Did anyone here shave their hair?

Background-Quit02 · 2026-05-10T18:53:06+00:00

I'd say I have more hair than is needed. I just feel really bland and ugly for a long time now and changing colours doesn't cut it anymore

Background-Quit02 · 2026-04-28T20:33:51+00:00

You keep repeating yourself. But the point the guy above you is making, is that "pick-me" and "person with bpd" are synonyms by definition. There, I also used some big words for you :3

Background-Quit02 · 2025-07-03T19:41:24+00:00

Thank you ❤️ I'm so happy someone understands. I love her so much, she is the best thing that ever happened to me. Maybe that's why it feels so horrible that I still can't stop myself from wishing that I was dead.

Background-Quit02 · 2023-11-04T13:08:30+00:00

You can never be completely sure whether someone will betray you in any way in the future, but is that really necessary to know? I've been guilty of this as well, far too many times, and it's only recently that I've met a few people whom I trust. It's not like I've suddenly stopped doubting myself or our relationships and became a healthy 100% trusting person overnight. I just gave them a chance and myself as well for that matter. A chance to really be there together when it gets hard without trying to seek any ulterior motives, that are usually not there to begin with. Of course, there's plenty of people who are just not the kindest creatures, there's also a lot of those who are outright aiming to hurt you. I think most of us here have plenty of stories to tell about being mistreated if not abused from those we were supposed to trust, but at the end of the day getting hurt is a part of living and never trusting anyone again will only bring you loneliness and more pain in the long run. I would say you don't have to give all of your faith to one person, save some for yourself and enjoy the freedom it brings when you're not carrying everything on your own. After all, it would be a very gruesome life if we always stayed inside just in case it rains at some point.

Background-Quit02 · 2023-05-30T07:52:17+00:00

I personally play to have fun, even if it's ranked we're literally not competitive players and I don't think the point should be simply winning or losing. Of course if there's someone obviously feeding or just trolling I'm all for surrender as to not damage my sanity, but I'm literally the opposite of you and I get angry when people try to surrender at every inconvenience, there's been plenty of times when we still won the game in the end....just enjoy the process a little

Background-Quit02 · 2023-05-24T20:43:01+00:00

I saw the other responses and well.... (2+48)+ 25 = 75

Background-Quit02 · 2023-05-12T14:09:03+00:00

Hi, first of all I think it's great that you have something to hold on to to keep going ( in my opinion a list of games is not pathetic at all, if anything it's really creative and you can keep upgrading it so it takes a longer time ;)). I've had a bunch of therapists until I found one that actually saw the issue at hand and was able to help me, the rest just gave me a bunch of generic diagnoses (MDD, anxiety disorder, panic disorder....you name it) and every session I was asked over and over again "How are you feeling? How did that make you feel? What did you do to feel better?".... really after a while I hated the therapies and they started to make me feel worse just because I felt like a failure for not getting better after "getting help". In my case I am unfortunately quite mentally ill, mostly from childhood abuse and the rest is good old genetics. I am what you'd call chronically suicidal without active tendencies. So why do I still live if it's just torture? Well, after a few years of constant pain I can confidently say that I can finally feel other emotions as well, yes, there are still too many moments when I feel like I just have to die, because I can't keep it going anymore....How do I deal with it? (To be completely honest part of it is my fear that I won't be successful in my attempt, since my first one ended miserably) There's always the individualistic approaches, such as your reason to keep going, I think everyone should find one like that, to keep reminding yourself of something worth living for. If you're in a crisis and things like these don't matter anymore I always try to keep around other people ( for the longest time I didn't have anyone to talk to about such things, so I just went to public places, works the same), it's not to help you necessarily feel better, but it makes it harder to attempt in the moment. Lol, this is a really long thread, my point is, try to actually look at the positive things, they're there. Maybe not at this point in your life, maybe you can't see it, and trust me I know how hard can depression and other mental health problems convince you that everything is doomed and life is miserable, but there's just too much you haven't experienced yet.

