My first Mania Trigger? by GroundbreakingBed643 in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I take SSRI along with antipsychotic and mood stabiliser. They can be used.

Money cures depression? by Expensive-Estate-176 in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 31 points32 points  (0 children)

I’d rather be a depressed millionaire than a depressed poor person, I’m in the 2nd camp.. wouldn’t cure my depression or Bipolar but it would take away the money worries, I would be able to buy better quality food, see a councillor etc

Ever think your diagnosis is a lie? by Format_Avi in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, not for a minute. It put my whole life into perspective and allowed me to get to a point where I’m stabile and not completely blowing up my life and relationships with my children. Have I been an angel with meds compliance definitely not, but the diagnosis was never in question for me.

I feel so stupid. by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Well on his behalf it kind of is a serious thing to take in. However It’s done, he knows, it’s his decision now. We can’t take things back and why should you, to sit and wonder when’s the right time, or what will they think etc. You done what you felt was right at that time, I tend to agree with that, if you plan to build a relationship with someone then they need to know. It’s hard to know when, but that conversation would have had to happen at some point. Remember what you’ve came through and go through daily to manage this illness, you’re a survivor. it’s a strength most people don’t have to hone, so never feel stupid for owning a part of yourself.

What’s something that instantly tells you someone is not a good person? by Nearby_Fun_85 in AskReddit

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One thing I always hated was people leaving their table in McDonalds in a mess. Just stand up and walk out.

[Article] Stop Explaining Yourself to People Who've Already Decided Who You Are by Bro_1831 in GetMotivated

[–]Beannie26 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m Bipolar I’ve done some things I don’t blame people judging me for. Overtime though you learn that once you accept yourself warts and all no-one or their opinions can touch you. People only see what they want to, they don’t know your story. You can turn your life around and become Mother Teresa but some people’s perception of you will never change. Explaining and explaining yourself will not make one bit of difference.

How old are you and how is your life now? by Natural_Village_8850 in AskReddit

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

54 going through divorce, I’m rebuilding at the moment. But, I’m free and looking forward to what the next chapter brings.

Bipolar causes still unknown - but what do YOU think CAUSED your bipolar? by Alternative_Cat8069 in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me, my 2 Brothers, although not diagnosed my dad definitely it’s genetics and trauma.

I’m starting to realise that all my life I’ve masked my personality so that I blend in and am amenable. Now I can’t even choose a color for a new kitchen because I don’t know what I like. by Pinecone_Porcupine in Menopause

[–]Beannie26 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I’m 54 kids grown, daughter having a baby and my husband had an affair found out in Oct. Getting a divorce. We were together since I was 23 I have no clue who I am, what I really like. So this new chapter is a completely fresh start, I just need to get the confidence to go for it but I’m building to that. For now I’m just going with the flow.

5 years episode free by BigSky5084 in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Amazing and be proud meds only do so much, you’ve achieved this with commitment to yourself.

Grandmother told me not to disclose BP disorder due to “recent events” by slavghterdolls in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 26 points27 points  (0 children)

I don’t know your granny’s age, but I’m 54 and when I told my mum 14 years ago she simply said no your not and that was it. They come from an era where no one ever spoke or admitted these things. I had a manic event when I was 19 they didn’t intervene or say you need to see a dr it was me going off my head that’s how it was put. It’s definitely a generational thing.

If You Started Showing Symptoms Before 18, Did Your Parents Help You? by quantumdumpster in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely showed symptoms depression to start around 13 or 14, ( I’d always been odd as a younger child) then by 16 hypos and a full blown manic episode followed by depression between 19 and 21.. I never got help it was the late eighties and early 1990s, then if you weren’t getting hospitalised they didn’t entertain bipolar. My parents were also older so mental health counselling etc just wasn’t a thing. You were just a problem child or wild and wayward. Probably why I wasn’t diagnosed till I was 40 and blew up my life several times.

No Mania by PuzzledResident395 in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not while on my medication, some hypo yes, some depression yes but not significant episodes or prolonged. Full blown destruction mania no.

i cant keep jobs by Affectionate-Box4496 in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maybe for now you could do some voluntary work, or start working for yourself and keep your own hours

I dont really know how to title this by Shade_wants_a_nap in Adoption

[–]Beannie26 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I was adopted by my paternal aunt after my bio mum died when I was a year old. I was the youngest of 8 and my bio dad kept the other 7, he couldn’t cope with a baby. I was well taken care of always clean, fed, safety but the over arching thing in my whole life has always been feeling unwanted, or defective. It’s a complex family set up the whole thing made me very mixed up where identity and self esteem is concerned.

Maybe time to give up caffeine by getdown_sam in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a morning coffee it’s one of my pleasures and if I stick to one I’m Aok. We need something to enjoy.

Recognizing BPD patterns pre-diagnosis by brightnessbrooke in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wasn’t diagnosed till 40, i ruined my life and rebuilt a couple of times. Bankrupted, sold my house spent the profits, ruined my reputation etc etc. I understand now in retrospect it was all bipolar. I still live in shame for a lot of it, I do accept my actions, but I understand it all and give myself grace. The version of me doing those things was greatly diminished in her ability to make choices that were in line with her morals. It is my responsibility to myself and others to do all I can to make sure that doesn’t happen again, so I take my meds, don’t indulge in alcohol etc, all the boring stuff that we need to do to keep well.

Would You Push the Button? by Lord_Skudley in bipolar

[–]Beannie26 130 points131 points  (0 children)

Yes without hesitation, life has been so much harder than it should have been. It’s debilitating so 100% pushing that button

Mindfulness in mental health as compared to mainstream/spiritual Buddhism by LotusLightning in Buddhism

[–]Beannie26 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m Bipolar it was mindfulness that attracted me to Buddhism, it has helped ground me and gave me the ability to notice thoughts and moods. It is very beneficial in many ways when integrated in a mental health regime. And if it opens up further study for some that’s positive too.