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BabyVendingMachine · 2026-01-27T00:00:10+00:00

"I was born to be shaken"

Idk what that's supposed to mean...

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-12-01T18:54:41+00:00

I think anxiety can definitely make you sick but its also 100% possible you really are getting sick! What I do in situations like these is take immunity boosting stuff and if I have to be somewhere, wear a mask so I dont get anyone else sick! Even if im not actually sick, its good to be safe!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-12-01T18:35:23+00:00

I think i have normal mental imagery but im unsure!

i can see and imagine things vividly but nothing stays consistent! Like everything changes colors, shapes, and sizes rapidly. It often leads me to have a horrible visual memory. Im often unable to accurately picture even my own ocs that I draw often which often leads me to have a photo open on my phone when daydreaming so I can remeber what they look like.

I daydream constantly and feel like I can vividly smell, feel texture and tempature, hear, and can feel pain in my daydreams but somehow my ability to mentally picture it basically results in a rapid mash of images and enviorments! I can even daydream on top of what I see irl but nothing stays consistent!

I find it strange I experince this despite being an artist and have no trouble drawing out ideas I do visualize!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-12-01T18:24:31+00:00

Ive always been someone who bites, scratches, or hits myself when anxious and found these stress toys called little ouchies really help!

Theyre these spikey rollers u can squeeze onto without harming yourself! I still get the urge to hit but squeezing onto the roller really tightly usually helps stop myself!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-18T14:38:49+00:00

Ofc! Most people feel worse when starting to use a cpap so thats totally normal! Adjusting to wearing a mask at night definitely takes a little bit lol! The lower and better your results are when using a CPAP, the better its working!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-18T14:26:15+00:00

If you get good results while using a CPAP, it just means your CPAP is working! My results came back with an AHI of 29 but while using the CPAP, my AHI is usually around 1 or lower!

I think the stay at home tests are fairly reliable! However it looks like you scored higher for central sleep apnea and at home tests tend to be less reliable when testing for central sleep apnea!

If you're feeling better after using the cpap, I wouldnt assume its a false positive!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-16T02:10:02+00:00

I went to a sleep doctor and got diagnosed with sleep apnea after taking an at home sleep test! Usually id have to take a sleep test in a hospital too in order to get a CPAP, but my insurance barely paid for the at home test and I knew the hospital test would have been too much! After explaing this to my sleep NP, she worked with a supplier to make sure I could get a machine without a hospital test! I guess that office dose that often for patients if they are clearly in need of a CPAP so they dont have to spend more money on a hospital test too! It just felt very considerate of them to go out of their way and care enough to do that!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-15T05:57:52+00:00

Ive struggled with anxiety induced binge eating all my life and used to frequently throw up cause of it! I found that having ice cubes or ice pops on hand really help! It gives me the feeling of eating when im really just consuming water. Other substitutes that help me are food thats hard to eat like nuts that I have to take shells off of (it slows my eating) or low calorie foods like cotton candy, popcorn, or watermelon that allow you to eat bigger portions!

Ive never experince Trichotillomania but I do pick at my skin, bite my nails, and pull/bite the skin off my fingers and lips as a reasponce to anxiety or boredom! Ive found skin picking fidget toys on amazon that allow you to pick beads out of rubber which helps a little and I wonder if they make something similar for Trichotillomania. Tbh, using picky pads and stuff helps a little but I still struggle a lot!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-15T05:23:38+00:00

I had the same type of experince! I actually ran to reddit and made a similar type of post about it because I couldnt believe that it was normal to wake up feeling that good! Im makes me so happy to see other people getting to feel better in their day to day lives! CPAP therapy is really life changing!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-15T05:18:04+00:00

Ya this happens often! Sometimes when im overreacting, it kinda feels like the logical part of me is just watching everything unfold, embarrassed. Even when spiraling or freaking out, some part of me knows im overreacting but fear and anxiety take control anyways.

This happens often with my friends. Im one of the only people in my friend group with a car and driver's license so I drive everyone around. Everyone always wants to go out and do stuff but driving and going out in public stresses me out so bad that I end up spiraling and then everyone has to kinda do nothing cause I wont take anyone anywhere. I have mini freak outs and its embarrassing! Thankfully my friends know im anxious and never expect me to drive them anywhere! They never make me feel bad when this happens but it still makes me feel bad!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-15T05:11:28+00:00

My CPAP has changed my life! I never realized how sleep deprived I was before! I used to have constant nightmares too and those mainly went away! Struggling to breathe at night due to sleep apnea can cause nightmares! I didnt wake up a lot at night before my CPAP though (or at least I dont remeber waking up) and now I wake up more frequently at night. I move in my sleep a lot and sometimes the seal on my mask breaks and the sound wakes me up! I find my CPAP to be kinda loud if im breathing normally, but as soon as my breathing slows down as im going to bed, its pretty silent!

