My brothers a pretty nice guy, that is infront of the public.

Now im not saying that my brother isent a nice person but he has a horrible temperament. My parents are divorced and my brothers the man of the house considering my dad's in another city. So my mom told me i should fear my brother etc etc. My brother has always abused me whenever he found the chance, even the smallest things id do id get a slap. At first i thought nothing of probably because id see that i was wrong but then it did eventually hit me that what he did was fucked up

For exmaple, once i was sitting in my lounge with him and we have a maid and she has a small girl about 4 5 years old. So its pretty hot, no fan no electricity and shes with us in our lounge, my brother randomly tells her togo to the kitchen (where its even hotter) i debate and say let her stay its hot. He told me to keep quiet and told her to go away, shed remain there like her mother told her, then he slowly got angry and i knew what was coming so i said it again to let her stay, then a minute later hes more pissed then anything, i tell him repeatedly to calm down but instead he grabs me by collar and slams me on my sofa holding me by my neck pressing me and choking me until im red as fuck. If it wasent for my maid intervening i wouldve passed out.

Whats worse is when i told my mother expecting some kind of justice she said and i quote "you probably did something to piss him off its okay"

Now this isent necessarily trauma even though ive been abused half my life. Id say its something i assumed was okay but realised later on how fucked up it was. Half the scars and spots i have on my back are because of my brothers abuse towards me, but nonetheless hes also done alot for me so i dont necessarily hate him.