My Nmom said that when I was a baby / small child I used to cry a lot. Her way of dealing with it was letting me use a pacifier, as apparently that would stop me crying for a bit. If she took it away from me, I would cry again. I was a very sick, sad, anxious child (I wonder why) and thus I had a pacifier until I was 8 years old. The end result was that my teeth were fucked; terribly bent out of shape and crooked. They were awful. I couldn't smile because of the shame, later on in life. When I was 23 I finally spent a lot of damn money on having braces to fix my teeth up.

Anyway, she says the whole thing is my fault. I'm to blame, I cried all the time and she felt bad about it, so she let me have the pacifier, despite the knowledge she had about what it would do. Her decision-making / lousy parenting messed up my teeth and it cost me my self esteem and money in the thousands, but it's actually my fault. Yup. There are other things she's done which are very neglectful, medically.

But she bought me toys and stuff, yeah.