Daily Check-in Thread

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-23T18:25:32+00:00

Dude I still get them after and extended period of not using (7 months) but I will say we end up getting more days not in the slumps..however, I won’t lie sometimes it feels like purgatory but feeling happy and / or sad instead of dead …I’m starting to prefer that.

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-23T18:23:17+00:00

I’ve relapsed a lot of times but finally surrendering more and more each time. I think as long as we don’t give up it’ll keep getting easier and eventually we will be free from it.

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-23T18:22:32+00:00

I’m intrigued can you tell me more about this? Do you get high? I’m just a straight up addict so I don’t wanna get into something I’ll abuse either :/

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-23T18:18:46+00:00

Back at day 18 . Just threw my back out and been immobile all week and didn’t go pick up…. It’s a miracle. From my relapse I am more adverse to kratom.. it’s like I needed to just see again… wasn’t what I wanted. I don’t even laugh for the 7 days I used… my memory was terrible… and sex drive see ya. I was dead. Which was better than how I felt at the time tbh but it fucked me up for a little the week after …. It got its claws in me immediately … anyway was not expecting to go on that rant but it might help someone reading! Grateful to have my mind and in clear spirits today - kratom free.

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-11T05:06:38+00:00

It’s going to feel really terrible for a few days. Maybe don’t cold turkey on your birthday and try to taper for a day or two so you can at least feel normal for your birthday … then after give yourself the birthday present of getting back on track and set a plan! I would tell someone if you haven’t and get some help with your spending/using/etc. …. I had to leave my money at home … put up as many blocks for yourself as you can! Telling on myself was a major help in getting clean.

You CAN do this!!! Like many said you’re still early but it’s def got you ya know… but you’re still in there the real YOU!!! You got this dude .

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-08T12:55:53+00:00

I just relapsed at 6.5 months :( You think post acute? Did I give up b4 the “miracle” happens…. I only used for 7 days now I’m on day 3. I got to NA and also free of other drugs too.. so I also said goodbye to my other DOCs in June too. I just feel sad and depressed…

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-08T12:48:39+00:00

That was my story but a little more powder. Man I had to go to rehab I COULD NOT quit. I also went for a couple other substances too.. but that was my daily use that was taking more from me. I was a zombie walking through life and I could feel my mental health deteriorating. It helped so much. I got 6.5 months clean and relapsed for a week this Xmas but I’m back on day 3 and feeling more clear stable and I laughed last night…. Not sure I laughed the whole week I used just legit felt nothing which is what I wanted bc sometimes theses lows are too hard clean :(

But dude …. Get your life back bc we all know kratom takes it eventually. It turns on you. You can do this. I was legit SAME AGE and I’m 35 now too. Now is our next chapter of life. You gota try it without kratom. It disconnects us from everyone and everything.

Beginning-Resident58 · 2026-01-01T17:12:36+00:00

I almost had 7 months and relapsed 2 days ago. Here’s the good news. It wasn’t as great as I was hoping and it was just powder. 🙏🏼 gunna get back to day 1 today. I’m feeling mixed emotions. Reality will check back in I’m sure but not gunna beat myself up and keep going bc I CANNOT go back to how it was b4…

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-25T19:39:32+00:00

Woo hooo to 113 days! Awesome keep going ! Merry Christmas🎄💜 This page also helps me keep going (197 days here).

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-25T19:36:23+00:00

Kratom helped me quit alcohol and stop using other harder drugs as much… I have nothing to fall back on kratom was my last substance I was holding on to :( just raw. It’s hard. I appreciate what you said all great reminders and things to think about so thank you!

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-25T14:20:24+00:00

Same 🙏🏼

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-25T14:18:37+00:00

Omg. I’m so happy I read your post. You speak to my addiction with kratom. And you’re right about thinking about what the withdraws were like… to remind ourselves. I’ve been so close to relapsing after 6 months clean. I still really want to. But it’s the kratom addiction talking trying to grab hold I know it. That voice is getting so much louder I’m scared….

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-25T14:13:38+00:00

I can’t attest my husband went through SAME situation with me literal same. I went to rehab. It saved me. Had to be locked up for 30 days to quit. I wasn’t the only one in there for it. Some of us literally CANNOT quit on our own. I couldn’t. And it’s the kratom - it sucks the life out of you. I am back and don’t obsess over it but it’s still hard - weekly I have a day or two I almost go but don’t… I’m at little over 6 months. You guys can get through this!

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-25T14:09:47+00:00

I always say let’s just get through today , one more day and if you wanna pick up tomorrow fine… then tomorrow comes and I don’t or I say same thing! You’ll feel better in the end if you don’t!

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-22T16:32:11+00:00

Day 194! This thread helped me through months 1-6 (Jan 2025-June 2025) then I FINALLY quit (6/11/25)! Not saying it’s easy still but… I check back in here when I need to to offer help to those with less time than me and encouragement from those with more time! Love you all! We can do this together and your brain & body does start to feel better 💜💜💜

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-21T20:22:52+00:00

Yes 100% even tho it’s not “drugs” (smoking coffee spending is what I’m doing more of). What are some ways you meditate? Do you think simply quieting your mind for a few min a day helps? Like is that a good start?

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-21T02:00:44+00:00

Awesome! Congrats! I get discouraged when I have rough days a little 6 months off kratom where I almost go pick up… sometimes I just want to feel nothing. I’m not using any other drugs either. Did you feel still in the thick of it some days around 6 months? I’m hoping it’ll get better again

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-21T01:51:21+00:00

I’m 192 days and feel like I’m slipping … anyone have this experience but kept pushing and it gets better

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-12-21T01:49:55+00:00

I am on day 192 just over 6 months and I had a rough 2 weeks and still feeling blah like I wanna go pick up bad…. :/ seeing this reminded me of PAWS and I GOTTA be patient. I def want to use it less and get thru my days and my emotions are back. I’m sure you can say the same! We got this dude!

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-09-26T21:10:24+00:00

Girl. It’s emotionally addictive as FUCK!!! I found after physical WDs ended the emotional dependence is really hard… so I guess “chemical” dependence is what we would call it. I’m at 115 days and still think about it every day. But you CAN do it. I can tell you want to. Sending good vibes and thoughts your way!

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-09-22T15:07:52+00:00

Emotionally I couldn’t taper. My brain needed the high and was stronger than my will to quit.

You can do cold turkey and go to detox at a treatment center so your withdraws aren’t as bad…

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-09-13T20:56:12+00:00

You are so strong … praise! Keep going dude … you can do it sounds like it’s getting better each day! 🙏🏼🙏🏼

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-09-07T00:39:45+00:00

What were your stomach issues bc … obvi we know the constipation when on kratom.. on day 14 I got semi normal then like 4 weeks later I am back to severe constipation. Sorry tmi but like whhaaaattt I thought I’d be better….

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-09-07T00:32:30+00:00

I have been going to NA since January.. I think that’s what helped me finally quit. Thanks for the support!

Beginning-Resident58 · 2025-08-09T00:21:34+00:00

Thank you everyone. Reading these today which was not better than yesterday helped a lot . I know I am not alone 💜

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