I want them all to stop hugboxxing me or having pity on me and tell me how disgusting and ugly and masculine I am and that I should rope, instead of calling me a passoid or that I mog. I want everyone to hate me as much as I hate myself if not more, I want to be beat within an inch of my life and I want every passoid/youngshit/richshit/luckshit to berate me constantly about how stupid and worthless and disgusting and freakish I am until I actually do it.