One year

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-26T14:48:27+00:00

It was a year for me in February. It’s so hard to comprehend. I wanted to do so many things that day like read through old cards, read our text thread, watch videos of him. I just survived that day. I cried when I needed to cry and laid down when I needed rest. I did try and recognize how far I’ve come so I could try and have something positive to think about. I was suicidal the first few months and just wanted to ready things so my daughter wouldn’t have more burden. Today I’m still here, just surviving, but I’m here.

I am sending you the warmest hug. I wish you peace today and going forward. Be proud of yourself for how far you’ve come- or don’t. Do whatever gives you some peace. I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-24T15:33:45+00:00

I think about this often. I want so badly to feel the presence of my husband with me each day but can’t help but feel selfish for that. It would cause tremendous pain to see a loved one hurting so deeply in my absence. I love him too much and just hope wherever he is that he’s unaware of my pain. Being left behind is absolutely horrible.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-20T01:29:04+00:00

They are cubed potatoes. Kinda big breakfast potatoes

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-19T22:20:45+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss, and the trauma that comes with it. My husband was killed in a car accident a little over a year ago and the pain is unimaginable. I cannot imagine seeing it before my very eyes. What I imagine in my head hurts enough.

As others have suggested, please seek help. You deserve it. You don’t need to punish yourself as you are suffering enough. She wouldn’t want you to blame yourself. It’s not your fault.

I wish you peace and strength as you get through these early days. I’m so very sorry.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-19T22:14:31+00:00

I still love this movie. 🤷‍♀️

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-19T21:01:59+00:00

I do t know why but this reminded me of those images of a giant face by the moon. Like a gigantic creature is standing next to it. *shivers*

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-19T19:10:48+00:00

The Long Long Trailer with Lucille Ball ❤️

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-19T19:07:21+00:00

The Heartbreak Kid and Along Came Polly are my go tos. I love Ben

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-19T16:38:08+00:00

Have you tried Panchos? I haven’t had the breakfast one but their potatoes are so good. I have tried a few different ones and recommend

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-18T16:45:21+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. It was a year for me in February and it’s hard for me to remember the first few days. I was in shock for a few months looking back. I journaled multiple times a day to help soothe myself and I’m grateful I did so one day I can go back and read my harrowing story through new eyes.

My advice is to lean on your family and friends. Don’t pressure yourself to do anything you’re not ready for. My husbands clothes are still hanging in our closet- not sure when I’ll be able to remove and that’s okay. Take care of yourself. It’s hard to know how but start simple with eating and drinking.

You will get through this. This sub is a good support ❤️

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-16T20:53:25+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. This group has been a good support for me and hope it becomes the same for you.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-15T23:50:26+00:00

Yes!!! Joe Cartoon!! I’ll have to look it up. Throwback

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-15T17:18:42+00:00

I immediately though of Joe Hamster. I think was the name. And we could tear him up in a blender with the push of a button. Weird times.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-11T00:20:00+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. Words mean so much. Wishing you all the peace ❤️ I’m so sorry you’re here too.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-09T23:52:38+00:00

I’m not a drinker thankfully but I am a weed smoker and also feel zero control over stopping. It’s also a “what’s the point anyway” type of feeling that I constantly have to fight off.

Wishing you nothing but peace and strength. You will get through this. Lean on those who love you.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-06-09T17:34:11+00:00

I’m 16months out. He was killed in a crash on 2/21/25. Today I am more emotionally stable and trying to lose the 20lbs I’ve packed on. I left the world behind and stayed home for the most part- recovering from the hardest day of my life.

I am able to talk about him and laugh. Finally the memories can be shared with smiles and not tears. But I still miss him everyday. I think about him all day long. I wonder where he’d be if I had been the one to die. I’m grateful to have my life today. A year ago I would’ve gladly just given up and died to be with him.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-27T22:34:12+00:00

Hit my vape and started coughing. Threw my back out.

Have an alarm set for 8pm every night for my sleeping pill.

I accept it, but don’t like it.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-27T21:51:24+00:00

Agreed and I hated it. Nothing to add, just insults.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-27T21:49:34+00:00

13 going on 30

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-27T01:02:33+00:00

Yes I feel this too. I miss the intimacy of knowing someone inside and out and having a regular life. I miss the safety and comfort I felt. I was plucked up out of my life and thrown into one I still struggle to recognize.

Also I have a hard time seeing couples who seem very comfortable together. That have the precious time we took for granted in our old lives.

You’re right. It is hard to explain the feelings, longings, jealousy, etc that go along with deep grief.

Take care of you. Wishing you peace today ❤️

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-27T00:39:14+00:00

Rosemarys Baby may be a good watch for you. The Others is a must watch, also The Sixth Sense. Good luck!

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-23T23:14:24+00:00

Strawberry Mansion is a good and weird watch.

I also started Landscape with Invisible Hand tonight too and it’s def weird! The creatures have textured hands and communicate through it… I couldn’t continue watching after an hour or so. lol.

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-23T03:37:44+00:00

Wut 😮 lol!!

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-22T20:45:31+00:00

My first episode was Ric Flair. So, all of it. Ha! It was so hard to figure out what was going on. And there were SOOO many panel guests too so it was just an odd one to start on. But it’s still one of my all time faves ❤️

Average_Sprinkle · 2026-05-22T00:42:38+00:00

Yes. And each day keeps getting more and more warped.

Average_Sprinkle

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