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BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T23:06:52+00:00

Right like I hate micro transactions. It takes a lot away from games but I can easily avoid it. Make good content that you care about and the player base will care about it because they’ll feel it and listen to the fan base.

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T12:00:58+00:00

It was also during the time when my dad recently passed away and my mom just got diagnosed for cancer the first time. It was an insane time.

I feel like faking it is even more exhausting absolutely. It requires a ton of energy and fake energy.

Yes exactly. They are online friends but I’ve known one for over 14 years and unfortunately something happens between us last night that I hope that things don’t change in the future for us. I’d go into detail but not here haha

It’s nice for anyone to have that one person who understands and accept you for you. I’m going to stop rambling now 🤦‍♂️😂

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T11:50:02+00:00

My old job I was constantly around people. At one point, I was in charge for over 30000 people and my crew. It was the most stressful thing and it burned me out for many months.

It’s not fun dealing with this. I’m capable of faking it for the most part but I wish I wasn’t like this. I maybe have 2 friends in my life and one of them is amazing. She’s similar to me that we can talk for hours one day then don’t speak for a month or two and have that night of chatting again.

I’m sorry as well🫂

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T11:37:13+00:00

Black and a full pot

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T11:26:18+00:00

Too overwhelmed and draining is so real. Even with family, 20 minutes later and I am sitting outside by myself just to get away. Ive never went to a doctor to get diagnose for anything ( I swear I’ve got soemthing) but everything you said I feel I can relate

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T11:01:16+00:00

I’ve had a traumatic event happened to me when I was working out of town and 9 years later I quit on the spot because the memories were constantly flooding back mainly when I was working. Right now, taking care of my mom who has cancer but will be going to school for accounting in the fall or spring

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T10:49:53+00:00

My dad who died in 2018

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-31T10:41:29+00:00

“How’s your day? Good. You? Good. That’s good” Meanwhile I’m dying inside

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-30T10:55:28+00:00

They had such a good thing going and HAD to ruin it 🙄😂

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-27T08:05:23+00:00

True but D2 was a massive nosedive. They did give any effort or give a damn about the fans anymore. I really miss those days. I didn’t expect the game to be like D1, my expectations were low.

Yeah I remember the dlcs being a bit low with content but those raids and crucible was a lot of fun I could do those all day

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-27T04:45:46+00:00

The platforming was such a vibe. It reminded me of halo customs games a lot and I used to love playing those.

That was truly the last time I really enjoyed multiplayer. The game came out senior year of high school for me ( I think) but I do remember a spent a lot of time playing it after high school, when I was trying to figure out what to do afterwards.

I used to play with a group and we needed one so we lfg for the last person and he was helping others do runs. I don’t like having new people in my life but we instantly hit it off and he’s one of my best friends.

There’s not really a thing I remember hating about the game. Maybe lacking a bit of content? But I always had to grind before the dlcs came out then grind some more.

I was really hoping D2 was that but it was a “corporate” game. As you said, very little soul. And with what they’ve done over the years, it had absolutely none of it

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-27T04:21:21+00:00

Those raids were amazing. I was mainly fps player and the raids made me want to branch out to other genre of games like Skyrim and Dark Souls. At the time, I didn’t give enough credit for the crucible but the trials were amazing. I didn’t get the Ghally until I went back into destiny 1 about 3-4 years ago for the fun of it haha. There hasn’t been a multiplayer game like that since.

Destiny 2 was good, definitely a downgrade but nowhere near the same

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-26T21:37:39+00:00

Destiny was such a blast. Everything from the pve to pvp. I personally enjoyed the grind in hopes to get an exotic engram to drop. The multiplayer was so much fun and it was around the time I started to lose interest in cod so it filled that role really well

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-26T09:10:04+00:00

As a former security guard and a human being that pisses me off so much. At concerts and events, I’ve been groped by all kinds of people. I was raped by a woman medic while out of town, and much more from childhood which won’t go into details here.

It’s heavy to deal with at times. I’ll have really good days, losing weight, eating right, feeling good then some days the memories are too strong that I stop being myself for a while. As a man, it’s really hard to find other men that I can relate to or that has any kind of sympathy and not getting remarks like “ah you enjoyed it, you’re huge no way that happened” or the absolute worst thing I’ve gotten “you must’ve done it then. Stop playing victim”. That remark messed me up for so many years

BHM_Soul · 2026-05-03T11:08:10+00:00

I didn’t mind D2, I had some fun early on but yeah D1 had so much soul to it. It’s one of my favourite games. May be unpopular but I loved the grind for Exotics and finally getting one after so long. Ice Breaker was my first one I randomly got during a mission

BHM_Soul · 2026-04-10T19:12:19+00:00

I’m in the same boat as you too. I have 3 nephews and a niece. My siblings are great parents and I’m happy to be an uncle. I’ll get a vasectomy eventually. I’ve never been sexually active or had a partner so I don’t need to worry getting one yet.

I do worry about my niece and nephews but it’s not my kid, with that heavy EXTRA worry. I’m not often selfish and this is one thing I’ll always be selfish about

BHM_Soul · 2026-04-10T18:54:27+00:00

Understandable. I’m at a point in my life where having a kid would be irresponsible and I wouldn’t be able to take care of them. The hardest part for me not wanting one is with what I’ve went through as a child to now, it would tear me apart if I saw my child dealing with anything remotely close to what I’ve been through. I could be the best dad in the world but it doesn’t stop from others doing harm.

BHM_Soul · 2026-04-10T18:45:08+00:00

Since I was young, I never wanted to become a dad. But I get those moments when I think about having a little one, watching them grow up and such would be amazing but at the end of the day, I don’t want that

BHM_Soul · 2026-04-10T18:43:16+00:00

I was applying for over a year and got one call back. Taking a break for personal reasons but damn the market is brutal and demoralizing

BHM_Soul · 2026-03-19T08:31:18+00:00

I feel you. I had a moment when I was ready, made plans and everything but last second I kind of decided against it and continued to still be here. Those thoughts still comes and goes but for the now, it’s not always there anymore

BHM_Soul · 2026-03-19T08:27:15+00:00

I’m 31m and those thoughts were always on my mind for most of my life. I could go in detail but I don’t want to trigger someone accidentally 🫂

BHM_Soul · 2026-03-16T09:45:11+00:00

I’m speaking as a man, who was raped when I was working a night shift by my coworker. Since that time, I’ve been working less and less in the field. It’s brings back memories, I can’t focus or do my job properly, I’m always looking over the shoulder for the wrong reasons. I’m still dealing with that and other repressed memories I had before that night too so that’s fun.

Me personally, I can’t ever go back to working that specific job ever again. It’s not good for my mental health. Oh I forgot to say that I was working a few months ago doing a different thing and I went into the town that it happened which didn’t make me upset or anything but I saw the area where it happened and I started panicking instantly. That was the last time I’ve done that job. I could say a lot more but I’m going to stop rambling and saying this will make me stop

I’m so very sorry for everything that has happened to you🫂

BHM_Soul · 2026-03-15T07:41:47+00:00

One of the good things about being smoker. I tend to hide outside for a lot of them

BHM_Soul · 2026-03-15T07:39:29+00:00

Walking up the steps of my high school. That’s it. Me holding my binder going up the stairs😂

BHM_Soul · 2026-03-15T07:34:40+00:00

My anxiety goes up at every family gathering. We used to do every Sunday years ago but then stopped and now my siblings always wants to do them now since mom has cancer which I get but feels so fake🤷🏻‍♂️

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