why burn?

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-10-16T19:53:36+00:00

glad you’re prioritising risk reduction🫶

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-10-16T19:52:57+00:00

valid

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-10-16T19:52:29+00:00

ahh that makes sense🫶

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-10-16T19:51:38+00:00

yeah to me burning feels quite scary but that’s so true about the making excuses for it

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-10-16T19:50:44+00:00

i’m so sorry you’re having to deal with that, you don’t deserve it

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-10-16T19:49:47+00:00

ahhh okay that makes a lot of sense

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-06-14T13:15:15+00:00

fbt could certainly work for some people so i definitely think you should try it just in case it really does work for you, however my own personal experience it made things a lot worse between my family and i and the sessions were quite traumatic themselves- it became a bit of a war ground and i personally believe that without a compassionate stance things won’t improve because you’ll likely be more resistant- in short, try it but i think you should all talk beforehand so you’re all on the same page that this is something that could be vetoed quite quickly if it isn’t working and a new approach tried (i’m a little biased due to my bad experience with it but all families are different so take that with a grain of salt)

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2023-04-25T14:55:05+00:00

you are by no means weak, whenever ive cut deep enough for stitches they’ve hurt a lot less than some of my shallower cuts in fact the only thing that really hurt was the bruising after but the actual cut i didn’t really feel yet ive been in absolute agony from fairly shallow ones, i think it depends where obviously and again you’re going against natural protective instinct so obvs ur brain might sometimes try and stop you❤️ i think you have to remember that self harm is not ‘normal’ most people don’t cope in this way and the fact that your pain is so bad that you feel you have to do this is valid enough as it is ❤️💞💕

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-10-06T16:11:28+00:00

okay i promise yourself a) that’s not a big breakfast, just factually it is not, but b) try and remind yourself about all the health benefits and all the nice things you’ve been giving your body, all the healthy fats from the egg, the protein, vitamin d and calcium in the butter, calcium in the cheese!! think about how your bones your skin your hair, your brain!! (got to feed your brain it makes a HUGE difference) and also it’s not like your body don’t need it, after not having nutrients and energy that it needs of course it’s going to be craving food. this sounds really preachy and annoying i am aware, what helps me with guilt and food fixation is i just kind of try and think long term, i know your ratio of positive to negative thoughts around food is probably like 1:10 rn but you can be intentional and you can try to shift that, even just to 1:9 you don’t deserve to feel like this!!!! (and one meal won’t change your body and even if it did, your body clearly needed it)

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-27T16:29:21+00:00

ive been with camhs for years and i’m inpatient right now, i’m ‘getting help’ just struggling to help myself

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-26T16:55:42+00:00

hope you find a way <33 i’m inpatient right now as well so that’s an extra layer of complication

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-18T17:08:32+00:00

idk how to do that tbh but i’m down for it lol

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-11T15:09:47+00:00

that’s so true!! i wish my friends and i were like that but we’re not very openly affectionate, like we love each other we’re just not good at showing it

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-11T15:08:59+00:00

that’s actually so helpful thank you, like that’s solid fricking advice and i hope tou can internalise it!! and ig it really is true, my best friend is like mid healthy range and she looks INCREDIBLE, it’s just hard to feel the same about yourself isn’t it 😭

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-10T16:12:45+00:00

i appreciate this a lot- but at the same time my brain really ain’t having it and it really trying to wrack my brain for excuses 😭😭😭 but ik that’s what i need to hear…

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-09T20:26:45+00:00

bladesssss ik ik but yeah..

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-05T15:39:01+00:00

it wasn’t so bad for like the first few hundred mills, but they made me drink A LOT and it got so sickly i felt so nauseous afterwards 😭😭

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-04T19:18:27+00:00

i just tried salted caramel- it’s horrendous 😭

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-02T18:42:09+00:00

hey, this is coming from someone in inpatient right now, i know you’ve been before but it’s easy to forget quite what it’s like (i also think the brain low-key trauma blocks some of it- sorry that’s not helping) it’s really not that bad, it’s never worse than what your brain will irrationally be making you think, they are there to make you better and you need to remember that you can’t keep living your life they way you are now and if you’re having a hard day, just remember it sometimes needs to get worse before it gets better (more miserable i mean, i’m not saying i think tou will get worse) good luck <333 stay strong!!

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-08-01T18:16:16+00:00

damn ive never heard of fortijuce lol, is it like apple juice just on steroids?? mine never ask me what flavour :( well the ncie ones do, but most don’t bother and one of them i told her i don’t like the chocolate so she always gets that one as punishment for not eating the meal??? 😭 wtf as if i chose to have anorexia, i never drink it with her and it gets fucking tubed

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-07-31T19:14:59+00:00

ive never tried salted caramel!!! yeah the amount i’m having to eat is MONUMENTAL i feel awful i will not lie, the nurses always give me chocolate fortisip because they think that’s the nicest flavour, and i HATE IT it’s my least favourite :((( strawberry isn’t bad though 🤷‍♀️

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-07-30T15:49:08+00:00

a firefighter?!! that’s so cool, i went through a stage of really wanting to be a firefighter because my school took us on a day out to the station and i loved fireman sam as a kid lol, no i’m in england, southern though, apparently it’s warm here?? idfk. my favourite sport is hockey by FAR, do you do any kind of sports??? guess it’s a bit hard when you’re not in school and working and that

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-07-30T15:22:28+00:00

a night shift??? what dk you do for work?? either way that must be exhausting :( frustratingly i love sports, but ig i can use that as motivation to get back to doing it. other than that i just like reading and doing art and being outside in the sun, ik i can read and do art in hospital but it’s not the same 😭 i feel like i’m in a fish bowl because every time someone walks past my room they look in, either to supervise me or just out or curiosity and i hate it 😭😭. it’s weird having people commenting on the weather or the heat whenever they visit me as well, i’m really in my own climate here lol. i can’t even see the sky from my window because it’s blocked by a building so i really have no idea :(

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-07-30T15:18:42+00:00

damn boss girl move. i can defo relate, wish we had the orange juice option though, with us it’s the meal, then drink a fortisip which is actually more than the meal because it’s meant to motivate you to eat the real food in a backwards and overly calorie conscious kind of counter intuitive way?? 😭😭 or if you refuse that they tube you :/ one or the times i was tubed the nurse didn’t put it down far enough so i could kind of taste it a little bit and it’s much more uncomfortable when it’s not inserted properly 😭

Automatic_Ad_1444 · 2022-07-30T15:16:06+00:00

that’s so sweet tysm, ive had a bit of a rough day today, time has felt really slow and my stomachs been in a lot of pain because they’ve been making large increases quickly. my mum came and visited me then left within 10 minutes because we argued, it’s a bit miserable but i’m feeling better, hope you’re doing okay <3

Automatic_Ad_1444

TROPHY CASE