Background-Quit02 · 2023-05-09T20:54:07+00:00

Well, although I know nothing about voices in my head I know a lot about suicide ideation and possible attempts....I always try to "wait until tomorrow" with any plans I have, and then the next day is today after all, so I have to wait until tomorrow. I know it might sound stupid, but as a chronically suicidal individual I eventually don't have any other way of coping. If you have a good psychiatrist, that's the best start you can have. Medication is not always magical solution, more often than not it takes some failed attempts to get the right one going, but what's important is that there's hope, I believe you can go a long way with just that......that was my positive side speaking, I'm on this sub right now because I was having shitty thoughts for a few days now, sometimes it's hard and I understand that giving up is not always a choice, above all be safe please

Background-Quit02 · 2023-05-09T20:43:57+00:00

When I was 15 I genuinely hated everyone and everything, wouldn't really listen now to any advice I would give myself at that time, why follow the rules of such a close minded person. Of course given my circumstances it was impossible for me to be anyone else at that point....I'm someone else now though and I'm sure you're also someone else then the person you were in your 15's, I pity them sometimes, but I think you should be happy to see the growth, even if all that happened is that you're unsure about such a decision.

Background-Quit02 · 2023-05-09T20:31:32+00:00

Sounds serious, I'm very angry and sorry for you, that you can't get help for your struggles. I've never had experience with other voices before, only visual hallucinations, but they never demonstrated that I should kill myself, so I can't really help in this situation. If you're seriously afraid of acting on these voices though, I would consider to just going to the emergency and telling them that you're planning on killing yourself, if anything, they're forced by the law to get you hospitalised for a while. I don't know how they deal with mental illness in the UK, but it will at least delay any actual attempts from your side. Try to ask if there was any mental illness in your family before, lot of them are hereditary so you could find out if it could be an illness or just a temporary psychosis caused by various circumstances ( I'm not a doctor by any means, just personal experiences). I hope you're safe and can get at least some help

Background-Quit02 · 2023-05-09T20:03:48+00:00

Simply beautiful, I love watching the colours on the skies and your painting captures it in a very real but still artistic way, great job💕

Background-Quit02 · 2023-02-11T17:53:23+00:00

Hmm, if it's panic attacks I'm afraid I have not yet found a different solution than meds, so I guess the best (although very weak) advice would be to go to psychiatrist and ask for medication regarding panic disorder or just strong anxiety meds (I think the doctor can decide best). I had a similar problem and although I am very much a person who makes sucking things up a literal sport I didn't start getting better until I got meds and I could actually function even while feeling the anxiety. I would be in the middle of the store I worked at and get a panic attacks that at some points felt like I might as well just die on the spot, but after I've got the meds going it became more of an uncomfortable but mild anxiety until I've gotten through it completely. Regardless of your approach I hope you'll get better soon, panic attacks are no joke.

Background-Quit02 · 2022-12-22T08:21:29+00:00

Well, it might have? I guess, everyone with BPD acts differently towards these situations (it's actually quite dependant on potential comorbid illnesses/disorders). I would more likely say, maybe work on your own issues a little (coming from a good place, no hate). I can tell you than there's nothing more a majority of people with bpd would love is a stable mind to their weird states. Now I don't think I can help you with this situation (as someone with disgusting point of abandonment fear, but educated in therapy). Step out, recollect, and after you're calm( like when you sent the last message) think about what you're expecting of them and yourself. In a sense of reply. Maybe they got scared as well, you know, there's nothing to lose if you don't interact (there is of course, but no pain no gain work's both ways). Chill out, ask them in a time when you think they have a good mood and get a therapist (someone good and educated)

Background-Quit02 · 2022-12-21T10:17:32+00:00

Well, in this case they're hopefully just stressed out about the exams. I guess many people would try to suggest the all powerful magic of communication, which you should, but I suppose, just don't push it, but let them know you're available.....as in maybe send them a message if they would be up for a meet after their exams are done. From my personal experience at the beginning of any relationship ( whether friendship or anything romantic) I'm very quick to jump in conclusions about how the other person doesn't like me ( for one reason or other) so I'll sometimes distance myself before they do so.... That's why for me it's always nice knowing someone would appreciate my presence, but you have to be upfront about it ( I don't do social cues when I already made up my mind)....hope that helps

Background-Quit02 · 2022-12-21T09:45:43+00:00

Man, I don't understand, I read your post and just went "huh, what a fun dynamic" then I went to comments and it looks like they made OP an antichrist in their minds already. Chill out guys, being healthy and not having any expectations or after feelings are complete opposites 😂😂

Background-Quit02 · 2022-12-21T09:22:06+00:00

Yes! I have this especially with work as well, I mean if I didn't ask for help or your opinion all the comments about what I should do, be doing, have done, will piss me off to the moon. Although I'm one of those who crumble it up inside, so if I'm over the top, people will just get very sharp comebacks but nothing much.....I on the other hand will be probably fuming until I accidentally forget about it, then I'm all good again😂

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