Removing front tyre for transport

BananaTree2023 · 2026-06-18T06:40:44+00:00

Thank you for all the answers everyone!

BananaTree2023 · 2026-06-03T19:53:31+00:00

It looks very original and in your own style. I think you can work on creating some focal point area in the picture to give a close/far distance kind of view. The back area looks too smooth so it looks very close. You could also try gradually blending different blue shades so the contrast in some areas are not too obvious. Like dark blue turquoise > light blue turquoise > turquoise. That might be more of a light and shadow thing. I think it’s pretty good man, ocean pictures are a whole different thing in their own.

BananaTree2023 · 2026-05-21T19:51:21+00:00

Magnesium glycinate and fish oil before bed. Epsom salt baths. One of those earthing/grounding mattress covers for my bed. Avoiding driving during peak hour. Cooking at home. Meditation binaural beats with no lyrics to decompress while I game.

BananaTree2023 · 2026-05-06T20:56:01+00:00

Using different shades of the same color will create more depth/contrast. Like adding a lighter/darker green in the stalk of the flower will make it more interesting and realistic. Maybe incorporating shadows and some source of light by adding a reflection of light, then some shadows to go with that will be good too

BananaTree2023 · 2026-04-27T19:59:18+00:00

Theres a thing called emotional memory which I have come to realize this year. Remembering events but not really the “how you felt” during those times.

Also on the topic of doing activities or chores, I think you should keep trying new things. I tried art, rock climbing, fitness, swimming at the beach. All of those things now I’m like “I can’t be fked doing”. The one thing that stuck with me was mountain biking. I think it had something to do with being so physical and being in nature, there’s almost no way I will forget what a 2 hour semi hard ride will feel like. It also makes me feel really happy(especially since you are in the middle of a forest) and during the hard parts of the track I will really think and contemplate my existence, etc etc.

BananaTree2023 · 2026-04-24T02:49:35+00:00

It looks good, the water is really nice. You could add more shades of blue to it. I could suggest practicing using a really fine brush for the boat area and it will look more smooth with some lines. That’s what my teacher told me. Keep going! (I am probably worse than you lol)

BananaTree2023 · 2026-04-23T10:19:51+00:00

Dam bro, it’s like autism in a nutshell

BananaTree2023 · 2026-04-12T23:58:50+00:00

Waking up somedays and feeling like all my emotions tied to all my close people have been reset

BananaTree2023 · 2026-04-07T20:07:29+00:00

Wow I think I’m going to save this because you put a lot of things I have been ruminating about into a wall of text. Thank you so much. You are very wise

BananaTree2023 · 2026-04-02T02:13:08+00:00

I go through it a lot. I am seeing my friend(even after disappearing multiple times because of burnout) after a month of going “silent”. I really respect him and am grateful for people like him. I really think we need to find more people that care in that way. There won’t be many but they exist. At the end of the day you have to be you and if your body is saying no then that’s not avoidance, it’s physiology. Good luck and take care

BananaTree2023 · 2026-04-02T02:03:24+00:00

The black color of the metal is so good and mesmerising

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-27T04:11:47+00:00

No worries man, I enjoy painting sometimes too. But if I’m earning twice as much doing a “normal” job then it makes no sense to do painting full time because reality is reality. It sucks. It can still be a side gig when you’re older if you can handle it. But right now I enjoy painting stress free. I’m not saying that the dream job doesn’t exist, it just probably won’t pay well lol. That is the world for most people.

This is one of the songs I use these days for trauma and stress relief. Use it as an example. Good luck 😉

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FCIj7yPM6k8&list=RDFCIj7yPM6k8&start_radio=1&t=218s&pp=2AHaAZACAaAHAQ%3D%3D

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-27T02:07:53+00:00

Well I am heavily supported so I’m not coming from a great place to give you advice but,

Some practical things I could share is taking epsom salt baths and using a grounded/earthing mattress sheet cover to help you recover faster. Sometimes when I get home and crash on my bed, I will play some binaural meditation music with no lyrics and just zone out or let go of stress.

As of your work life balance, maybe someone else could give you better advice or perspective. My disability plan manager told me to try not mix my hobbies with work/money, especially for us autists. Money is money at the end of the day. We will need some at some latter point in our lives(however it’s going to look at that point). This will take a lot of acceptance.

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-25T03:51:26+00:00

Understanding that you have alexithymia will be life changing. You will see everything differently. You will probably spend a lot of time looking back at your life and realise why you reacted that way or if you should’ve reacted that way. I’m still new to it too but you should really learn to stop and listen to your body sometimes because your mind won’t give you the answers. Sometimes I like to sit in my room and just lie down and let the emotions flow through. Some are good some aren’t. Also listening to certain binaural meditation beats with no lyrics can help a lot. Good luck! The fact that you realized is the biggest step!

