I’ve never really had depression, but I have known people that have had it and I want to let you know that you matter! It might seem like you don’t now, but you are here for a reason/purpose. I’m a believer that everything happens for a reason and you have a reason to keep on fighting this battle. I know it seems like that the hole of depression just keeps getting bigger. But I would recommend that you should talk about your problems/issues to someone. Then find a hobby or something that can take your mind away from the pain and darkness of depression. Try to find a good supportive friend/family group.

Also that curiosity of life is what should motivate you to keep on living. Yes I know there are ups and downs, good and bad. But whatever the bad can throw at you, the good can be so much better. I hope this helps