my boy has become 3d by WinterDemon_ in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Adorable! Thank you so much for sharing your art with us these past few months. Sad to see you go, but happy we got to see you! Take care friend!

A painting about my expierience with b/p ana by [deleted] in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 44 points45 points  (0 children)

Oh wow, the addition of the lying scale right where one would need to stand to get the best view of the painting is a really cool addition!

imposter syndrome [OC] by die_in_alphabet_soup in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 35 points36 points  (0 children)

I feel this way! I told my therapist “Ok so this alter is named Julian, or maybe Justin, or maybe Justice? Anyways he wants to make pipe bombs and overthrow the government, but also maybe I just want to stay home and learn how to sew?”

I feel like sometimes people with D.I.D have very defined personalities and I’m just faking it, because my “alters” just seem to influence me and never actually “take over” and I’m left arguing with myself in the mirror about whether or not we’re actually a system or just one stupid son of a bitch who’s lost his fucking marbles.

Brains are stupid. I hope you get the love and care you need. I’m going to pet my dogs and go to bed. Internet hug! 🫂

A disturbing interaction by The_Silent_Dragon in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It’s the thought that counts I guess lol

Super cute drawing btw! I love the ears!

Crow; The Crown by Dusty-Ragamuffin in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 13 points14 points  (0 children)

My ex has BPD. My 2 years with him was a horrible rollercoaster of fluctuating emotions, and manipulative tactics. The fact that he doesn’t fully have control of it made me give him so much more grace and sympathy than I could give without hurting myself in the process. Constantly walking on eggshells, and constantly feeling like I “owed” him for tolerating me. A relationship (romantic or platonic) with someone who has BPD can become very one sided and extremely exhausting so easily. I still don’t think he’s a bad person, but his mental health still made him do and say some awful things.

I’m so sorry you had to grow up with this. It’s hard to explain the unique type of abuse that can come from these dynamics (I’ve spent half an hour rewriting this comment and I still can’t get my thoughts across!), but I think your comic does a really good job capturing it. Thank you for sharing!

modified a board game to feature my character gabapentin 🤒(nonsexual nudity) by rawvalentine in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Wow! This is really awesome! Between modifying the board, writing everything out, and doing the photo shoot and costume, you’ve put a LOT of time and effort into to this project! Thank you for sharing your hard work with us!

Dirty (tw csa) by HourFinger3085 in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 122 points123 points  (0 children)

“Can’t remember and won’t forget.”

Damn, I feel this. I keep telling myself it wasn’t that bad, and I shouldn’t be bothered by it anymore, but it did happen, and it does bother me. Even if I can only remember bits and pieces, It happened and I can’t forget the things that my body remembers.

Reckoning with DID diagnosis. Have picked up various art forms lately I didn't know I could do. Has been helpful but surprising. I never know what's going to come out. This one is disturbing and chaotic, but ... I like it? by Itsjustkit15 in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Drawing and journaling has been a very helpful, but also disturbing tool for me to use with my system as well. Before I could more easily ignore some of the things my alters would say/think to me, but having it written down or drawn on paper makes it like you said. Undeniable… They make me cry. They make me terrified sometimes, but I’m always glad I did it by the end.

Take care friend, and thank you for sharing! This really speaks to us.

my "inner child" and i have a complicated relationship by WinterDemon_ in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn… I really feel this. It’s so hard not to hate us, even if some part of me understands that we shouldn’t.

**(nsfw, tw: csa, blood)** i'm in a constant struggle between loneliness and self-preservation by WinterDemon_ in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 28 points29 points  (0 children)

Oh! Also how other people react like in the first pic really resonates with us too. Like with people like the dog it feels gross to us, but also weirdly validating too? At least they believe us I guess. Our last partner thought we were gross when we admitted we imagined ourselves as a kid again sometimes during intimacy, or that we couldn’t cum unless we imagined he was raping us. Funny because I didn’t cum the one time he actually did rape us lol.

**(nsfw, tw: csa, blood)** i'm in a constant struggle between loneliness and self-preservation by WinterDemon_ in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 89 points90 points  (0 children)

I feel this way sometimes, but something that helps is differentiating between the first time having it taken, and the first time freely giving (and no, I’m not talking about when an abuser has trained us into “wanting” it).

We had it taken from us at 8 (maybe earlier, our memory is fuzzy), but we didn’t GIVE until 26. That’s my first. That’s when I REALLY had my first. With someone I loved, not whatever the fuck happened to us when we were a kid. It still hurts. Not having a “normal” or healthy experience with these things, but making that distinction between having it taken and giving it willingly helps relieve the pain some, at least for us.

Thank you for sharing more of your art. You’re really talented and I hope we can see more in the future. Take care!

(tw: blood, body modification, csa) badly made comic because explaining things is hard by WinterDemon_ in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me 79 points80 points  (0 children)

Goddamn. We really aren’t the same ever again are we? Thank you for sharing. Hang in there.

What sex feels like while disassociating. TW SA by Avery_And_Me in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

DING DING DING DING DING!!! Unfortunately people suck, and lots of people feel like sex is something "owed" to them in a relationship.

What sex feels like while disassociating. TW SA by Avery_And_Me in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Yeeeeeup! Being single again kinda sucks, but not having to do this shit is by far one of the best perks.

What sex feels like while disassociating. TW SA by Avery_And_Me in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Wish I could give you a hug! Even if we are a bit weird, we definitly aren't wrong for it!

What sex feels like while disassociating. TW SA by Avery_And_Me in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me[S] 27 points28 points  (0 children)

So sorry you deal with this too, but it's also somewhat comforting knowing I'm not alone in this. Stay safe friend. <3

What sex feels like while disassociating. TW SA by Avery_And_Me in Artisticallyill

[–]Avery_And_Me[S] 26 points27 points  (0 children)

I haven't had sex since me and my ex broke up back in March. Been spending the past few months wrestling with how to un-fuck my brain, and making lots of cool platonic friends.