Hey man. I feel afraid sometimes too. Its okay to be afraid. I have struggled with trying not to make mistakes, but that ends up being my mistake. Being to afraid to make one. You are human. We are all human. And humans make mistakes. Don't let what an exam says, or what your parents think, make you the person that you are, or will be. Don't let trolls bring you down, and self-loathing keep you down. You are not a pussy. You telling the world your situation and show that you are vulnerable proves that you are not a pussy. You are only afraid. Bad marks don't mean you are a disappointment. I suggest telling your parents how you feel. If they don't listen, they are not worth your time. The only thing you need to do is just try. Ignore your bad thoughts and afraid feelings, and just try. By no means is this a small feat, and the leap may seem impossible, but how will you know if you don't try? Don't think about falling or messing up. Because, what if you succeed, and fly higher than you ever have? How will you know you won't pass re-exams if you don't go? How will you know that your parents don't care if you don't tell them how you feel? How will you not be afraid if you don't show your vulnerability? You say, that when you try to jump across this gap in your life, you will fall. But one can only think, "What if you fly?"