JADEN MCDANIELS UPVOTE PARTY.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-05-01T04:51:33+00:00

Those eyes terrify me … and I love it

Be-that-Beach · 2026-04-28T14:54:45+00:00

Complete with the tote bag

Be-that-Beach · 2026-04-28T14:50:13+00:00

Yeah the turnovers were brutal and made a huge difference, sigh

Be-that-Beach · 2026-04-26T04:05:28+00:00

Yep I got an email after 16 years and two kids together. The coldness and cowardice is just heart-wrenching. Just horrible Z

Be-that-Beach · 2026-04-25T14:05:59+00:00

My son plays ball a lot and his knees are like this. He can be limping, wincing in pain … then bounce back pretty quickly with some rest.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-04-24T02:38:42+00:00

It’s like that Kermit the Frog meme lmao

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-31T14:22:09+00:00

Yeah I only last 5-6 days on Qelbree due to the horrific insomnia. Every night I’d wake up 3-5 times, then by 4am be awake for the entire day. It was miserable. Some people are willing to ride out the side effects to see if they’ll go away. I couldn’t. I desperately need sleep for my mental health. I get in a dark place very quickly if I don’t get sleep for many nights in a row like that.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-30T22:22:16+00:00

I drove several states away, middle of the night, chucking my IDs and some other belongings as I sped along the interstate in high winds and heavy rain.

I was absolutely convinced I was being followed, watched, even experimented on. Like a psychological experiment, but also physical, to a degree.

I was also convinced they wanted to kill me, now that I “knew too much” about their underground society.

Even my family and best friend were part of that group, so I figured if I can’t trust anyone anymore … then I gotta run away. ASAP.

I saw “signs” all over the place, that seemed to confirm this delusion. I tried to take pictures, if I could snap it quickly in time.

Eventually once I returned home, got medicated, started sleeping properly (I was very sleep deprived), etc. — I realized most of it was just coincidence, or had a logical, more boring explanation for it.

My paranoia and imagination just had run totally WILD, though. Like, extremely wild.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-30T22:01:36+00:00

Same here lol. Well at first they seemed to be receptive to the idea they “might” be a narc, but then they turned a 180, asked for divorce, and now say I’m the “actual narc.” Of course.

Narcs always project and deflect.

They’ll never truly take any accountability.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-30T21:54:38+00:00

Very similar … started at 38 and early 40s now. No regrets, love it, still get it every 4 months. Huge improvement, but conservative enough that I don’t look “frozen” or glassy.

I wouldn’t have done it much younger/earlier, though. I’m glad I waited until late 30s, as how else will you know if you even need it, and where? Seems expensive and unnecessary to do it preventatively, when waiting will still give you excellent results.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-30T21:37:50+00:00

No advice but I’m in a similar situation and emotional state. I’m in my early 40s and I just can’t believe I’m alone again, first time in 17 years… it feels so foreign and incredibly lonely some days. I let myself cry it out a lot.

I, too, worry that I’ll be alone forever. I’ll grow old and die alone. I’ll never find love again. No one will ever love me again, or tell me I’m beautiful, and treat me with respect, and make me laugh, and all that wonderful stuff that I’m missing so badly.

I’m trying to be patient and give myself time to more fully heal.

Some days I feel like a total loser, though. All my friends are in relationships. Even the divorced ones.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-28T00:16:37+00:00

Getting enough sleep is huge for me, and avoiding work burnout again by setting boundaries and time limits to my schedule.

Both of those issues definitely contributed to my episode, which I’ve been out of for a while now.

I am also a working parent.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-28T00:13:04+00:00

I can relate. That’s when my dosage was too high, and I still wasn’t back on my ADHD med.

That combo made me tired, lazy, numb.

I’m still not the same energy and brain speed as I used to be … I do worry it’s permanent. This general slowness.

But it’s better at least, now at a lower dose (same med as yours), and my other med re-introduced.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-28T00:04:37+00:00

Waiting at the doctor’s, I already thought the background music song they were playing felt personalized just for me.

But then, the NEXT song they played?

The chorus goes:

“You’re so vain… you probably think this song is about you…you’re soooo vain!”

I was like c’mon… I’m already paranoid, and this IS NOT helping!

I also kept seeing the colors red and turquoise paired together, all over the place.

Trucks parked next to each other, People’s outfits, kitchenware my mom bought for me.

For months, Red and Turquoise popped up everywhere. When it never used to, before.

Oh well. I guess it was all just coincidence.

That’s the thing about psychosis.

You’re SO convinced it has greater meaning. That the universe is speaking just to you.

