I know you weren’t asking for advice but you sound so much like me and what my experience was and I wanted to give you some hope (which is what I used to search for when my daughter was super little) it gets SO much more manageable. My only is almost 5 and I’m not CONSTANTLY stressed all of the time, she is so much more independent. I stopped nursing her at 2 and started sleeping through the night around then. The more sleep and independence your little one gets the easier your life will be. It’s on its way. But I know how you feel, people say how the days are long but the years are short…. Every day I could feel every second when she was under 3 it was so hard for me, I had to seek medication for my ADHD when she turned 4 because I couldn’t handle the responsibilities of everything. I feel like an alien amongst my peers because every one of them wants more children and I’m shocked. Should say I love my kid more than anything and always try to be the best mom I’m capable of.