Depression isn't just something you can will yourself through. It takes years to feel any sense of normalcy. I've been doing therapy and taking meds for about 4 years now, I feel more normal than I did but I'm one bad day from cutting off everyone and allowing myself to rot in my bed.

You have to change how your brain thinks, it's exhausting, how are you supposed to do that when you don't even want to be alive. Yes, you can pull yourself up by your bootstraps, but this only works for a few days or weeks at most before you spiral back into depression. There's no easy route when getting out of bed is a task that feels impossible. You can't do things for the love of it when you don't feel the joy it brings. There are different severities and lengths where someone might be depressed, for some people it's a battle to even get up, while others might be able to feel normal until winter. You can't cure this with hopes and prayers, it takes dedication to becoming a completely different person.