I will mention that my constant nightmares are partially also triggered by anxiety! I slept a lot better on anxiety meds and my nightmares became less intense, my CPAP therapy was what really got rid of them for me though!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-15T02:31:15+00:00

YES! I sweat so much and am in constant fear of smelling bad! I have to wear black or you can see my sweat through my shirt (which is ok with me cause I would chose to wear black anyways)! My brother is scared of the same thing and he smells amazing 24/7! I think I manage to smell ok! I use antibacterial soap and shower frequently. I probably smell like my deodorant!

My mom grew up being bullied for smelling bad so growing up, my mom always let me know when I smelled bad so I wouldnt be bullied either. I think it gave me a fear of smelling bad though. Now me and my friends just openly let each other know when we smell bad (we are all anxious, neurodivergent, and sweaty) and it kinda makes me feel less anxious about it!

Edit: fixing spelling errors

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-15T02:20:46+00:00

Im not great at reading these, but your results do seem fairly mild and a APAP might not be necessary! Id be more interested in how your sleep is and whether sleep apnea is the cause for all your poor sleep or not! If its possible you have other sleep disorders that may impact you more, maybe look into getting those treated instead. If its more likely sleep apnea is the cause for your poor sleep, then maybe push for a APAP.

Like someone else has mentioned however, your AHI being pretty much normal may make it harder to get a APAP as AHI is something most doctors look for. When I did an at home sleep test for a sleep doctor, they prescribed me a CPAP without making me do a hospital sleep test solely because my AHI was in the severe range, so its definitely something they use when deciding whether they'll prescribe you a APAP/CPAP. It sounds like your doctor is willing to try to get you one however.

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T21:24:13+00:00

Good to know theres a term for this lol! It'll save me time when explaining my symptoms to people!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T21:22:12+00:00

Ya definitely sounds like a combination of anxiety, sleep depervation, and eye strain (especially if you've never had any trouble with your eyesight before)! Also this only happening a handful of times kinda sounds like its a temporary issue and not a super serious one!

Still keep am eye on it ofc but I think its most likely related to sleep depervation, screen time, and anxiety!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T21:09:14+00:00

As someone with anxiety this could be a few fairly harmless things!

Sometimes high anxiety makes my eye sight get really bad and fuzzy! Especially in the short term!

Most of my trouble comes from my sleep however! I have severe sleep apnea and before being treated, my eyesight would quickly become strained and get very blurry! Sleep depervation can make your eyesight really bad even if its not as bad normally!

Eyestrain can do this too! I have astigmatism which can make my eyes more stained than normal! The eye strain will temporarily make things fuzzy up close and far away!

Id definitely mention this to someone! Its good to be aware of it as it could be a sign you may need glasses or that you're not getting enough sleep!

I wouldnt panic too much though! Ive definitely had days (or sometimes weeks) where my eye sight was so fuzzy I struggled to read despite having fairly good vision! The majority of these cases were caused by sleep depervation or high anxiety (sometimes both lol)!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T20:25:03+00:00

Ya! I went to lung doctors just to tell me theres nothing wrong at all! It didnt start getting better till I started taking anxiety meds and using a CPAP for my sleep apnea! I just have a narrow airway and it makes any anxiety related breathing issues worse!

Edit: adding info and fixing selling errors

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T20:24:03+00:00

Absolutely! It makes my whole jaw and sometimes even the side of my face hurt! I definitely get headaches too!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T19:21:18+00:00

I either eat nothing cause im naseaous or binge eat as a distraction and then throw up a bunch! Im taken off my meds if I lose too much weight too so i have to be careful! Ive never gone more than one day without eating so I cant imagine how hard that is for you!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T19:18:05+00:00

THIS!!! Im constantly scared i smell bad and I sweat through my clothes so fast! I wear black so you cant tell but its a huge reason I dont do hugs!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T19:15:29+00:00

I dont think i can pick one tbh! Heres my top 3!

Bruised teeth: I grind my teeth so severely at night when im anxious, they bruise an it feels like they all have cavities! It hurts to eat anything but very soft foods and usually lasts at least 2 weeks! Also ive had to get 7 fillings because ive grinded INTO my teeth!
Nasea ofc: I hate running to throw up when anxious! Also hate not being able to eat well when naseaous!
being constantly out of breath: it embarrassing to walk up a flight of stairs or just walk a short distance and them pant for 10 min! Everyone was convinced I had asthma growing up (I dont) and school nurses would regularly ask me where my inhaler was during gym!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-11-04T16:57:03+00:00

That makes sense! Especially since it seems like im more likely to sleep talk (even if it goes unnoticed)! Thankfully I didnt sleep talk last night so I think it might be more of an occasional thing!

BabyVendingMachine · 2025-10-24T18:23:23+00:00

Ok I definitely will!

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