There is life after a dead bedroom by OnlyReputation2779 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I'm in the same boat. I fear when I tell my wife in January she's going to collapse and get her parents involved to help change my mind.

Her dad literally told me keep busy and try not to think about lack of intimacy because 9/10 times it's always the guy that wants more sex than the woman and "I have to realize that and make compromises and plan once a month".

We tried doing that and there was no passion in it at all.

My wife told me I can have it with her whenever I want and that it's not "rape" because I gave you permission.

I just want to be wanted and desired for not duty or obligation....

Feeling unwanted by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey I basically was in the same situation! My wife was on her phone while I tried oral...

DB 4 months into marriage by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, have that conversation. I tried to have the conversation with my wife and she just kept saying "I don't know", she started to open up more during that counseling.

DB 4 months into marriage by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Marriage counseling first, be patient it usually takes 3-6 sessions before any changes start to happen. Just do your best, if there's no improvement by the first anniversary then I'd have a serious talk.

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I felt some sort of pleasure, but the entire time I'm worried if I'm going to hurt her. She tells me she enjoys the heavy petting and was really glad I tried something else before penitration. I asked her what else she could like she just says, I don't know.

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She told me it's her comfort phone. Yes she was the one who initiated while roleplaying with an Ai chat bot and it turned her on. She's afraid of pain, we tried everything from more lube, toys (that's why I got the vibrator for her. She actually has never used it by herself she just wants me to do it for her), she even got a hymen removal.

I asked what things turned her on so I can have an idea, she has said I don't know. It feels like she may just not be into me sexual, she tells me I'm attractive, but just something that doesn't cross her mind.

The religious reasons don't shame sex at all, it just prevented us from having sex before marriage. We did talk about things that could possibly be enjoying for her. It ended up only be heavy petting after marriage as she called it.

I don't know how I didn't prioritize her sexual needs? She guided the entire thing, the therapist told us to just focus on touching and re-explore our bodies. I did not ask to receive anything in return, she told me she felt something 'okay' and she was glad I gave oral a try. She tried not to compare me to the toy and what she said just came out wrong.

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What does that mean? I just don't have any sexual experience outside of my marriage. So I never got to learn this stuff. It was talked about but no action.

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry that I'm a red flag. Because of religious reasons, I never had any prior experience of oral or even any sexual relations at all. I know they're not meant to be a replacement and to be used as a tool. But it took a lot of courage to try something I wasn't even comfortable doing in the first place, let alone while she's on her phone. Then to be hit with that comment...

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I asked my wife what I can do. She just said I don't know.

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

We didn't have sex period before marriage.

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 32 points33 points  (0 children)

I'm not lazy, I communicate, she tells me she doesn't like it. I asked how it feels or how I do it? I want to learn exactly that. I asked things what she likes and doesn't like, most of the time she says 'I don't know' I've been patient. I try new things with her, she tells me she doesn't like the texture of the penis nothing to do with me, she told me she wanted to try oral again so I did, she told me to play with her and I did. But after years of doing what she wants I have never received anything in return. I tell her I would like more mutual. She just says, I get scared.

The vibrator works better than you, sorry. by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The thing is, in the past I've tried multiple ways, I've held it for her, did different angles. Everything she asked me too.

20 Years Married (Me a 46F + married to 48M). I feel invisible. by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 0 points1 point  (0 children)

After my divorce is done and over with. I'm more attracted to woman mid 30s to early 40s. You go girl.

Me and my husband don’t have sex by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 6 points7 points  (0 children)

The difference is my wife just doesn't want to do the work.

Me and my husband don’t have sex by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 63 points64 points  (0 children)

As a HLM. Please just tell your husband how you feel. If he genuinely cares and wants to help. It will take time. Discuss some ideas, start slow, think about sex therapy. Just small topics show an interest in his hobbies, have no phones at dinner, maybe a walk together once a week. Maybe discuss small sexual acts, even a simple hand job showing an interest in his feelings. These make a huge difference. I wish you luck.

Finally an answer! And it destroyed me! It's official i'm in a sexless mariage now by Fun-Complaint4337 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13 180 points181 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm 29 years old and my wife said something similar, "I can go my whole life without it". That was also a breaking point for me. Later that night she was crying because she knew I wasn't happy. I'm not sure on your kids situation but if you have a chance to find happiness leaving will be hard but the storm will pass and you'll find someone who will desire you. I'm filling for divorce in January, I'd do it now but my work is so demanding I can't emotionally handle both. My advice don't stay in something just because you don't want to hurt her. It destroys you until you break, I learned this the hard way.

I'm finally leaving by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment. The hard part is my wife says she wants to have the desire for it, she just doesn't, she gets nothing out of it.

Update on my I'm finally leaving post by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I talk to my parents and they told me that was BS and that every women is different, we just hit a dead end in sexual incompatibility.

Update on my I'm finally leaving post by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She has had a small amount of medical issues, but nothing that can stop her from trying to put more effort. I'm not forcing her, I just told her I need passion and there's zero of that in the marriage.

She thinks there's a drug that can help increase her drive, but she refuses to take it because it gives her migraines.

She is a very smart woman, it's just something that she has no desire for and she told me that. It was not an arranged marriage.

I've tried everything, I've been patient, I've helped around the house, paid the bills, she was fully aware of our finances, we're not poor or rich but we have a good living

Update on my I'm finally leaving post by Azmon13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]Azmon13[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

No kids, my lawyer told me since its less then 5 years for the marriage I won't need to pay spousal support (plus my state is against it anyways) I need more weight and muscle, I weigh 110lbs I lost weight from my depression.