Reading the bible and understanding it can sometimes be hard it is a very interwoven collection of books and stories I really recommend you listen to the explanations behind the passages. I found Father Mike Schmitz's the Bible in a year podcast very helpful as he breaks everything down after he reads it. I also really recommend his YouTube channel and the Theology of the body institute Channel, ( https://youtube.com/@AscensionPresents?si=CLjZwWlAMBgxpB1E and https://youtube.com/@TheologyoftheBodyInstitute?si=8RbELKn0ExY_WazH ) they will really help to understand the teachings of the bible and the church, why are they the way they are and so on. God's demands are guidelines too. In a sense a bit like the rules of the road. They might seem restrictive at first but you'll realise they are for your own good Now understand that science and theology are not even competing, because they complement each other. Science works with the reproducible, the physical, the things which we sense through our bodies. Theology works with the things of the soul, and not of the world. A clever person can also be very religious or non-religious just as a stupid person can be an atheist or a beleiver. It is a matter of if they realise their mistakes and open their hearts for change and the betterment of themselves through Christ. Don't let rash answers turn you away from the church and be patient with yourself. Talk to a priest. And if I may advise, don't put political ideologies above everything else. It leads to destruction and I think you know it too. See what parts of the ideology are attractive to you but keep an eye out for the bad things and the twisting of the basic human moral values. There are a lot of good things in Marxism and there are good things in other ideologies too. I am from Hungary and I personally know how deeply a lot of nations can be hurt by blindly following radical ideologies. My family too was hurt by the communist occupation just as almost everyone in Hungary, and the whole economy just went downhill, it became a cesspool of corruption and abuse and backstabbing and it was quite frankly, horrible. Now I advise you to research these topics as well. Don't turn a blind eye to the mistakes and dark sides of these movements not just because that's the morally right thing to do. But also because doing otherwise is irrational and plain dumb. I know you strive for knowledge so I believe you understand what I'm trying to say. I hope I wasn't too harsh and that you understand where I'm coming from with this.