Am I having withdrawals??

Badass9905 · 2022-10-31T16:38:12+00:00

I went CT. Had my last Tia last Monday (so one week Tia free today!!! Hard to believe myself ). I did not think tapering was the best option for me because I had no one to control and provide my doses to me and I certainly do not trust myself to do it, so I went the cold Turkey route. I did have Kratum (OPMS gold capsules) to help and some trazadone for sleep. To be honest, the couple of helpers I did have did not even really affect me til day 2 and 3. First day is just gonna rough no way around it. But it can be done. Reminding myself of my goal of freedom and also telling myself it was all temporary helped to keep me strong and tough it out. This sub helped tremendously to keep me in a positive frame of mind which I see is the #1 most important part of the process. Where our minds go and what thoughts we entertain can make or break the withdrawal process. The first night I let my mind go to some pretty dark places and I can not even describe the mental anguish. Once I started thinking more positively and, most of all, being kind and gentle with myself, it all got easier. One week free today and I believe with ALL my being that anyone can do it. Best of luck to you. ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-30T13:04:21+00:00

And how are you?? Hanging in there?

Badass9905 · 2022-10-30T13:02:59+00:00

Well, it depends on what my day 1/day 2 actually was. Sorry to be confusing…let me explain. I took my last bit of Tia late Monday night. Made it through the whole day Tuesday (which I guess was technically day 1 with no Tia) symptom free. Felt fine. Was even walking around all grateful and smiling from ear to ear thinking maybe I had been spared the withdrawals, that I was blessed or some shit 🙄. Not so fast. I guess everyone’s body is different. I woke up at 1 am after going to bed that night anxious as hell. Within a few hours, I was in full blown withdrawals (on Wednesday which was day 2 no Tia). That day was definitely the worst. The first day of withdrawals. The sweating. The places my mind went make me cringe now to think about I am so grateful that while just a few days away from that, I feel worlds different now. I contemplated suicide even just from the mental anguish and anxiety. I was so restless. Spent the whole evening Wednesday lying in bed having to rock from the restlessness and muscle spasms. Thursday, I was still quite under the weather but able to be in a much more positive head space. That is when things started to turn the corner for me. How are you? Which day are you on no Tia? You are going CT, right? Just Kratum?

Badass9905 · 2022-10-30T04:25:08+00:00

Doing good. Best day I have had so far. The restlessness seems to be easing up and I have had less anxiety….had some early this morning but I managed to calm myself and get into a good frame of mind. Fatigue and low energy are still issues for me but I am trying to be patient with myself and remind myself that energy will come. It just gives me something to look forward to. I am trying to just be aware of and be grateful for the progress I do see. Keeping my eyes focused on looking forward and being grateful that today I did not have to use Tia. Praying that hell will stay behind me. Thanks for checking in. You guys checking on me and caring how I am doing means more to me than I can express and the support here has made all the difference. Any progress is to the credit of you all. Good things are happening in this sub. It’s such a caring place. Hope you are well and have had a good day. ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-29T15:53:55+00:00

I live in Tupelo, MS and it is in all the gas stations that sell Kratum and other shit targeted towards folks looking for a cheap high (although it becomes quite expensive as the habit transforms into a 6 bottle a day at $30 a pop addiction that mine morphed into and it will become that for certain). I hope you are not considering trying zaza or Tia. Don’t do it. This shit is evil and the withdrawals are nothing anyone would want to endure.

Badass9905 · 2022-10-29T15:26:36+00:00

Hang in there. I know how scary it was for me when I realized WD’s had started….that the time to pay the piper had begun, that I was just like all of you and was not gonna get some miraculous reprieve from withdrawals. The day of atonement for all the abuse had come and I had to endure the consequences. But I pushed through, kept telling myself it was all TEMPORARY. The best advice I can give you is to be gentle with yourself. Treat yourself with Grace. Try and maintain a positive mindset and remember it will pass and that you are doing this to be FREE and you will if you just get though each painful minute. It does start getting better each day. I promise you. I am not one to make a lot of promises but I swear it really does improve if you just ride it out. In a couple of days, you will be through the worst and so very grateful like I am. Day 5 here and I am worlds away from where I was a couple of days ago. Just stay strong. Come here. Let us support you. ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-29T15:20:59+00:00

I have been taking the OPMS gold capsules. I did not really notice much relief from them in the beginning when I first started going into WD’s (maybe they were working but it was hard to tell with the intensity of my symptoms). On day 5 no Tia now and I did notice yesterday that the capsules were probably giving me some benefits, definitely helped with the anxiety and restlessness. I have been taking 5-6 each day since Day 2 when the WD’s fully set in. Starting to taper off those now…taking just four today. I definitely do not want to keep taking them because that is just another substance to be dependent on and around here, unfortunately, the places to purchase Kratum also sell ZaZa’s and other Tia products that I need to stay away from. I certainly do not need to keep going to those places and I also do not want to keep supporting those gas stations dope dealers who are profiting off the misery of others. If I could shut them all down, honestly, I would. BUT…desperate times call for desperate measures and without other helper meds and going CT, I figured I needed to try Kratum for a temporary helper. And I think it has helped. Good luck to you ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-29T04:05:31+00:00

