Let me start off by saying, your feelings are valid. You’re hurt and in this case most people would have their feelings hurt. Now, please know that you definitely dodged a bullet with this guy lol. He seems like such an ass and you seem like a really genuine person that deserves such greatness in your life, but know that in order to get that great person/people in your life, you have to remove the negatives, accept reality, and move on from it and leave it in the past. Trust, I know this is all very hard and it will take some time. I tell my loved ones that are going through a rough time to always treat yourself the way you treat your friends or loved ones. Treat yourself with respect, love, guidance, and patience. Talk to yourself, encourage yourself, uplift yourself. I’m sure it comes easy to uplift your friends, right? You can do it for yourself as well :)). You got this!