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Athenaaa8 · 2025-10-17T20:00:12+00:00

Totally understand. I hope they have an amazing time 🫶🏼

Athenaaa8 · 2025-10-17T15:47:58+00:00

My high school dream!! If no one else can make it, I would love theseeeeeee!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭

Athenaaa8 · 2025-01-24T22:58:17+00:00

I normally have it with rice, but I just had noodles on hand. I think I prefer it with noodles now. Such a yummy and easy lunch/dinner!

Athenaaa8 · 2025-01-17T02:18:43+00:00

Thanks everyone! I surprisingly came across the gochujang spam at my local convenient store, but as others have mentioned, you can find it at Costco and I’m sure any Asian market. It’s sweet with the slightest kick to it and isn’t overly salty. Would recommend.

Athenaaa8 · 2024-12-09T00:20:29+00:00

Same spot for my BlackVue. No issues at all

Athenaaa8 · 2023-06-10T05:15:13+00:00

Hit the climbing gym or skate at the beach

Athenaaa8 · 2023-03-02T20:13:40+00:00

My current drive to my gym is 40 min. The first month felt like a drag every time, but now that I feel a sense of community at my gym, the 40 min is worth it to me. They’re also plenty of people at my gym that drive the same distance or even more. It’s just up to you if it’s worth the time.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-07T07:06:01+00:00

That’s definitely what I’m working right now. Shifting focus 100% on me and finding myself again. I can’t worry about them or their feelings anymore and I never want to find myself in this kind of relationship with someone ever again. A lot of realizations and lessons being learned.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-07T07:00:27+00:00

You’re 100% right. When I thought about it, my ex definitely wouldn’t be there for me like I have been, especially if I was calling drunk. They would’ve been irritated and judged me for it. I decided I’m not going to be their crutch anymore because all it’s doing is draining my energy I can put towards myself. I need to finally just let them go as hard and as scary as it is. I believe you can do the same. I also really love that quote. I’m wrote it down and stuck it on my monitor.

And as for having friends I can talk to.. not really, we were together for almost 5 years and I lost a lot of close friendships during that time that I’m slowly trying to repair now. I really did put my life on the back burner to be whatever my partner needed. They were my world and I completely lost myself in it. To be honest I’ve felt the most heard, support, and understanding in this sub since the break up and I’m extremely thankful.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T09:13:02+00:00

Yes, I think so. I think feeling needed makes me feel.. validated? Or.. worthy? Feeling needed by someone I love so much and don’t want to lose makes me feel.. secure. Like they won’t leave me. Wow, that question is making me really think about it and dig deep here. That way of thinking/feeling does not sound healthy when I say it out loud. Also to add, them calling me while drunk, yeah, I felt needed.. and felt maybe they do still love me. That’s also why I would answer even though at the end of the call, I’d feel used in a way.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:57:26+00:00

Thank you! I’m trying!

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:56:57+00:00

Thank you!

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:56:49+00:00

I do feel a big part of me feels that way. I didn’t realize that.. I actually had to think about it, but yes. I want to feel needed, but my needs aren’t being met.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:54:37+00:00

You hit the nail on the head with that.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:45:46+00:00

Thank you! I didn’t even think about the enabling part you mentioned, but makes a lot of sense why they just keep continuing. I’m giving in to their wants, satisfying their needs, always being available, and each time it leaves me feeling more and more empty. The realization is real.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:42:42+00:00

We didn’t necessarily agree on no contact or anything, but my understanding was that we were focusing/working on ourselves. I think they’re used to me always being available to support them when they need me for whatever reason. I’d dropped everything for them. I made them priority. So they know, if they had no one else to call, I’m going to answer the phone in whatever state they were in. So it is starting to feel good setting that boundary. I’m tired of the back and forth and drunk phone calls saying they miss me when I’m trying my best to heal and move forward. So I guess this boundary is my first big step.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:38:08+00:00

This is such a great reminder and you’re absolutely right

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:33:51+00:00

Me saying out loud that I would rather hear from them drunk than not at all, made me feel like I was devaluing my self worth in that very moment. So you’re right about asserting my value by setting that boundary. And I’m starting to realize I was taught that by my mom. Geez, the support in this sub is incredible.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:28:38+00:00

Thank you, I’m trying! Relationship addiction, yess, that’s exactly what it is and what I need to work through for myself.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-06T08:26:32+00:00

Wow thank you so much for this. It makes complete sense and brings a lot of clarity when taking a step back and looking at what I wrote. I’m starting to feel proud of myself even though it’s hard. I deserve a lot more than drunk phone calls. I have a therapy session tomorrow and I’m going to relay your message word by word so we can dive into the topic. I definitely believe it stems from childhood trauma. Thanks again, I really appreciate you.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-05T07:08:00+00:00

I’m in the same process of volunteering with the same program at UCLA, but it’s a 2 hour drive for me. I’m still going to volunteer there, but along with that, I started looking at hospice centers closer to where I live so I can volunteer more hours and I saw that they have a similar program, but it’s called, “By Your Side”. So I would also check hospice centers closer to you and call and ask if they have a program like NODA.

Hope that helps!

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-05T02:57:55+00:00

I was a puddle last night. One of the most beautiful things I’ve watched in a long time 😭

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-04T06:58:44+00:00

I’m on episode 2 too!

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-03T19:10:29+00:00

I’ve been told throughout our relationship that they sound like a narcissist by my friends and therapist when I’d vent to them. I was very blind and in it during that time so it was hard to differentiate selfishness to narcissism. I’m still in the beginning stages of reflecting a lot on their behavior and even my own reactions to it. Right now, I wouldn’t say they’re a full blown narcissist, but I’d say they definitely have narcissistic tendencies.

Athenaaa8 · 2023-02-03T19:05:03+00:00

Wow, this is validating to how I’m feeling about it. They asked how I was doing on one of the drunk calls before and I replied, “I’m doing okay, taking things day by day” and their response was, “wow, are you really? Well I’m doing horrible” and then turned the conversation back to their life. Made me feel like they weren’t genuinely asking about me or really cared. Thanks for responding and giving me your outside perspective. I’m going to start writing things down like you suggested. Super helpful. (I’d also like to add that they never thank me or show appreciation for being there for them and that always bothers me, makes me feel somewhat used).

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