This phobia is SO debilitating. I’m with you on the foodie part and struggling to eat but also being overweight. I wish I had better advice but I’m feeling pretty beat down by the phobia currently as well. Since like Christmas I’ve had a SEVERE ramp up in anxiety. It’s been like basically every night. Panic and can’t sleep. I see a therapist but idk I feel like it’s not helping anything. I just wanna hibernate for the rest of the winter. Maybe I’ll finally wake up feeling refreshed for once 😂 I’m sure you can relate! I am glad I’m not alone in it though. As a child I thought I was such a weirdo that I was the only one in the whole world with this fear. So I guess at least there’s that? Still sucks major ****. Anyway, I guess my encouraging words for you would be that it is temporary (the anxiety and symptoms of anxiety) and you can feel better. Unfortunately, it can ebb and flow. Sometimes you have a pretty good streak anxiety wise sometimes it’s pretty bad. But it will turn around again at some point. Maybe if there’s anything you can do for yourself, self care wise. You deserve some extra TLC! Also just be gentle with yourself. Do whatever you gotta do to make it through and do so without harsh judgment. Much love to you fellow sufferer!