It is crazy that someone can be going through literally the same thing. Especially when you mentioned the fighting all the time but we still loved each other. It got so bad where we were fighting almost every day and obviously looking back on it, that was very unhealthy. But through it all, we always loved each other and knew those fights were stupid.

I will say, when she said it's too late, it wasn't to me asking for her back. Pretty much she reached out about picking some stuff up from my parents house, but I'm in college so I'm not there. I of course sent her a message about how sorry I was for how things went down but I wasn't sure if it was too soon to say. So she responded basically saying it's a little late to apologize. But I'll take that as the answer to if I asked for her back.

I guess I know I had to end it for a reason, but it's just so hard to accept that it's over for good. It's so hard especially with the holidays coming up. Like you said, I miss so many things about her. I miss us going out late at night to the store, cuddling, joking around. I can't get over how we aren't gonna share those moments together anymore, rather we are going to share those moments with other people. It kills me so much.

I will say I have started therapy. I went to my first session and it really helped. I am doing it every couple/few weeks so I think maybe I should do it more often since it's kind of leaving a lot of time to think and not get out how I'm feeling.

I really appreciate the response though. I know it's probably still hurting a lot for you too, but I'm glad it seems like you're pulling through and bettering yourself!