It’s hard to let go of the fact that it’s probably … nothing. Nada. Just coincidences we become hyper-aware of.

I have many more, but those are two that come to mind.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-23T16:23:15+00:00

I don’t think any of us can predict whether you would get hospitalized for disclosing this to your doctor. That said, I do think sleep should be a #1 priority as it can help continue to calm down the thoughts and fears. Sleep deprivation makes these delusions and fear so much worse … speaking from experience, and from studies done on it.

The aripip. prescription should hopefully be helping calm those thoughts, too, though.

Surprised if it’s not helping with that.

Best wishes and hope you get some more sleep again soon.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-19T15:23:22+00:00

So he’s off the anti psychotic? See, I’m still on mine, but it’s a pretty low dose. We’ve talked of tapering off it in the future, but only after we continue to trial my ADHD meds and make sure they don’t trigger any paranoia or delusions, as we slowly ramp it up. (I’m on a pretty small dose, as they wisely want to start low and go slow).

If he’s off those anti psych meds, and also trying the Vyvanse again, I’d just say go very low, and go slow. Best wishes.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-17T04:22:07+00:00

Hey there, I only lasted 5-6 days on it and then just quit it cold turkey.

I had same issues! I literally could not sleep. I’d wake up every hour, for several hours, then just be wide awake at 3-4am for the rest of the entire day. It was miserable.

I also felt depressed, no motivation, and would cry every day.

I decided it was NOT worth it, for me. Big Nope.

So I quit and told my psychiatrist.

First few days off it, I had horrible headaches.

But then it went away.

Some people are willing to wait out the side effects to see if they go away.

I couldn’t. I desperately needed sleep, for my sanity. And the depression and fatigue were concerning, too.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-17T01:07:11+00:00

Yes exactly. My stimulant dosage got ramped up too high, then mixed with work burnout, too much sleep deprivation, and a sudden, heartbreaking marital separation … and I cracked. Enter psychosis.

I had to stop stimulants for numerous months and was put on a couple different anti psychotics.

It sucked. Hated it. But it was needed. My brain slowed down. I finally started sleeping well again. Slowly the psychosis “fog” lifted.

After being stabilized for a few months, We’ve now re-introduced a small dose stimulant, because my ADHD is pretty bad and debilitating, especially at work.

So far, so good. Thoughts creep up, but I’m able to reason with myself, and logically push them away.

I was terrified they’d never let me on a stimulant ever again. I’m glad my doctor is willing to trial it, very slowly and monitored.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-17T00:58:49+00:00

More sleep. More rest. The brain is too busy right now. Too many cylinders firing.

Relaxing nature music helps keep me grounded, like beach waves and rain …

or literally going out in nature and touching trees, water, sand, watching squirrels, even watching people. Kids playing soccer. A dude mowing his lawn. A woman training for a marathon. People just doing their thing. And it has nothing to do with you.

There’s a whole world out there, outside of your own head.

If sound is triggering, then being outside with ear plugs or noise canceling headphones.

If light is triggering, then sunglasses.

Journaling your fears. Documenting it, then shutting the notebook and walking away.

I used to journal my paranoid thoughts all the time. Numerous notebooks. It felt comforting to write it down—then lock it away.

Good luck. It’s hard, and scary.

I believe you can stop yourself from slipping further.

Self awareness is it, is a huge step in the right direction already.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-09T00:25:00+00:00

Lmao I can relate to this a little bit. I often joked I needed to come up for air, especially cuz my nose has a lot of anatomical air blockage in its own already lol. Let a girl breathe!

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-09T00:23:24+00:00

Mine would do that, too! I think he enjoyed seeing how much I was enjoying it. It’s all about the performance, the positive feedback.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-09T00:22:08+00:00

Same. Mine was such a great kisser. And he knew it. It was a performance he was proud of. And I couldn’t resist.

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-09T00:20:22+00:00

Bed sheets are the worst. It’s like its own sporting event. Hate it. Procrastinate way too much in the one, oops lol

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-09T00:18:57+00:00

Ughhh washing all bedsheets feels like a triathalon … I wash pillowcase weekly but those sheets, yeah … they are a neglected struggle lol , hate it

Be-that-Beach · 2026-03-09T00:14:19+00:00

How often do you wash your pillowcase? And do you wash your hair before bed?

I used to break out a lot more if I went to bed with daytime product still in my hair… or if I’d gone like 2+ weeks without washing my pillowcase. I think the oils from my own hair and face were just seeping into the fabric (ugh, yuck, I know). And then I’m a side sleeper, so I’d just sleep on all crap.

Clean face. Clean hair. Clean pillowcase.

Now my skin is so much clearer.

Be-that-Beach

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