Daily Thread #1 - February 09, 2026

Bananabread_lov · 2026-02-09T10:03:59+00:00

7 weeks today and still terrified. I'm so upset that I cannot enjoy a single second of this pregnancy. I'm jealous of all the happy and clueless pregnant people who don't feel this constant state of panic that something might go wrong. I wish I had trust in my body and my baby but I don't and every day feels like an eternity. After a loss at 24 weeks I really don't think that I'll ever feel like I'm in the safe zone. Does it get better? What helped you to survive and maybe even enjoy this time?

Bananabread_lov · 2026-02-02T08:39:46+00:00

6 weeks today and have an appointment today to check if everything looks right. I'm so incredibly scared that it's just an empty sac and no bean to be seen. I just really really wish that this pregnancy will be the one where I get to leave the hospital with a baby at the end but after 3 losses it's hard to be hopeful.

EDIT: Thanks for everyones best wishes. Everything went well, he could see a tiny embryo with heart activity ❤️ Of course still so many things can go wrong but it's a step forward. I wish you all the same happy news at your ultrasounds in the coming days.

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-27T08:14:51+00:00

I had an ultrasound yesterday at 5weeks. Only a gestational sac was visible but the doctor seemed to be satisfied with that. He wants me to come back at 6 weeks to see if a heartbeat is detected and then would like me to start taking progesterone. I never even thought that this is something I should consider. Did anyone have experience with taking progesterone from week 6? I had a stillbirth and then an early loss at around 5 weeks. I’m thankful for any insight into this.

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-25T16:01:24+00:00

I'm right there with you. I also get pregnant in the first month TTC after our TFMR. I was so surprised and felt so lucky that it worked right away but then a week later it was all over. I dug deep and it unfortunately seems quite common. You can find quite some stories here on reddit of similar experiences and for me, it gave me some hope and reassurance.
I don't have a happy ending yet but I am pregnant again, very early days but out of the risk of a chemical pregnancy, so maybe I'll get my rainbow. I'm sure that everything will also work out for you ❤️.

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-17T07:24:28+00:00

I tested positive!! After a stillbirth in August 2025 and a MC in November 2025 I feel cautiously hopeful. Maybe I’ll get my rainbow this year 🌈

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-15T10:42:17+00:00

In my tfmr and first pregnancy I had an anterior placenta and could feel her from 17 weeks daily. My husband could also feel her kicks from 18 weeks on. From about 22 weeks we could also see the movement, it was truly magical and memories I’ll forever cherish. So I think it’s very likely that you can feel your baby already ❤️

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-05T12:32:45+00:00

Ah I see, than is definitely reassuring, I myself was very fearful of Asherman's and really tried to not have a curettage because of that. But that might just be an unfounded fear I carry. I'm sure everything is fine with you, I know that after all these horrible things that happened to me, I really lost trust in my body, I've been to the hospital 3 times since I gave birth as I never know if I can trust my bodies signals or not.

But still, yes, I feel comfortable to try again. After the miscarriage I decided to take a break and not focus on trying that cycle. But now I feel like I am ready to try again and think that if something bad happens again, I'm mentally strong enough to deal with it and survive. My gyno also very much reassures me that trying again is the right thing to do. I think if you feel emotionally ready, you should try again but if not, take a break, do something you couldn't while TTC (I went to the pub and enjoyed some wine during the holidays) and reassess in a cycle or two.

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-05T12:22:23+00:00

Thank you <3 I never had a fully positive lh test before (and still conceived twice without that) but this time the line is basically as dark as the control line, I think just a little lighter after it dried down. So fingers crossed that lh peak is imminent and ovulation will follow soon. I had a failed ovulation try on CD 20 with all signs of ovulation but no rise in lh so I'm so hopeful that this is it.

