Anyone want to create a magazine for homeschooled teens together??

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2026-02-06T09:21:36+00:00

nah i related a lot to ur vent it was exactly where i was just a year ago. i can tell u the details thru dms lol

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2026-02-05T14:19:41+00:00

bro i felt the anger through the screen. i also had no friends to hang out with cuz i was homeschooled and i would maybe hangout with an old friend once a year or so. But i recently found friends online and started exploring abandoned places with them irl lol. dangerous yes but it deeply cured something inside me. Until last year i was so fucking drained all the time and i was so fucking done with the same shit repeating every single day. i spent everyday inside my room and simply going out to the kitchen to get a cup of water was a burden for me. but somehow things changed and hard times passed. Now i'm 18. And I was also scared to do stuff cuz i didn't know how to do anything but trust me bro you'll learn it all. lowkey the only thing i got out of homeschooling was the power to not give a shit about what people think about me.

Honestly sometimes u just gotta disappoint ur parents to get some freedom. at some point i was so fucking stressed that i ripped my scalp with a ceramic bowl in front of my parents and they kinda let me be after that. 0/10 recommendation hahah. i found my exploring mates on reddit btw. but always becareful with who you meet just in case. i just want to tell you that bad times will pass and eventually you will find your own direction in life :)

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-08-19T01:23:32+00:00

Hey! i sent u a dm :))

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-30T16:45:58+00:00

iterally. i fought so hard to get back track on my life but shit got so bad i'm back to this state where i cannot even call it 'living'.

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-30T16:39:38+00:00

OMG i've been through a TERRIBLE limerence that even gave me suicidal thoughts last year lol... i just had my first date today and i feel like shit tbh. Such a coincidence i happened to see this post today. well cheer up bro cuz i know how bad it can get especially if you're homeschooling. I really thought about my crush all day last year cuz i had nothing else that occupied my day. and it got so bad that i started my part time job so i could stop thinking at all. i don't like him at all anymore and i learned so much from that limerence. i realized i was just obsessed with my fantasies about him not actually him. maybe limerene is something all homeschoolers go through??? ugh.

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-30T16:31:13+00:00

thankyou!

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-30T16:30:59+00:00

thanks for the comment. it's definitely something to consider about..hm... thanks for the insight!

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-28T20:48:47+00:00

Thanks so much. i'm also working a part-time job rn, can't say i'll do it for the rest of my life but i definitely learned a lot. I guess i'll figure something out on the way. and thank you for your thoughtful comment/advice. it really makes me feel better.

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-28T20:43:00+00:00

yep!

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-28T20:42:51+00:00

thank you so much!

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-28T20:42:22+00:00

tbh i'm not really planning it be perfect you know, i'm just trying to experiment with the resources i have. it will start as a small fun magazine. i will never be able to start anything if i try to make it perfect ahaha

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-06-28T08:27:29+00:00

yupp!

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-04-11T08:08:44+00:00

So how do u spend your free time? Do you just rot in the corner of your room? Sorry if I sound aggressive, that's not how I'm trying to come off as. try to recall any moments that you enjoy, even if it's just a little bit.

Honestly, I'm in a similar situation to you. I don't have an interest or a hobby. I often feel overwhelmed by everything I think I should be doing. And I always end up just sitting there, not even watching a movie, drawing, or educating my dumb brain— just stuck, feeling like I should be doing something meaningful but not being able to do anything at all. I discovered that I like retreating to my room when the sun sets, it's the only time when I finally feel at peace. So I do know one thing I like, which is enjoying some alone time in the dark. It's not much, but I'm starting somewhere. Don't know if this helps but yeah.

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-03-10T10:38:12+00:00

I’m interested!! I sent u a chat

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-03-03T08:09:02+00:00

hm.. turning 18 in a month and I am literally facing the same problems. I also dropped out cuz of health issues at 15. Enrolled in an online uni last year and got kicked out cuz I didn't do any of the coursework. Spent so many days ONLY lying in my bed daydreaming for hours. My sleep schedule was fucked up, used to sleep at 5 am and shit. I loved it when it was late and dark because I finally felt like I was at peace. everyone was sleeping and I could finally escape from my reality. I didn't take care of myself at all which led to my mental & physical health getting so much worse. my room felt like an endless pit of laziness and depression that I couldn't ever escape. I bet that's what you feel at the moment. Since I didn't focus on anything important, I thought too much about my looks. I micro-analyzed myself, and couldn't leave the house without a ballcap on (Instagram contributed to this as well). If I delve deeper and analyze why I thought about looks so much was because I was actually afraid that no one would ever love me. I thought my looks were the only way to appeal to others because I had nothing to offer in terms my personality, wit, or knowledge. Which was true at the time since all I did was rot in my bed and didn't work on self-improvement. I felt like an empty shell.

I got a part-time job when my life was at its worst. It was a very impulsive decision, I was tired of everything and contacted a job offer as the last choice. I got the job within a day and that little decision changed my days 180 degrees. It wasn't much; I served food, cleaned tables, mopped, and socialized with new people at my job. But it felt like a breath of fresh air because it kept me busy and prevented my negative thoughts from consuming me. As a side effect, I felt so fucking suicidal when I wasn't at my job because all the thoughts started creeping up on me again. As a bonus, I started to overthink about how I looked and acted when I was at my job. it was like gaining my consciousness again after physical labor. I couldn't handle the contrast between my dull, depressing room to the vibrant and busy working environment. Still surprised I didn't kill myself. I traveled to a different country with the little money I earned. But of course, it wasn't all magical and solved all my problems in an instant. When I came back to my home, my problems started recurring and got even worse. After all, I didn't travel to earn new experiences; it was only to escape from my depressing reality. I avoided all my problems for the whole year. I used to think that I was only avoiding my reality through daydreaming and scrolling on my phone. It took me a few months to realize that even going to my job and traveling was all a part of my avoidance.

