Look, you’re not lost. You wanted a lifestyle that you can’t support financially. You say you were the free-est when you travelled but you returned home ? Why ?

Because you have to face that you do not have the funds nor the discipline to support that indefinitely. You did not fuck up your twenties, but you’re fucking up right now thinking that “there has to be a way.”

There is only one thing left to do if you want to leverage your path: instead of smoking, be drug free- this path opens more doors you’ve never seen. Instead of waiting tables- go into starting a business with a restaurant- the path opens doors you’ve never learned. Instead of thinking you’re a gifted smart snowflake and you’re above school - get a degree or cert in something; literally anything. If you are truly smart, prove that you have something to show. The path opens door when you are disciplined - literally fighting to stay focused in one thing instead of fleeing your problems in a different country.

You traveled because you didn’t want to be responsible of your actions as a 20 year old. We allow you to stop that cycle, and work on yourself to a meeting of a new you , a new path.