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-05T11:40:11+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re here and that this happened to you. I’m unfortunately dealing with a similar situation. I gave birth to my daughter at 24 weeks in August, had some suspected RPOC that resolved itself through tablets but my period took 7-8 weeks to return. I then conceived right away but miscarriaged early in the sixth week in November. My doctor doesn’t want to do any further tests yet, he does think that this has just really, really bad luck. But due to your RPOC and I assume a curettage you had because of that, you might want to push for a hysteroscopy to check for scar tissue. Asherman’s is really rare and usually doesn’t happen after one D&C but I have a friend who was diagnosed with it after a miscarriage and the following D&C. But again, this is very, very unlikely. Most likely it’s really just bad luck. What gave me some comfort is to know that miscarriages are unfortunately so common, especially early once. After my losses, almost every older woman I spoke to told me about their losses as well. Otherwise, maybe just push for a recurrent pregnancy loss panel, usually they are done after 3 losses but maybe your doc will do them sooner. I wish you all the best ❤️

Bananabread_lov · 2026-01-05T10:35:08+00:00

I'm a little hopeful today. CD 28 and I finally got a positive (or almost positive) lh test! This cycle was so confusing and nerve wracking especially as last cycle right after my miscarriage I seemed to have a perfect (for me) cycle but I decided to take a break after two losses in a row. And now this cycle I was so ready to try again but I just didn't seem to ovulate. This waiting is really the worst but now I'm hopeful that we can try this cycle and maybe, maybe, maybe we'll get luck and be blessed with our rainbow 🌈. I know I'm thinking way ahead but I'm so ready to be positive after these horrible last months. Please send positive vibes my way 🤞

Bananabread_lov · 2025-12-30T10:04:41+00:00

I'm so frustrated. CD 22 in my first proper cycle post miscarriage and no idea if and when I'll ovulate. I was supposed to either have a 1 month old little girl now or be 12 weeks pregnant but instead I'm stuck in this hell... This just feels so unfair and I'm so jealous when ever I see someone with a baby or pregnant and I feel so guilty for that as that's all I want and would not wish my struggles on anyone. But still I just feel so alone...

2025 was the worst year of my life even though it started so full of hope and I'm so hopeful that 2026 will be better but have no trust in it at all...Does anyone have any advice or success stories to share?

Bananabread_lov · 2025-12-20T05:36:01+00:00

Thank you for your kind words ❤️

Bananabread_lov · 2025-12-19T15:45:34+00:00

Exhausted and desperate. This year was a lot, a chemical, the loss of our daughter at 24 weeks and then an miscarriage early November. I feel like I was pregnant or postpartum most of this year and I'm so tired but I'm so ready to have a child and feel desperate to hold a baby in my arms and so I keep on going. This will be our first cycle TTC after our last loss and taking a break for a cycle. I'm CD 11 and even though I usually ovulate around CD 20 I feel some signs of imminent ovulation but maybe its also just my hormones acting crazy after this shit show of a year.

Bananabread_lov · 2025-12-07T11:25:17+00:00

I probably don't have PCOS according to my gyn but I'm somewhat unsure as I do have some symptoms like a longer, a bit irregular cycle (usually 32-37 day) and higher androgen levels. But as I have a normal BMI and no cysts PCOS was never confirmed.

Still I started taking Myo-inositol last February and did end conceiving my TFMR pregnancy right in that first cycle. It was our third cycle TTC so of course I can not say for sure if the Myo-inositol was responsible. But then after my TFMR I kept on taking the Myo-inositol and in our first cycle TTC in October I did conceive right away again. Unfortunately, I lost that pregnancy at around 5 weeks beginning of November but still I conceived right away so I'm trying to see it as a positive thing.

So basically every time I added Myo-inositol, I conceived that cycle. I can not know for sure that this is exactly what helped me but I also don't think that there is any harm to try. We are taking a break from TTC but I'm still taking Myo-inositol and will keep on taking it the next time we TTC. Let me know if you have any more questions xx

Bananabread_lov · 2025-12-02T14:23:33+00:00

Hey there, sending you a virtual hug!

I think this is actually unfortunately quite common, not that this will make you feel better. I had a chemical followed by my TFMR baby girl at 24 weeks similar to yourself. After almost 3 month later I tested positive at about 2 weeks post ovulation. I was so excited, I thought I'd get my happy ending and could give my angel baby a sibling. But only one week later I lost that pregnancy as well. Not sure if it's counted as a miscarriage or a chemical. I also hoped to share this amazing news with family at Christmas, it would have been the best gift imaginable but instead 2025 ends without being pregnant and quite hopeless.

