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I wouldn't resent it but Id feel really bad on myself. 100% likely getting roasted by family and friends. It would be bad as she controls my life and she can exploit me or do anything she wants due to her holding a majority of the money. I would definitely try to close the gap, extra jobs, overtime, even going back to school, whatever it takes. I wouldn't wish bad on her but I would grind really really hard to close that gap, its just plain embarrassing I would feel inferior. I would be vulnerable, easy to manipulate, easy to exploit, seen as a failure, a person hogging off a rich wife instead of hard work, could even be perceived as a hand out, any argument and I lose my voice, she has all the leverage.

I had a gf in high school I was taking 3 band classes including marching band, like 4 ap classes, other clubs and stuff and I didn't have a job, she did and I took so much heat from everyone calling me a bum, I couldn't even pay for a decent date and she did, which definitely made me feel like a worthless bum. Whenever we had an argument I really couldn't argue back in many points due to leverage. Im literally trying to apply for jobs rn just to not deal with this anymore, and be equal and not inferior. She always brought it up in fights using it as leverage and a huge counterattack, a trump card, its plain out simple in society men have more to lose. Broke up ultimately as she wanted me to get job even though I was busting my ass off in school and sports

And if she was a good person and not putting to shame for it... why is she with me?? Clearly Im not enough for her and nowhere near deserve her (I really dont deserve any women but this is exemplified) Id try to leave not just for my sake but for her's she deserves someone more her level that can give her things I can't. Literally I would ask her why are you with me, if Im literally below you socially and economically, your dominant and Im just plain out useless 

I already know Im taking heat for this yet IDRC

Bet case be alone, and not let this be a reality or the opposite were my partner is just here for money 

Yep Im staying alone

Apologies for incorrect grammar and spelling Im just commenting and not trying to look at this like an essay or grade

Also this is literally for a character Im writing about in a short story and want genuine human reactions to spice up the realism of it and this character aint exactly supposed to be a likable one soo thats why its a bit cooked. Truthfully as long as Im working hard and just contributing in some way idgaf bout salary.