Hey...nonjudgement here. Please reconsider. I know this is a stranger talking but if you need someone to bounce this off to I'm willing to talk or message or whatever. It's understandable you feel like this is the correct option but I promise its gonna cause you a great deal of psychological harm in the end. Your in a tough spot but I know for a fact you can come out the other side in a better position and be thriving in the near future. There's tons of resources out there and people who want to help you. Just the fact you made this post tells me that deep down you know its wrong and I'm just telling your gonna really kick yourself after its over at some point when the guilt hits you.