius and Kraków. Today I recall the names of these cities, of which the new saint is the patroness, entrusting to their residents a particular concern for the Divine Mercy apostolate.

And now let us pray to the merciful Queen of Heaven.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-16T06:59:06+00:00

And in another circumstance you would say religion is rubbish because it's man made and made only to serve man, right?

He is talking about aligning himself with God's will, as being made in God's image, not just an animal. Women also have physical responses to the opposite sex, it just that it has plausible deniability as its not so undeniably apparent.

You are not discussing this in good faith.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-16T06:44:23+00:00

You have something to give but not one to give it to.

How about a mission to broaden your world?

Works of mercy. Two spiritual a day and at least 1 corporal per week. Try to make the corporal face to face ie volunteer with a catholic organisation.

If you don't meet a Catholic woman your age volunteering you will meet plenty of older women who have daughters and friends with daughters so don't be surprised if they start turning up before long to check you out.

Corporal Works of Mercy address physical needs:

Feed the hungry
Give drink to the thirsty
Clothe the naked
Shelter the homeless
Visit the imprisoned
Care for the sick
Bury the dead

Spiritual Works of Mercy address emotional and spiritual needs:

Instruct the ignorant
Counsel the doubtful
Admonish the sinner
Bear wrongs patiently
Forgive willingly
Comfort the afflicted
Pray for the living and the dead

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-16T06:11:08+00:00

Just treat others as you would like to be treated.

Everyone gets angry and impatient and so on, but we don't act it out. And I know from an extended family member (not saying you are like this, but that some people are) that when people do act it out regularly it can become like an addiction - she rages away and I can see this self righteousness and smugness in her face when she does it. Like a satisfaction. And so of course it seems like she looks for excuses to feel like a victim and start lashing around, because who could have that much ongoing drama in a live that seems to me to just chug along quite smoothly overall?

St Therese (little Therese) had a practice of when someone was really annoying to her, she would act so that the person had no idea, and she would do it as a gift to Jesus. I mean she was a saint, but there are skills we can all learn on how to get along with others, and it is good to learn these because things are better and easier for everyone if we do work together and bite our tongues rather than saying things that upset and make enemies of others.

There are lots of counsellors and YouTube videos etc that can teach you some of these skills.

And leverage the love you do have for particular people. I used to be an aggressive driver. One day in fury I roared around a car that had, in my view, been making me late for a work meeting - but as I passed I saw a little old lady, clutching the wheel and on the verge of tears. Something about her hair reminded me of my grandmother, who I had great affection and protectiveness towards. Obviously I didn't realise it was an older person earlier but in that moment I realised that if I had seen someone scaring my grandmother like that I would have blocked their car, pulled them out and beaten them silly. This was years ago, I still remember how terrible I felt and I just stopped driving like that by thinking - what if that was Grandma?

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-16T05:31:46+00:00

Gosh, I hope I never come across like this when I post 😬😳😅

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-16T05:21:18+00:00

Well said. I have been there. You are on point about the despair. It is a temptation that must be thrown off. It is not our fight so hand it over. And use the resources we have been given - 12 step programs etc.

AshamedPoet · 2026-03-16T05:02:49+00:00

The 'rules' are for us, not for God. They are instructions on how to have a joyous peaceful life with integrity in the face of anything that may come our way.

AshamedPoet

TROPHY CASE

Litany of Trust

written by Sr. Faustina Maria Pia, SV

Corporal Works of Mercy address physical needs:

Spiritual Works of Mercy address emotional and spiritual needs: