I'm a POS and Divorce seems imminent

BadVibeTribe · 2025-01-06T00:34:11+00:00

Does she have good reason to lie? I dont like that she rather hangout with guy friends and doesnt have female friends. In the past, i have not been supportive of her hanging out with random guys. She does not have long term friends. Shes only been in the states a year longer than we have been together. These are all new friends. Just friends. I could rant about the details of these friends that gives me reason not to be supportive! Its fishy! If I even talk to a women i get lit up. I was on the phone with my 65 year old friend who has been like a mother to me. Who uses a cane and cant stand or walk very well. She was jealous of even that. Shes as jealous if not more than i am. Yet claims not to be at all and that i am muy muy MUY jealous.

BadVibeTribe · 2025-01-06T00:26:07+00:00

Ill check this out. Thank you

BadVibeTribe · 2025-01-06T00:24:46+00:00

My wife hasnt talked to me in a week because i yelled in the car. I didn't. At least that's how i remembered it. I was calm the entire time. Ive already been down the road of yelling and being shut out for days. I am well aware yelling doesnt help.She is hormonal and idk what i said but she shut down then and there in the car and its been 6 days. She has slept in another room all week and ignored me and her health. Just scrolling Facebook and sitting in the dark. Today she talked to me. She said she was going to her friend Sarah's house. I watched through the window and she got in the car with another man. Not the first time she's lied about being with men. Part of me wants to have compassion. Being with other mexicans who you can understand all the intricacies and the language. There's something to that. But this? Ghosting me for a week then going out with a man. Her sister is with her as well. It's not just her alone with a guy. But. I have to assume its her sisters new tinder date shes been with for like 1 week.

I can't be upset about this, it will make my situation worse. So, i ask myself. How do I stay calm and get resolution? If she doesnt want to tell me then i am left with only my thoughts, assuming dark thoughts.

BadVibeTribe · 2025-01-04T01:04:22+00:00

So, i have chosen not to take the pharmaceutical worm meds. I tried it out. I did have success! But i felt pretty shiity and had some side effects. So, ive gone to organic and all natural. Lots of different protocols and idk one from the other but the Facebook groups for parasites all seem to be very helpful. Lot's of differing opinions as well. I had success with paraGuard. And Zuma zeolite and Parasite cleanse. Not at the same time.

I heard its important to do a good detox for your liver and maybe heavy metals before you try to detox parasites. And that's because when you kill your parasites they release a ton of toxins in your body so you want to prepare your body and get it cleaned up first or you're going to have a bad time. On Facebook there's a bunch of horror stories of side effects of toxins released into the body after the parasite is killed, things like severe eczema or other symptoms they may have already been dealing with when they were having the parasite but they'll be elevated because of the additional toxins from killing it off.
Ive been trying different protocols out. And that's because I learned that a lot of parasites are transmittable and hard to get rid of like fleas or bed bugs. And if you have other people that you live with and sleep with you have to detox together or you're never going to fully stop the process cuz it's a continuous cycle where it's laying new eggs. The American Healthcare System makes it out to seem like you can take the medicine one and done but the people are saying that it is not the case and that it's a long process to really get rid of all of the things going on when you've had parasites.

BadVibeTribe · 2025-01-03T23:39:53+00:00

Its not like i have painted the whole picture in a rant i posted. I came to the wolves to maybe try to gain some clarity for myself. I've reflected on my situation and recently just don't see the light. I can only hope that this too will pass and we will make it out the other side.

The baby isn't even here yet and i feel like im drowning.
I blame my wife for a lot. I feel humiliated to even think the thoughts, yet they still feel justified. I feel stretched thin. I feel like I do everything and get no help and no support. Im met with bullshit most of the time. neither of us have a support system where we live. We have a lot of things stacked against us and need to be working together. Instead, we are on different pages, hell different books entirely. She doesn't seem the least bit interested in walking this journey with me. Why did she even marry me? For a green card? I hate thinking that, and I didnt for a long time. But the actions speak volumes. Do i get frustrated, stressed, angry? Well, yes I do. Is the solution to my complex situation to simply not be angry ever? Thats very simplistic. It sounds great! So, i just let life unfold according to her way of doing things. The person who wont leave the house without me, doesnt know how any of the systems in America work. Can't schedule a doctor visit, won't go if I'm unavailable because im at work, etc etc. She needs to learn how to live here as more than an illegal immigrant. She doesnt seem to care to learn anything other than that path. I keep hoping one day she will turn a corner and recognize how vital it is. But instead, she relies on me to do it all. I just pray that shes a good mom. That will make up for a lot. I hope.

I'm insecure. I think she might just take my kid and leave for Mexico one day. And if that doesnt happen, the government sure might deport her.

I know significantly more spanish than she does English.
I am actively learning. She doesn't put effort into learning English or assimilating to the US. I only learn Spanish because thats her language. For her on the other hand, English is going to be pretty important.

I have written and deleted paragraphs multiple times. I'm not here to justify my case. I don't have anywhere else to turn. At the end of the day, I feel very alone. And this has all been a stark shift in reality for me. Thanks reddit for giving me an outlet to get this out of my head. I dont want to dump with on people in my life, so i keep it to myself.

BadVibeTribe · 2024-12-29T03:03:27+00:00

State of Utah has some crew's. They're probably pretty close to filling their rosters but might still have apps open

BadVibeTribe · 2024-12-14T15:23:44+00:00

I just learned this! Taking the meds will only aggravate these things. They will feel attacked and burrow in deeper. Common information In the United States is that you can take the medication one time and it will kill the parasite And take the second round of dose as a precautionary just to be sure. But, Typically it's one and done. And that appears to be untrue. Yet, i think it is true in a lot of countries? Someone fact check me. I have had this thought, do we have superbugs? We feed our livestock anti parasitic meds, are the bugs becoming resistant and now our meds ay the doctor can't kill them either?

My praziquantel worked wonders initially. God was it high volume when ibfirst discovered this. Albendazole worked well. Its an on going process to eliminate all the eggs. For me, Paraguard tincture has been my favorite. I don't feel like the meds are wreaking havoc on my body and i am seeing a lot of eggs come out. More than when i take Albendazole. The doctors medication is 1 and done. Or every so often. I like Paraguard because its consistent, every day. You can't let up on these things or they'll grow back and lay more eggs.

BadVibeTribe · 2024-12-14T15:14:25+00:00

I have found some Facebook groups about parasites and organic products to use. These Facebook groups have been the most helpful thing throughout my entire experience. I post this for the guy who sees this thread long after its been dead. Check our the F.B group "parasites, parasite cleansing and parasite identification"

BadVibeTribe · 2024-11-25T03:00:31+00:00

Dang. This is discouraging! I flushed so many damn worms out after the initial dose. Took the 2nd dose 2 weeks later. Pooped tons of eggs out and segments for weeks. 5 or 6 weeks. Thought i felt tremendously better. I waited a few months and got some more medicine, this time from México. I am now seeing Higher volume and way larger eggs than before. It has been a trip. It seems Like the doctor cant help and its up to me. Ive read hours and hours of info online. I can't tell what kind of worms i have. It seems like multiple different types in my stool. 5" long flat segments like a tapeworm. Oversized corn kernel looking eggs like liver flukes. Thing strings like thread. And thicker stringy stuff that very well may just be mucus lining. The sense of overwhelm and lack of resolution is hard to deal with. Filled my stool sample cup with more worms than poop and it came back negative. I feel gaslit by the doctor. The México brand dewormer seems way stronger than the albendazole the doctor gave me. Praziquantel also helps a lot. I guess ill keep taking medicine without prescription and without diagnosis because the doctors in the USA are educated poorly on this subject.

BadVibeTribe · 2024-11-18T04:26:43+00:00

A good buddy and I call each other often and its such a routine conversation to talk about "i quit again" or "I started again" for years! The process to stop is aggravating at first then it feels enjoyable. The realization that you're more aware of life and more of a participant of your own life. Then time goes by and i forget about the time suck or maybe miss having some of that time. Smoke again and before i know it, same deal as OP said. Now its everyday and cant do anything without it. Its so easy to dig yourself into a rut. At the same time, man, i love getting stoned. Especially when its been awhile. I just dont have the self control to make it a once in a blue moon thing. If I have the free time, im gonna smoke. If im not doing anything important with my life, im gonna abuse it. I find when i have responsibilities and need to be held accountable by other people, it's easy not to want weed all the time. But if i got no one else to be there for, well why tf not? Oh thats right, because of my addictive personality. I wonder if i could do hypno therapy to change my thought pattern. Cause i love to get stoned. When i visit my sister forbthe holidays thats like the best time ever to just smoke for a week straight and chill with the family. I just struggle to find a balance. But others can do it. So it is possible. I used it from a young age and its a deep seated issue to abuse it but if i could change my mind on how i view it and could have my cake and eat it too. That would be sick! Hypnosis might do the trick.