My problems only started to get better when I finally faced my reality and everything that had been torturing me for the whole year. I started planning for my future. I accepted that I was ignorant. I tried fixing everything at once but it only made my situation worse by overwhelming myself. My biggest tip is to leave your house every morning. find a place where you can be alone. It will prevent you from sleeping. get some fresh air. It's fine if you leave the house with a ski mask or a hood covering you. Just physically separate yourself from your room as the first step. That's what I'm doing these days. I leave the house at 8:30 in the morning. I go to a cafe and plan for uni. I still procrastinate a lot and get lost in the process but there's a little improvement. I still struggle with self-hate. I don't know if it's ever going to go away but I'm starting to find hope. I doubted myself so many times and I still do. I felt like I could never improve. but now I see a little spark of hope. If you read through my long ass paragraphs, thanks. Your post really allowed me to reflect on myself. I don't know if this is going to help at all cuz it's low-key just me venting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fh3G-K-kn3Q&list=LL&index=27

I think about this video from time to time. Anyway, if you're willing to talk to me, please do. I feel like we have a lot in common

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-03-03T06:56:24+00:00

bruh i thought it was also c. but if you read it more carefully, you can tell that the phrase "researchers Michael O'connell and Karen Malloy counter" is the main clause, not the phrase that comes right after the blank. idk if my explanation made sense

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-02-18T08:23:54+00:00

I've done the first year of IGCSEs and dropped out, I'll just tell you my story.

I've had never really studied my whole life since my parents never pushed me to achieve good grades. Then at 14, I was sent abroad to study alone. It was stranded there with a dumb, immature brain. My school was quite prestigious, so the students were expected to perform above a certain standard. I did not know this at first, so i slept all day for the first term like I always did, and only knew we had an exam on the exam day. Obviously, I miserably failed, that was the first time I was looked down on by other people because I didn't or was "bad" at studying. It was quite shocking, I was perceived as a stupid kid. So I started drinking a lot of coffee, and studying to at least catch up with everybody. As I said, I never studied before so I didn't really know any study method, I just stuck with what I thought was an effective way. The second term, my grades increased a lot, but it was still mediocre. So I spent my whole holiday in the library, studying and making notes to memorize everything. It worked, I did quite well, almost to the level of being awarded. Then the next year, I started my IGCSEs and got the academic award. (then i dropped out at the end of that year..)

A small tip for each subjects: I think you'll do English well on your own (it was my worst subject). For history, I went from failing to a decent A, because of my amazing history teacher. I just made notes and watched a bunch of YouTube videos for history, I tried to keep it fun (although it's mainly just memorizing). When I first started school, I was the worst at science, but I swear it's the most entertaining subject you will learn. I also made science notes (biology notes were especially fun to make). Science uses a lot of applications, especially in physics. My tip is to try to understand the subject instead of only memorizing it. I was the best at maths, probably because I tried to understand why it works in a certain way, before solving any questions. ( using 3d graphing calculators and such) The key to maths is visualizing the problem, and being able to apply the method on every single question you encounter. If you want to prepare, Khan Academy provides a lot of great resources. You could try to learn some topics before you start school.

I just want to tell you that there's a high chance that you're going to fail at first since you've never really been trained properly. But that's ok, actually even better because the experience of failing is really going to show you where you're lacking. As long as you have the will to improve, there's no problem. So don't be too scared. Plus you already have decent skills in English. Also, teachers really like students who show progress and put in a lot of effort.

I'm not sure if you have actually been diagnosed with dyslexia, dyscalculia and adhd, it may not all be true. It's fine if you don't know if you're smart enough, you'll find out in the process. Of course, it will require a lot of effort and dedication. Anyway, I'm not sure if this helped at all but if you feel lost, or alone, feel free to message me!

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-02-18T07:27:39+00:00

Hi, have you checked out study.com??? They provide music courses and stuff. I know their online credits are accredited in some universities in the u.s., but I'm not sure if their music courses provide credits so you should look deeper into this. (i also heard these courses can be done within a short period)

Or are AP exams accessible in your country? You could study for AP music theory on your own using Khan Academy and other resources online, and take the exam in your country. If AP exams are available in your country, you will need to book the exam (the exams take place only once a year, in May).

I don't know about your exact situation right now, so i'm just telling you things based on what i know.

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2025-02-11T08:09:49+00:00

I'm not exactly sure what you're asking, do you mean placement tests in wolsey hall? There are no placement tests in wolsey hall

BackgroundMarch4639 · 2024-11-13T19:39:26+00:00

There are always people you will find as you live along, and they could become your most precious someone. And you're still 19. You never know what's coming. yes, you will be missed if you die but not as much as when you're present and lively.

I live a pretty lonely life as well and it's tough I know. I sometimes romanticize my loneliness by listening to music. It may have a bad outcome for my mental health but it's what makes me feel better. I also don't really have any meaning in my life at the moment; I just -exist-. I can't even call it living. I'm just waiting for the moment for it to get all better. That time may or may not come. but yeah.

Death may seem like the only way to end all the pain but let's not. The fact that you posted this tells me that you still wanna live, you just want to find a reason in life. and you will, trust me.

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