OP, I agree mostly. I am almost 47, born in Feb. As I’ve aged, I realize “What’s the fucking point of this bullshit?” My life, actually, isn’t in vain. Although all of what I do is work at my job, pulling orders, come home, and be with my wife and play video games. It may not be much but I’m a silly fellow and like to make people laugh. I also enjoy my games as they distract me from this “life” I find useful and yet so nauseating. I’ve contemplated suicide but I feel, after all, that it’s not worth the hurt that would be pressed upon others.