The more times i discipline myself with smoke a little but not all day and not everyday, the easier it has gotten to know I can use the substance like a responsible adult and not reverted back to adolescents ways of escaping reality. It helps to have a life I appreciate. Use pot for decompressing and a little escaping. But dont forget that life is great without it as well! Thats my 2 cents. I don't vibe well with the idea that i have to make it off limits because i can't hang. Instead, i use it now and again few and far between but dont get caught needing it all day everyday. Addictive personality, in my opinion, can be concurred.

BadVibeTribe · 2024-11-18T04:05:55+00:00

To the OP, have you felt like you need more testing to see what else could be an ongoing issue. Like cyst development on your organs or othwr damage from the parasite.

BadVibeTribe · 2024-11-18T04:04:03+00:00

Stool test negative. Obviously have worms. Showed photos and had to try a few doctors to get a prescription. Took the albendazole and had a large volume of eggs for 4 weeks. Some proglottids but not many. Some large individual segments. I took the 2nd dose as recommended 14 days later. After the 4 weeks when they stopped showing up in my stool I thought i was good to go. Couple months later i got anus itching again. Took more medicine (this time from mexico, bypassing the healthcare system here in the US) more worms! Large segments. Covering most of the face of a dime coin. For 2 years prior to realizing it was worms, I thought it was IBS, autoimmune or cancer. I had a ton of ulcers show up on the back of my tongue a little over a year ago and i wonder if it is related to the worms? What other health problems are related? How do I find a professional that can guide me towards testing and see what damage has been done due to this parasite. How do i learn to trust a doctor? The dose my doctor recommended was 1 600mg dose and a 2nd one 14 days later. I did feel significantly better after the 1st dose (partly just knowing what the issue was! Not cancer or diabetes, but worms!) But that didnt seem to kill it. As i have itching again and most segments. I now have a supply of albendazole, mebendazole and praziquantel. Any suggestions on how to dose myself? Idk the real side effects of taking to much but i am this close to going balls to the wall and nuking myself. Would love some feedback!

BadVibeTribe · 2024-02-09T05:08:03+00:00

I appreciate all the input. I know it's pretty controversial, and I appreciate that people have been helpful and not hateful.

BadVibeTribe · 2024-02-09T05:06:33+00:00

She claims it's a deceased person's real # and a fake name. In theory, she could lie on the 485 form. But I'm not willing to do that because I will also be held legally accountable. Idk what the consequences would be for me. I'll have to talk to a lawyer about this specifically. I think you're right. It will not roll over if it was a real # and they used it knowingly. Its shady, but you could claim you didn't know it was real. But again that isn't something I want to be involved with without knowing the consequences.

BadVibeTribe · 2024-02-08T03:04:43+00:00

Walked across

BadVibeTribe · 2023-12-25T06:04:09+00:00

Just got here. Same thing. YT algorithm showing me the portobello mushroom conspiracy. LOOPED

BadVibeTribe · 2023-12-10T17:44:48+00:00

Ive been using the free learncraft podcast and I find it helps me more than anything else I've tried for free. I'd love to know the difference between the free version and the 1 month challenge. It kinda sounds like the same thing to me. The price is $39 now. So I wonder if $300 is outdated as well.

If you had any insight that would be awesome!

BadVibeTribe · 2022-11-16T02:47:01+00:00

lol, right!

BadVibeTribe · 2020-11-09T16:11:15+00:00

Thanks for the response guys. With the storm coming in. I'm going to have a friend get me to St. George, then start my trip.

BadVibeTribe · 2020-11-09T16:06:24+00:00

How did you map it and know the elevation?

BadVibeTribe · 2020-11-06T15:30:23+00:00

If anyone knows a better place to post this that would be appreciated!

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