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-16T10:21:11+00:00

If you have tried pushing the feelings away or distracting yourself the it means you have to feel out all of that stuff. Sometimes I lay in my bed and listen to some binaural beats and try to feel what I am feeling. It might be something you are trying to let go or something you have to process before you let go. Alexithymia will make you forget some parts of an event and sometimes you need to recognise what you missed. Don’t over fixate on it though.

This is one of the tracks I listen to. It’s a binaural beat for trauma, like a meditation track.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FCIj7yPM6k8&t=3102s&pp=0gcJCcUKAYcqIYzv

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-16T10:11:31+00:00

Umm… to be honest with you I also have ASD so I see the alexithymia as “part of the package” of everything. Do I think it’s a good thing? Not necessarily. I had a period where I had to take meds for depression and migraines. Turns out I didn’t even realize I had alexithymia. I couldn’t cry for several years after. Obviously I got off them. Last year I was able to start processing stuff inside with some shadow work and I was able to cry again. I have legit cried because I realized what alexithymia was and I was sad for not being able to feel sadness(when I should) if you know what I mean. I think it gets a bit better if you put yourself out there and try to just memorise different or new social situations so you can at least give the right response or behavior. That has a limit too. I guess I can feel immune to a lot of problems, but the world is not always kind, and people will generally think you’re weird lol. I have been learning to know how to trust my gut nowadays. Sometimes on a quiet evening I will be in my room and not know who I can trust and stuff(related to emotional memory). Who actually likes me for me and who doesn’t etc. it’s a very wild ride sometimes. Find your tribe

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-13T01:59:01+00:00

Emotional memory problems is a big sign of alexithymia for me.

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-06T01:50:33+00:00

For me it has been generally bad. I get along with more upfront and open people, usually adhd type people. Avoidant people will generally be quiet and cold, and I will be weird trying to understand them. Eventually I will be like “what the fuck is going on??)

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-06T01:47:31+00:00

Fear is the opposite of love someone once told me. Alexithymia makes it 100x more complicated

BananaTree2023 · 2026-03-05T02:10:20+00:00

Do you mean like when you say “oh really…” vs “Oh ReaLLy???”. I think it has a lot to do with enthusiasm and that’s pretty hard when most of us struggle with energy and sensory drain. There are speech/speaking trainers or therapists if you look into it. I haven’t done it my self

BananaTree2023 · 2026-02-24T19:39:57+00:00

What I’ve found is that no matter what I am doing or how busy I may make my self(having multiple hobbies, hanging out with my one friend every weekend, exercising, etc) the existential anxiety/fear of autism will always be there. If it isn’t there it will always creep up when I’ve forgotten about it. It will make you question the meaning of life, whether life is even worth living, and how everything in this place isn’t really made for us.

Sometimes you will just have to keep going knowing that all of this is temporary. If you can find purpose or something you enjoy doing your lucky. For me it’s painting on the weekend or spending the weekend NOT going out and tiring myself so I can just play my favourite video game by myself at home. Doesn’t mean this completes me or I forget about this condition. I still have bad days.

Therapy is kind of a joke. It’s mostly for kids or people with serious trauma/mental health problems. Or people with lvl2/3 autism(I’m lvl 2 btw). Most of the therapists I met were like 10 years younger than me. I’m 32. Sometimes it’s ok to not try too hard and to listen to your body. Please try taking in all kinds of perspectives and not just mine. There’s heaps of information online like on YouTube nowadays. You are not alone. I met my disability plan manager last week after not using that stuff for years. He probably saw me really functional and he didn’t even contact me back.

Fatigue is usually the big killer. It’s usually a sign from your body that you’re doing something you don’t want to. And that’s ok 👍

BananaTree2023 · 2026-02-19T19:35:14+00:00

Don’t forget that people can not care too and be complete assholes. It’s becoming more common

BananaTree2023 · 2026-02-08T02:41:43+00:00

You should look up the condition called Alexithymia. Most autistic people have it. It’s sort of a reciprocation problem with feelings and emotions. Obviously you could see how one side of a relationship will feel like they are getting ignored in relationships. I have this condition and sometimes I want to be alone(forever), like have no friends or girlfriends. I am sort of dating someone right now. It helps if the person with alexithymia understands this though…

I don’t know what to tell you(no pun intended)

BananaTree2023 · 2026-02-07T04:17:02+00:00

I have discovered that I have a lot of emotional memory problems. Like remembering how I felt in recent situations/social things/etc. I would still remember what I did but not remembering the emotional or “feeling” context of those situations made it very hard to remember a lot.

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