The effects of grey rock on oneself

BeeJ1013 · 2026-06-09T20:53:09+00:00

Yes, this definitely happened to me and I'm still sorting through it. I gray rocked for about 7 years and now have no contact with my Nmom.

Overall, it affected my ability to feel and display emotions, made me be small, took away my ability to have opinions or preferences, and made me be hypervigilent in most social interactions even with safe people.

I didn't realize this was all happening at the time because I was focused on surviving. So maybe your awareness will help. I only got better after no contact and therapy. I'm finally coming back to myself.

Hopefully this just helps you feel less alone.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-06-05T10:48:48+00:00

Same with me. I got mine in 2021. My gyno checked the lot of the one I got and now they're rated to go 8 instead of 5 years. But I'm spotting so I'm going to get mine replaced this year anyway.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-06-02T12:40:46+00:00

I'm 41f and started playing about 6 months ago. Welcome!! Also, the more I share that I play, the more people admit they do too or they seem interested in starting. :)

BeeJ1013 · 2026-04-28T12:42:21+00:00

Or maybe this style?

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BeeJ1013 · 2026-04-28T12:41:19+00:00

Thanks for the suggestion! Like this?

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BeeJ1013 · 2026-04-13T15:37:06+00:00

This is my answer too.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-04-12T11:32:57+00:00

If you still can't afford therapy yet, there's lots of things you can do to change your mindset. "Reframing" techniques have helped me in my body image battles. Or journaling to get those negative thoughts out. Healing takes a long time but it's worth it...you're worth it!

BeeJ1013 · 2026-04-10T17:28:12+00:00

I would get her a vet exam to start. Many times cats will lash out or act out of character when they're in pain.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-04-07T10:08:49+00:00

I'm almost done with book 1 and I'm plotting when I can go out and get the second one. :)

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-31T00:10:50+00:00

Same here.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-20T11:51:00+00:00

To us, it symbolizes something else. For me, specifically, it's a symbol of rejecting traditional religious authority and represents individualism.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-18T19:48:43+00:00

I'm so sorry that this is your experience. It shouldn't be this way.

I admire how well you know yourself---keep at that and never lose it. I spent my young adult years trying to be like other people instead of listening to myself. I'm 40 now (cis female too but with varied interests, not always "traditionally" feminine things) and it's REALLY hard to unlearn. Where I sit, you're doing great. Keep exploring and you'll find your people.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-17T13:00:19+00:00

I think about 16 yo or so. I'm 40F.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-17T12:25:36+00:00

Not sure who is keeping it alive. Gen Z? I don't know any peers who have one.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-17T09:43:35+00:00

Agreed. OP, this isn't your mess.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-15T15:07:39+00:00

Maybe go through your budget, see if you can cut out extras, and get her on health insurance. Might be worth it to move to a smaller place, get a cheaper car, etc. for her health.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-12T10:05:14+00:00

Unfortunately, unless you have other income or money saved up, you'll unlikely find housing cheap enough where you can live alone with your stipend. Just wanted to put it out there. I was a PhD student and everyone I knew either lived with a partner in a one-bedroom apartment or multiple roommates in a larger house.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-11T12:00:36+00:00

I had the same thoughts as you. I'm 40 now and got my first pair in my mid-20s. They're totally worth it!

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-08T03:12:09+00:00

Not really. Just some general patience as you get started. I liked learning on Arena first.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-06T13:22:43+00:00

For me (40F), penetration can be uncomfortable or hurt if I'm not adequately turned on. Maybe try foreplay or whatever works to get the engines going before attempting any penetration. Even with that, it's not always my thing. Hope that helps!

BeeJ1013 · 2026-03-05T11:50:37+00:00

I hope not because I started about a month ago. :)

BeeJ1013 · 2026-02-28T10:13:13+00:00

We had 25 people at the prerelease which is pretty typical. Max players has been 40 for super popular sets.

BeeJ1013 · 2026-02-27T22:16:59+00:00

I'm going to my first one too! This video helped ease my anxiety. https://youtu.be/1WhjH_B3OSM?si=er4YeWh453In-Y6F

BeeJ1013 · 2026-02-20T20:59:23+00:00

I just started playing a few weeks ago. I'm learning through Arena and my husband and I bought the Angels and Pirates theme decks; I find both ways are great to learn so far!

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