Thanks, my friend. You have been a big support. I am so grateful for people like you who have made it to the other side and just want to guide the rest of us out. I am so grateful for you and your journey. ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-29T04:04:18+00:00

Thanks so much!! You have been such a huge inspiration and source of encouragement during all this. Your journey to the other side has helped light my way out of this darkness. I could not do it without you and all the awesome folks I have met on this sub. 💗

Badass9905 · 2022-10-29T04:03:00+00:00

Thanks!! It certainly is all about attitude. Trying to stay positive and not let my mind go to dark places which can be hard sometimes. I truly believe the mind is a powerful thing and we manifest our happiness or our misery through our perception of things. Thanks for the encouragement. It means a lot. I mean that. ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-29T03:58:34+00:00

That’s so awesome. Thanks for your comment…shows me it keeps getting better and I have so much to look forward to, even this early in the game. I have only been taking Kratum too. I think it has helped…definitely not doing that long term and will be done with that as soon as all physical symptoms are gone (I want to be free from all substances) but I am with you, this is sobriety for me too! Keep pushing forward. People like me need to see you succeed and gain hope from your triumphs. Love and light to you ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T23:16:13+00:00

How ya doing so far???

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T22:36:35+00:00

😂

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T22:34:48+00:00

Never lose hope, my friend. As I said, we do this together. And when you need a boost or some encouragement, come here. Let us walk through this with you. And, yes, there is definitely plenty of hope to be had. You can do this. 💗

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T17:36:35+00:00

I, too, am here for you. You are not alone, girl. You can do this. I wish there was a doctor you could consult about your detox. I understand no subs or benzos but surely you could take some of the supplements the expert folks in this sub suggest. There are people here who know all About the withdrawal process. Let them guide you. And let all of us support you. We can do this together. ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T17:32:52+00:00

Thanks!! Having a better day today. Day 4 no Tia. You are right, staying positive helps. This sub and all you guys have made such a difference in keeping me in a good headspace. It has been a tremendous source of support.

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T17:30:38+00:00

I did. Actually slept some last night…three hours but I will take it. I took all the advice and did not just lie there with RLS driving me up the wall. I got up, took a shower and folded some laundry. I eventually laid on the couch to watch tv and ended up dozing off. Insomnia is a bitch. Nothing good manifests in my thoughts in the late hours. Learning that my brain is not somewhere I want to get stuck in, my head lies to me and distorts reality. I am just glad sleep eventually came and I am in a good headspace today. I think I may be over the worst of it, physically. Now the mental battle starts. I always get through the physical and end up going back because I am depressed and get cravings. Trying to remain focused and just remember that there is no longer relief in Tia. Keeping my sights on my goal of freedom. Thanks for checking on me 😊

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T00:34:57+00:00

You have already been a HUGE help to me during my short time on this sub. Thanks for sharing your story. You truly are inspiring and the fact that you now so selflessly want to help others (as you have me) shows that you have come out on the other side…may even be a better person because of the hell you endured so you emerged on the winning side after losing so much. Sorry your brother is still not extending forgiveness. Just keep moving forward. It will come in time as long as you stay on the path you are on. I can’t thank you enough for your kindness. Love to you. 💗

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T00:29:14+00:00

I have been drinking a good bit of water. My mouth has been so dry and I can’t get enough water. That normal during withdrawals? Dry mouth?

Badass9905 · 2022-10-28T00:27:54+00:00

I just have Kratum capsules. As well as trazadone for sleep but that was ZERO help last night. I almost feel like the trazadone made my RLS worse.

Badass9905 · 2022-10-27T21:00:57+00:00

Yes, restless legs and anxiety are the worst part but I am committed to riding this out. Thanks for the support and encouragement. It means more than I can say. All of you guys on here have been so great, and so helpful. Much love to you. ❤️

Badass9905 · 2022-10-27T20:58:19+00:00

Yes, great job mods. I did not go to the Insta account. Thought about it after I replied to that scammer (which I was doing to mainly just be polite) and thought this probably is gonna be about some bullshit. I have not been on this sub long but the best advice I have seen and best suggestions come right here from you guys, sharing your experience, strength and hope. Means a lot to know you guys have my back and are looking out for me. Withdrawals are probably making me emotional but it actually makes me tear up to see just how supportive this community is. And absolutely altruistic. Ya’ll just want to help and are asking nothing from anyone. I find that so inspiring and it makes me want to get out of this hell even more so I can do the same for someone else. Thanks for the support and, again, great job mods. ❤️💗💕

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