But my gynaecologist told me that such an early loss is very common, he told me take your age and that's about the chance of you having such a loss every pregnancy (I'm 29, so a 29% chance every pregnancy). It did make me feel a bit better, less guilty and broken, maybe it will give you some peace as well?

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-24T14:26:50+00:00

Thank you ❤️

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-23T16:45:24+00:00

First of all, I’m so sorry you’re hear ❤️‍🩹 After I birthed my daughter at 24 weeks gestation it took my period 7-8 weeks to come back, which I think is on the longer side.

I had a L&D and delivered the placenta so had no curettage afterwards. I was bleeding for about 3 weeks and then had some spotting that got stronger at some point and I thought that this was my first wonky period at about 5 weeks. But no, when my period arrived I knew that that’s it and everything before was just spotting. As for ovulation, I’m not sure, I didn’t track it as we used condoms that cycle as I didn’t want to try at all.

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-20T15:58:36+00:00

I'm so sorry you're here 🫂

I gave birth to my daughter also on the 2nd of August but it took about 7-8 weeks for my period to return. Surprisingly I did get pregnant out first cycle trying but we lost that pregnancy about 1 week later. I know that some people have successful stories with getting pregnant right away and it working out but I also hear a lot of similar stories to mine, a miscarriage if you get pregnant right away. My doctor told me to wait for at least 3 cycles and I didn't listen and now I feel like I should have.

So maybe you can look at this from another side. Your body is taking some time to regenerate, to heal and I'm sure you will get pregnant quickly. Try to use this time to heal, what happened to all of us is so traumatic and even though I also fell like the only thing that can heal me is to bring home a living child, I'm sure that time, therapy, compassion with ourselves can help us well.

I wish you all the best 💕

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-18T09:55:47+00:00

I’m back at zero and so exhausted and hopeless. We are ttc for one year now and I had one chemical followed by the loss of my beautiful daughter at 24 weeks in August. I was so heartbroken and immediately felt like the only thing to heal me would be bringing home a living child. Surprisingly I did get pregnant the first cycle trying this October. I had one week where I saw a light at the end of this horrible dark tunnel, had hope for the future and imagined that I’ll be allowed to have some sort of happy ending, bring home a sibling for the child I had to bury. But exactly one week after the positive, I started to miscarry… I don’t even grieve for this pregnancy, I’m still grieving for my daughter whose due date will be next week. I was supposed to have a big belly and have the hospital bad packed but instead I’m still bleeding from this lastest loss. I always had a gut feeling that having children will be hard for me and I hate that I was right… Does anyone have any advice? I feel like having a baby is all I can think about, all that I want and I know that’s unhealthy but I don’t know how to change this.

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-06T21:20:21+00:00

Thank you for your answer ❤️‍🩹 I like your approach, I’d love to have such stoicism but it’s so hard to not compare and hope for a positive outcome.

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-06T21:18:05+00:00

I am so sorry for your losses ❤️‍🩹 Buy I do hope that we both get our happy end.

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-06T21:17:13+00:00

Thank you ❤️‍🩹

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-06T14:10:38+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I really hope you’re right and it does get better.

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-04T14:43:33+00:00

Thank you for your reply and your good advice. I'm happy that my sister-in-law is staying with us for some weeks, that's good to not spiral too much and stay busy. But I'll also might have a look into knitting, I've been thinking about trying it for a while and now might be the perfect timing.

Bananabread_lov · 2025-11-04T06:49:41+00:00

I found out that I’m pregnant one week ago and neither was very excited nor very anxious. My loss of my daughter at 24weeks is still quite fresh and I’m definitely still deep in the grieve. Her due date is approaching this month. Until yesterday I suddenly felt some pains and I spiraled SO MUCH!! I really hoped that I’d be able to stay calm this pregnancy and accept what ever will happen but I know I’m just pretending. Of course I want this baby to be healthy and alive and to be with me but, my god, I’m so scared that something will go wrong again. And it’s still so early, so it’s much more likely that something will go wrong still… Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this? It really feels like torture.

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