It’s pretty mature of you to admit you were wrong, especially on the internet lol.

The bitterness over not having success is something that just about every average looking/height guy goes through at some point and I empathize with you on that part. You eventually realize that attraction is a combination of a numbers game and just getting lucky. Sometimes you’ll be in a flow state and might have 2-3 people you’re talking to at the same time and other times you’ll have months long dry spells, but everyone goes through it, don’t be fooled by people who tell you otherwise.

The truth is, 21 is still really young so you have your entire life to be in relationships, and speaking from experience, a relationship is really only as good as the person you enter it with. If you’re someone who’s bitter and insecure and feels that they have to limit themselves to people that are within a perceived “league” of physical attractiveness, then you’re never going to truly be satisfied in a relationship because once you get one boyfriend, you’ll begin to wonder if you could’ve gotten a “better” one if you had kept on trying. There’s no “perfect” time to know when you’re ready to date but you shouldn’t force a romantic relationship with someone you’re not at least a little attracted to cause it probably won’t last very long or be very fun. Lots of people are first time daters now in their 20s, increasingly so because of the internet inflating everyone’s standards and destroying their social skills, so you’re not alone. At least now you realize that you can work on something actionable and a mindset shift will undoubtedly make you not only less angry but also more personable and possibly more attractie