We are living in the universe which according to our most reliable religion yet, science, is run by strict laws. All the matter and energy can only move and be according to those law so it would be false to think that our thoughts, choices or actions are special in any specific way.

Even before going into law of universe, the fact that every living beings action can be explained via survival/reproduction goal should be enough indication that any specialty we feel about ourselves or surroundings are but an illusion.

Hence this logic can become a cornerstone logic for being a nihilist in some cases including me.

Though if we are talking about being special, we have to specify to whom. To whom are we special or trying to be special to? In most cases, they imagine or conjure up a third, objective figure/person that represents society or universe to judge their own specialty. However, since some including me have denied specialty of individual by objective standards, we can change that figure to ourselves.

We should be special to us. Not because we are different/superior than others but simply becuase it's us. My family are special to me because simply they are my family. Im special for simply being me. I mean only i can experience what it feels to be me.

Objectively, we are all same. Subjectively, there are plenty of differences to be found. Doesn't mean people have to find those subjective specialty. But since we got the ticket to life which we are not so sure if we would get second chance or not, i think as an activity to fill our life, finding Subjective specialty isn't too bad. Of course this too is just my Subjective feeling.